it is
the
mind
of a
stationary
body
that
wanders
the
most

it's funny how stupid i can actually be
thinking that people feel as deeply as me
the thought of losing someone i care about
makes me anxious, i cry and shout

my love shall never be returned
and thus, i shall stay silent and stern
for i never mattered and neither will i
from the first hello to last goodbye

it will only ever be me- alone
how insignificant i am, life has shown
but it is because of my nature i suppose
people have done nothing wrong, of course

i give too much that nothing is ever left
i spare people even when they should be charged for theft

guess it will always be this way
since my unfortunate birth to my decay
i shall be forgotten without any delay
for i can't be like other girls, even for a day

delayed gratification
but no notification
my screen stays unlit
waiting on my bed i sit
for a mere text
but nothing, never
in his context
makes my hope tremor
was it all a lie,
loving my scarlet sky?
and now as my heart beats
rosy-red tears bleed
i miss being alone enough
that i waited for none
it is easy being tough
when i am my "no. 1"
look at me now
getting upset over a guy
breaking all my vows
missing him is making me cry

and will it be too late
when there'll be none to wait?