And it never occurred to me that things might be more important than they actually are.
That the reason we do things is not the reason at all.
There must be something greater than us, because if this is all we meant for; I do not want to be here any one bit.
This is not the universe's final quest.
Why don't we do better?
Why don't we make the cosmos proud?
The only greater things watching us are the planets and the seemingly infinite stars.
And now we no longer care who is watching us, we do bad no matter what.
We should do better because maybe this all is a test.
We should do better because we decide our own fate.
And it probably never occurred to you that things mean more because we make it mean something and you have so much to think about with your fancy cars, silly phones, and dumb t.v. shows.
There is so much more to life than that.

They say that if you throw someone into a bad situation they will jump out, but if you give them good and throw in some bad they will stay.

They tell us we will never find anyone better and we believe them. And maybe that's cause we figure either everyone else is worse or just as terrible.

The tell us no one else will love us or put up with us. And we believe just the same. Maybe we don't want anyone to love us because we hate ourselves.

We shouldn't be loved, we deserve what we get.

This is what we think.

And this is how we think.

and there was nothing I wanted to share anyway

wish you would stop caring                                         Can I?
 so I could start cutting
wish you would stop dreaming                                    
so I could stop breathing
wish you weren't you
so I wouldn't be(with you)me                                      Can you?
want you to stop crying
so I can
want you to be alright
so I can
want you to leave me be
so I can be me                                                          Can­ we?

Stop hiding from yourself.
Stop lying to yourself.
Your insecurities shouldn't be ignored.
And your strengths shouldn't be flaunted nor ignored.
Stop telling yourself you can't, stop telling other people too.
Stop forcing yourself.

I'll show myself my whole self.
I'll end my constant "I'll do it later." or "Eventually." phrases.
I will know and learn from the insecurities, and always try to get better.
My strengths are not to be thrown in anyone's face, and not to fill my head to the bursting.
I can and will, and so can you.
And hopefully time will not force me either

We're all dying someday
and I'm done hoping it's my day every time I wake up
My sadness is not my life
I'm not living it
I'm feeling it
I'm leaving it behind, once I die
Along my anger, which I'm smashing into the ground
I will die someday
and the day I die will not be my last day
I will linger in your hearts

          I hope