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pat Aug 2014
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this took me a lot longer than it would have taken you lol
pat Aug 2014
I saw  I had 68 poems
then thought  "ha  69"
pat Aug 2014
Red tubes ***** up the few who choose to be blue
they use shoe glue
to fuse the souls of their shoes back together
the weather channel channels
whether or not we can handle the weather
it's all for the better
I compare myself to a rusty faucet
I'm lost yet I've found all new meanings
I'm still feigning for a cigarette
but I figure, best be cautious with my desires
I perspire working for hours
looking forward to a shower
followed by devouring my pillow
with the back of my tired *** head
pat Aug 2014
how could it be
sharing this and I like it
you like the way I say "nice"
speaking in short sentences
about things that I like
slash love and you're one of them
messed up on all of this
feel good atmosphere
pat Aug 2014
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pat Aug 2014
"Ribbet"
unfortunately this frog croaked before posting his own work. So I did the honor.
pat Feb 2014
Gotta have my pops.
Gotta big o'l pretzel.
Gotta sit soon.
Soon I will be  *******.   Soon I will.
Will I be soon?
****  ****  ****.
Where's the ****?
Go home man. Go the hell home.
Hell, I'm home. Now? Now what?
Yeah... Let's figure it out. ok?
(Puke)
Let it out man... Nahhh. Don't do that unless you're ready.
pshhh. I'm not sure what you're trying to say, but let's do
it again. (puke....puke puke puke.)  
Nice nice. Ice that.
That what? Whaaaaaaat?
Don't worry about it mannnnn. It's allllllllll goooood. Good
to me. Good to you. (puke)
Well done
pat Feb 2014
And it sits against the wall
waiting in anticipation
This is not the day for this
I know
and it won't ever be.

Do you believe in your bed?
or would it leave you too sad?
Apart from: lame things, telling scenes from dreams, and
pain, and shame, and everything I guess..
All aside
Do you believe you're down?
That you're too old?

So,Give everything away that matters
and everything that makes you sad.
Wake up.
pat Aug 2014
been here before
Before and I stored things before things went back
black as night I fight to prove something profound
astounded I found that there's not much to it all
all it is, is words and thoughts
caught up In the details of whys and whens
when really if I defend none of it
I end up tending to the voice that will speak the truth
truth is I knew it
truth is I threw it away for comfort and pleasure
pleasure fills me to the rim
it overflows till I have to swim
but the weight of my conscience brings me down
I fight my own sight and inevitably drown
I found comfort in death
my egos gone and all that's left is me
I'm real   I'm blessed
I cup the rest in my foreign hands
I cannot stand the hate
it makes me question my own fate
While *** and drugs come back to play
I desperately shake back to what was I doing?
I must have been lost from whatever the **** was brewing
soon I'm shooing away the evils  of this life
absorbing happy things like lovey dovey  things
no shame in it all. It sings so loud
there is beauty in every spec
and I'm proud that I can see it all
pat Sep 2014
You visit me in my dreams
You wake me up when I am tired
You fill me up when I'm hungry
You keep my spirits up throughout the day
You keep me focused when I need to be
You are there when I want to goof off
You and I have all the same friends
You are always there for me when I see them
You are there for me when I have to say goodbye
You stick with me when I feel uncomfortable
You sit through every late night party with me
You have saved me from every awkward moment
You are there for me when I need a break
You walk me home at the end of the night
You stay awake with me when I can't sleep
You make me feel less lonely
You calm me down when I get anxious
You hold my hand in my darkest moments
You wait with me till the sun comes back
You are the answer to all my problems except you, my one.. cigarettes
pat Aug 2014
It rattles my bones
far from any place considered home
literally alone sitting patiently
facing these hallowed out trees in a cold breeze
a crippled bee wallows on the ground
I found some meat for it to eat
and a stone to help breach it from the sandy madness
sadness takes me as the bee falls back over
a colder breeze chills me
It kills me to see the struggle and stress
fighting without resting.
Accepting its fate I walk away
and contemplate my own last day
everything will living will die
No matter how hard we try to fight
and it might not sound that great
but  I'll wait for that moment
when I know it's all ok
pat Sep 2014
Deliverance
Pensive admiration
It's inquisitive
Punctual and problematic
my entourage
my dwindling embrace
my niche is clandestine
hermetic to myself included
elusive equations
encumbrance,
what a term
conundrums around every turn
vague. Not vague
expensive. economical
Living in squalor
a gay romp
systematic oppression
trace it to the roots
It's sad
unsettling
deliver me always
no longer apprehensive
no longer am I
I am yours truly
pat Aug 2014
I'm on a few days sleep
I'm barely dying
I'm almost hot
I'm kind of not here
I'm actually very sick
I'm outside of feeling things
I'm swearing I'm ok
I'm spitting up blood
pat Aug 2014
I like guys
I think of them
when I sleep
with all these girls
pat Oct 2014
I smile at my everlasting loyalty
I laugh at my ridiculous behavior
I search your name on Google
I locate all your accounts
I browse through all your twitter things
I find your videos to be obnoxious
I fixate on your photos
I see you've stuck with the short hair look
I ask people if they know you
I cringe when they talk about you
I wonder if you are bad
I grin because I am hopeless
I sigh  because I am helpless
I hope I cross your mind
I guarantee I don't
I mythologize you on accident
I pretend that this is not that serious
I see people act like this  sometimes
I regret starting this poem  
I dream about you frequently
I create you to be perfection
I own the setting, the dialogue, and the personality
I wake up feeling desperate
I contemplate contacting you
I remember the last time we talked
I think it went so-so
I bothered you many times over the years
I got out of hand
I fear that there is nothing I can change
I wish sappily when I see shooting stars
I met you a decade ago
I figure you still act the same
I bet I still would tense up around you
I love you unconditionally
I want you to know who I am
I doubt you ever will
pat Sep 2014
cuz like,
carrots are alright
and washing them is part of an every day thing.
Think about it..
We could build our lives around
the creation and destruction of carrots.
Everyday could be like black satin astrolabes
in a carrot sized environment.
No more would we have to wait in line
at complimentary fashion tables
for what we once remembered as carrots.
"Does it fit in the paper?"
Yeah.. I would think so.
I would think it really, really fits.. ok?
pat Sep 2014
my body,
I cover it in wet socks
I fill my pockets with locks of her hair-
due to being scared that she'll stare at my **** while I ***
and the trees, when they bark at me
I say things carefully
and I prepare to be  taken advantage of.
I'm not a fan of your plans to fill my urethra with mud.
I like blood when it's thick like lipstick, but prefer it loose like diarrhea.
It moves down my legs into puddles on the floor.
I close the door and spread it. I adore the chore.
I fed it to my pets kept in my cardboard box.
A white fox and baby ox, they're used to eating nothing but rocks.
they devoured it
I shower in their ***. It powers me.
You see?
***** stained teeth. The man in the mirror hath no sheath for his blade.
He spares no spades and he lives alone.
He's an equestrian.  He's a ******* equestrian and I spat in his face.
Where are your horses now you disgrace?
Goodbye!
Goodbye?
Why am I not surprised that you despise every lie I have devised behind closed blinds?  
Do you hear me? I cry because I've spent my life dying.
It's a sickness. It's a **** fest  to test the spit that we ingest.
My intestines hang low and heavy, resting on my dresser.
I undress her time after time in my mind when I ******* at night.
She was a shoe-in.
Her name is Gwen and she **** in my sink.
It didn't stink, but it was black like ink.
I left it there for days, much like her hair that stays safe in my pocket.
If I had a gold locket, I would fill it with the glue her eye sockets produce in the mornings.
I'm warning you.   I am as crazy as you think I am not,
and if I find you, I'll abuse you till your family doesn't recognize you
Because that's what I do.
If you're feeling confused don't assume that I am used to it.
Don't assume anything.
Don't assume that I am watching you
Don't assume  that I'm watching you
I would never watch someone like you
You're a freak and you disserve me
I don't disserve you
You're a peach and I am nothing but a fly trying to reach into your meat to plant my seed
You need it though. Don't you get it?
I'd die before I'd let you leave my basement and become some *****
You will follow orders, or I will carve them into your skin with a small metal pin
you will listen, oh mother of my kin.
God would have me betray you
God would have me slay you for your sins
I am only man. What would the Gods say of me?
I try to be right, but **** the light.
I'd be a fool not to fight it.
I might as well control my own destiny
and pick at my own festering wounds metaphorically speaking.
I'm tired of teaching myself lessons and of being a pest to the men around me.
I don't owe you anything
You owe me your skin and bone
I own you, you snake.
I can see you want only to bite me
I despise you and your kind.
Racist folk. blind to the world.
shallow girls with ***** toys they stole from their parents.
Apparently you need me to take care of you.
I'll tie you to me, and me to my car as I drive it into the lake
I drown in reality to float in a dream
Sometimes You gotta let it all out   #diarrhea
pat Oct 2014
troubled by
what you do
what you say
you're terrible
pat Aug 2014
tried my best
to write a poem
10 words or less
I was so close
pat Aug 2014
my dear friend Mija,
your voice is quiet and sweet
and you see a lot of truth
inside and out
breaking out of your shell, you have a lot to tell
you're not done yet and I'm eager
to see the rest of your journey
you've inspired me to create and see things beautifully
truthfully, your mind is a goldmine
I've taken the time to pray you stay safe
and have been keeping myself in a really good place
I hope you are too and soon I'll find out
we'll talk about things we both care about
this summer I've done things the way that I choose
I wrote lot's of poems,
but this one's for you
<3
pat Aug 2014
I will never

floss because

getting drilled

turns me on
pat Aug 2014
your toes painted blue
a light sky hue. a whisper to me
tears roll hot down my cheek
your hair's falling out love
I'm gonna miss you when you die
pat Aug 2014
I smack babies with my wrist watch
**** washers in the backseat
mad talk about battle broads and coke hogs
I'm outside of town
out of coke. out of **** smoke
I binge on some coffee grounds my girl found between the seats
our sheets soak in blood behind the back seat
there's mud between my teeth.
my mothers grief, it cannot phase me
I'm lazy
I'm drunk
I'm going 90 and I can't see
but, there's people all around me
shouting things
I wring my socks out in the mouths
of all the people ******* in our car
I start to say "you're welcome"  but I can't help but be distracted
by the Spanish girl in the middle
jaw unhinged and dripping spittle
she says "come a little closer"
I say "Jesus, take the wheel"
I stretch up close and smell her teeth
we close our eyes and start to breathe each others  breath
I read her mind
she'd like to slice me like the swine she thinks I am
but I'm just glad
that I have cigarettes to burn her with
we'll happily take our turns with her
then we'll ditch her on some curb without a note
pat Aug 2014
woke up tired
drove up
"I'm sorry, but you're fired"
literally just got fired this morning lol
please leave me optimistic comments (=
hahahahaha
pat Sep 2014
she told me I was selfish
I told her what that means
I followed her to death
She squeezed my hand. She squeezed the life out of me.
She told me to say things she wanted to hear
I told her what she needed

dark tattered bar baskets
perhaps one shouldn't
loose words and gossip
I can't imagine any benefit
puke food and frivolous spending
where are you?

What is your relationship with yourself, with your soul, and with God?
Are you afraid to let go?
Why?
Find your trust. Do not question. Do not fear. Drop all reason and listen closely..
Let GO
pat Aug 2014
spending time with you
there is nothing to think through
pat Aug 2014
you have me
all I want
in return
is you
pat Sep 2014
Fall
color
fresh air
breathe in
chapped lips
chilling Fall air
leaves falling cold
reds and yellows fall
fresh air from the window
a chapped kiss as hands grip
hands grip hips as chapped lips kiss
naked hips kiss as clothes slip to the floor
bodies hard against the wall next to the door
tripping, over clothes on the floor, and out the door
laughing  gripping hands, dancing down the hall naked
bare feet on a hardwood floor, chilled naked skin, Fall air
long hair and pale skin, running naked to the shower, laughing
a bathroom door, old and wooden, opened with cold hands
cold hands turn a shower on and wait for warm water
hands wait and press hard against neck and breast
chapped lips bitten by teeth as hands grab hips
warm tongues, warm cold necks with spit
goose bumps spread, cold on legs
tiptoed hot water, laughter
wet feet, wet butts, hot
screaming from heat
laughing screams
naked and wet
so soothing
warmth
Fall
pat Jan 2015
Can you focus?
My lies  drip  the way I want.
Tip toe,
tipping so elegantly.
Bangalore's disguised as beautiful ballerinas.
It's sick.
It's incredible.
My Best, and my worst.
pat Aug 2014
many thoughts of grey glooms and foggy mists
not ominous. It's thick and comforting
alive and awake
for us to take advantage of
I feel one with the mist
I feel proud of its accomplishments
Its energy is floating all around me
a quiet morning, but full of energy
it's sending me things
teaching me how to be
it's clarity fused with positivity
thoughts interrupted by a golden finch
pat Feb 2014
oh lady oh lady
Me sew so shady
like Buns on hons and guns for fun.
For I
I too have got the runs.
and
as I run
nocturnally internally
Big boys bagged me
carefully gently.
Make a mean salad
Devote no teeth but,
Take a meat salad
and share it with a friend.
<3
pat Aug 2014
Why do I dine in a twisted up mind
Kind of like a spine
it twists it bends it turns all night
Tired I perspire
weary joints after a days work
I'm working out these muscles
The sands of time are falling down around me
I don't mind
I fright that I might in a few months time
pat Aug 2014
tickling tape worms living in ape arms
squiggly shapes getting fat like grapes and
traveling in veins like a gutter swallows rain
like an utter in pain painting pitchers so milky white
tight like an overstuffed mite
bee or  egg infested
ceiling unappealing
but
crack is revealing my
inner thoughts
statutory holocaust
saturated oil spots
aggravated foil plots
plotting for a battle
pat Aug 2014
I think things like "weigh my belt"
That weight dowth felt thy girly wirly smell
hand made
sew maid for two plums pie
I cry I cry I almost pass away
way to the future down
down to below. Oh
how can I
be so
naïve before the summer glow
a basement bash of feet below
below a hazard haggard waist

wasted on the belt loop of his father
a potter
plain before your very eyes
a seismic ray of disbelief
a cobble stone of sticks and leaves.

No
I could be a sailor man
and I could eat things from a can
and inching toward a rubber band
Damsels in distress
they're not impressed by you
or shallow deeds
deeds begin to play
beneath my skin and things that float away
and inching toward the silos of
a tribal super plane
a racecar a racecar
I'm ******* erasing it  all
pat Sep 2014
I recognized you  the other day
and now, secondary kisses are the reason that I'm missin you

Bring it all  back
take a step back to day one
back to the days  you'd smile back when I'd say hello
back to the day I didn't feel so lame

Back, way before the weakness
faking my interests to impress you
I knew it was dumb

few things came up in my brain when I'd see you
Man, I'd  be writing things down the night before
few things come up when I’m with you
Man, do I get so dull when I’m feeling nervous

Hypocrisy
I can see  you can be kind of mean
I reek like your attitude
but I think a sweet night is a night  spent with you
and I'd do anything you'd be willing to

maybe I could have everything
maybe we could walk  together
maybe I could hold your hand
maybe I should try

I can tell that
you can tell I've been confused
And I can tell
me tripping up doesn't make you amused

I can do it real cool like you wanna do it
cool hair, an outfit, a tattoo, plus whatever..
and I imagine real soon you'd get used to me

sour taste in my mouth
I'm in temporary isolation
dude, I've been having dreams all about you

fairy tale place
saving up grace  for you now
wow, I can be content living, head in the clouds

but, do I dare say
"we should hangout
yeah, we should do fun things
we could do ANYTHING WE WANT!"
......
"Just kidding girl
I know you're busy girl
don't need to say it girl
actually, I'm busy too."


who am I to say you'd be happy,
and who are you to say that you wouldn't be,

and who are we to say anything about
anything when
we don't know a thing about
anything at all?

did you misunderstand me? I said I'm in love
I can misunderstand things, now and again
Then again, I'm sorry for saying that

I don't even like you.

sorry for saying that too
pat Sep 2014
I'd like to begin with an old fashioned signature
" be good to us, and we'll be good to you"
See, in this case we have a few things to explain
One being reality. What is it?
Can we draw a line between what is and isn't, or are we better off inert?
Inert as in, a stationed mental awareness,
rather than a fixed location of matter.
Remember that we can play with both the idea of control, and fate.
A God. Many Gods. No Gods.  It doesn't make a difference.
You claim to know a God, and they claim they know many.
Where is your argument?
You're as wrong as you are right, which brings me to another thought,
If we are continuously both living and dying in This state
then what about when we move on to the next?
Assuming of course there is some sort of life after death
Though, there is no certainty
In fact, how can one be certain death IS an inevitability?
Sure, it happens to those around us,
and we are thoroughly informed that Everyone dies
But, if you haven't experienced death, how do you know it's real?
I'm not trying to flirt around with certainty
I'm aware that I exist and that's all I can really Know
but that is a lonely road, and it literally gets you nowhere.
What I am trying to say though is that matter, or "the physical realm"
it would be nothing without the mind.
Just like the mind would be nothing without matter would be nothing without the mind would be nothing without matter would be nothing without the mind would be nothing without matter would be nothing without the mind would be nothing without the mind would be nothing without the mind would be nothing without the mind would be nothing without the mind...  
You see? One cannot exist without the other.
If we can die, then the physical realm Must die with us.
Death should not frighten you or even make you sad.
What should scare you is that time is constantly moving
Everything around you is going to crumble,
and life will slip through your fingers. Everyone you know will get older.
Your parents. Your kids. Your pets.
They're all coming to an end, and so are you,
and by the time you get there you'll be so sick and tired,
you'll convince yourself you are ready.
One last prayer to God. One last goodbye to family, lovers, friends,
and life.
Last days turn into a couple seconds
a line segment representing your life coming to a point
Lights dim to black. The only sound is low vibration
A Panic takes over every cell
Floating through nothing while understanding that
everything that ever was, is, and will be, is now coming to an ultimate end
your reality is a black sphere in black space
balancing on a long thin breaking stick
Desperation
All memory and understanding now ending, you fight
laying on your back, feet and hands trying to hold up existence until
Mother- "what made you so upset?"
Son- "I was thinking about time"
hashtag existential crisis
pat Aug 2014
holding my head as I jump as high as the ground
I'm falling, as high as the clouds
so, fly away with me
I'll take you around
we'll race for the mornings end
the summer comes and we
try for what's left of this dream
I'm calling you back to say
"I love you" to fix my mistakes
some say we can't live life without any faith
pride for the roads that we take
pick me up, let me in
I feel so out of place
I feel like I'm ready to go
Oh, and it's just like you
to act like you don't even care
Oh, and it's just like me
to go home in this state
you can break yourself away, do it all alone.
and they won't know
and you can thank your dad and God that you've got a home
it's somewhere to go
pat Aug 2014
I draw things with feces
in dedication of my species
Finally a poem that makes sense to me
pat Oct 2014
there is nothin better
than a dog in a sweater.
pat Sep 2014
step 1. start out slow with ***** and paste
step 2. mix ingredients slowly in a bowl to bring out flavor
step 3. bake mixture in an oven until room is smokey
step 3. breath in smoke until inspiration is found
step 4. repeat the first 3 steps(ignoring the second step 3)
step 5. repeat step 4
step 4. prepare self for step 6
step 6. tie legs to chair
sit in chair step 7. make sure to drink plenty of water
step 8. make sure to drink water before and after step 8.
step 9. be sure to have a table and pen and paper readily available to use or write things with on the table so that you have something to write with on and on and that way you won't have to write on your hand or lap without a pen.
step. 10 the final step to writing poemz
to my friend Katie  who asked "how do i write poemz"
pat Aug 2014
things I do
inside my room
would make you puke
pat Aug 2014
the fungus are among us
among us, and abundance of humongous fungus
the substance spun us into funnel monkey dumbness
no longer numbness we felt the suns bliss
sun kissed wondrous fun.
feeling the youngest we dismissed all toughness
no longer rambunctious
we had won us a moral compass
complete sublime oneness
glad we had done this
we yelled cowabungas
lol
pat Aug 2014
the trees in my head were metal painted red
I shot up ****** and melted into my bed instead of going to school
I spooled thread around my finger till the tip bled
ships sped around my room on the wallpaper
gloomy clouds pushed through my screen and vapor floated around me
I tongued my teeth to see if they were there
I was completely numb and happy as a bear
pat Aug 2014
I still can't sleep
but   I keep everything I need inside my room
I have some food to eat
and I'm surrounded by neat old jars for me to *** in
bad air seeps in
slowly creeping
I board the windows
and tightly saran wrap every seam
and duct tape over every vent
and jam some towels in between
my only door and wooden floor
and now it's me, and only me
secluded air is all I breath
and all that's left is my own scent
a heavy stench of human being
now I rest
I end up dreaming   I'm asleep
but things start seeming sort of fake
and then I wake, but not at home
I'm still alone, but things are different
If I shift it
to my room
will all this dreaming still resume?
I'd rather board this place instead
create some safe air for this bed
it isn't home, but that's ok
perhaps in this place I can stay
and stay awake
pat Oct 2014
I pursue girls and love
because I am a *******
pat Feb 2015
I know that I know more than I used to know,
back when I didn't know  as much as I know now,
but even though I know that,
deep down I still know,
that I don't know anything.
idk
pat Aug 2014
I've been picturing your face
it comes and goes all day
I hope that you do that too
edeth piaf singing sweet
it takes away my grief
and then I float, a ways
down.
come home darling. I'm alone
my heart, it will never roam
I'll sing to you when you come
back
I've been desperate
to hear your voice, my love
but if I was gifted the choice
I'd take your breath far away
Oh,
hold me tightly when you're here
sweet darling, please do not fear
till then I'm fine on the shelf
and,
your love, if it fades away
I hope when you see my face
you remember and hold me
forevermore
pat Aug 2014
Lips, I am seeing them
In my head. I'm swimming in this
inner resting colors .blues and greens
a pillow squeezed between my hands and face it
places will be able to be possible
I'm not so full. I'm operating
out of key, but balancing
between the rests
beneath my chest
a bleeding beating thumper thing
four in at best
a stable test
tickle my neck with teeth a tongue
I'm young except I'm almost not
but  fun to some that know me best
believe, the rest
they think I'm crazy
crazy thoughts
and misbehaving ways
the way I want to be
the haunting things are passing
tasks are done and tasks will come on
let it be
relieve the stress
unleash the rest and let life be
aware of fear, but distant
fixate on what  makes us different
dictate self control
your mind is beauty
full of light
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