I don't want to be
the person that
everyone only has a memory of.
I don't want to be the girl who
sleeps all day
and doesn't at night.
I don't want to lay in bed
waiting for something to happen
I want to be happy but
I don't know how.
How can I when I have been this way
for so long.
I finally faced the world
and my reality hit me.
I'm so past comfort.
Therapy isn't even going to help me.
But I need it.
I need my reality to be the way it was.
When I was happy.
Maybe it will change even if its at a slow pace
**I am ready.

I imagined a world with out you,
and god it broke my heart.

Hundreds of wasted paper,
dedicated to you.

If you ever go through a broken heart
and feel as if you have no one
Always remember I love you no matter
what.

God took away everything from me
even you.
Im gonna drown in my own tears.
I'm gonna break down no wall.
I'm gonna be stuck once again.
Because of you.
I use to take the blame.
Well my dear its your turn.
Take all of my anger and pain and lay it on your shoulders.
It'll be a game.
Let's see who'll play better.

I miss my best friend.
Its starting to hurt when I breath again.
I could tell you why.
I'm heart broken again.

People come and they go.
Some change us, some teach us.
Some times losing a person is not always a lost.
Its more of a gain if you ask me.

You don't give a **** about me,
so why should I give a **** about you?

I didn't need love.
I just wanted it.
There's a difference.

How you made me forget the hardships that were ahead.
But god only knows what life would be like for me if you were truly here.
I love you.
But hate you.
Its a love hate thing.
It has been that way since the day I admitted to myself how much I truly love you.
Honestly it scares me.
Somebody asked me today what my greatest weakness was.
My dear it was you.

After seven days or so
the grass looks greener on the other side.
So I've been told.

I took
and it took just that
for life to go
DOWN HILL.

Lets write a story,
I'll grab the pen
and you'll grab the paper
and we'll write our story
all over again.
And in the end
we'll look at each other and thank the fact
that we started our chapter again.

I've learned to live one day at a time.
One step then another.
Don't over due every little thing.

As the sun set the moon awake,
that's when I had to say goodbye
and that's what broke my heart.

I just wanna let go
of all the ******* I've been through.
Its hard to not look back.
But its time I move on.
Its time I don't look back.

If you feel lost
look up to the sky and breath.
Tell the stars how you feel,
if anything they'll just sit there
and listen.
Gazing back at you.