Passion fire hope

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

You walked back into my life after leaving me in the dust... With your stinging words you kick choppy sand in my eyes to show disrespect... And I knew I would fall for your tricks again... Only just to take the pain away from your bite that I was always wiping blood from.....
People wonder yet I'm free from it all now that you healed me... Is this another one of your games?

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

Hoping it was you.. Hating That It Wasent..

.... playing with the same notes
over and over.....
run out its over used...
its dry and cracking..
piercing my skin...
i heard someones foot steps following my shadow
I,
turned and looked over my shoulder
....hoping it was you,
hating that it wasent.
if you were hear you would understand..
you would stick up for me....
....i know you would

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

I miss you

I miss you daddy...
It's been 2 weeks since I've seen you

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

Took everything away from me...

Yes I saw it all....
I was there in my room trying not to listen but they are so loud.
Its been six years and I regret them all..
I heard the words he said to you.... I watched the cascading tours fall into their ruin, left to you to deal with.....
Remember when it was just you and me? Then he came in and took everything away from me... Mom, he took you away from me!
We would be better off without him he's a **** anyways.....
He glares, staring he won't look away... It's like his own form of torture for me...
Why him?
Get out of my life!

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

Winter

The cold has moved in, uninvited..
yet not swallowed us completely..
crackling branches under my feet,
scratches from the vicious Turin
that disturb the un-rushed few..

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

It was and will always be...

Time slips from my fingers like sand as the weary sun finally sets in it's hidden place.
... Looking up I see the stars, and I memorize their patterns, and idolize their beauty, wondering if they will always be as incredible as I have viewed them today...
As I ponder my day dreaming, my eyes finally got their rest.
I wake up in a meadow where green grass and roses only lie..
City lights were no where to be seen... Rose pedals peeled off the sun to fall frOm the sky and lined a rocky path that lead to crystal clear water where swans Swayed their wings as they danced across the water and rabbits played with mice who scurried up the ridged rocks of once so hidden valleys... I stand there studying the suns reflection hitting off the water....
Will it always be this incredible?

Passion fire hope Jan 2013

What Have I Done?

Love is hard to give you...
your constant expecting something from me is
breaking me down....its not far tell all is shattered in me..
Its not far until i finally,
cant take it anymore..
..your standards are over my head...
im always doing something wrong...
consequence is always right in front of me..
one after another you wait until theirs something to accuse me of,
it hurts...
yet i still make it right every time...
but then before i know it, your bickering about something else ive done...
but i hide my tears from you...
and it bottles up..
it gets harder and harder to not blow up in front of you..
but in the mist of your bickering i explode...
i burst into tears knowing i cant hold back and hide my pain from you anymore..
my bottle poors out,
and my anger and recklessness rise to the surface of my tung,
and before im able to stop myself,
i realize youve already walked out...
.....im sorry..im so sorry....
shes out the door...and there i fall my head in my hands...
what have i done...?