I am happy when I am sad
I am sad when I am happy
Why do I feel such a loser
When all I want to do is recover?
Here she comes, the butterflies disappear
Please, oh, please, do not reappear
The pain lingers, it never hurts like it did yesterday
Day by day, I find a way to recover
No, this is not about love
This is about life in general
My fear is primal
I want to keep it minimal
This is me writing about a song
A three-minute memory
A lifetime of misery
Have you ever played a gong?
Do not be confused.
There is no use.
This is not about you.
This is about ****-mer-me
Uh oh! ****-mer rhymes with reminder
Names of the people I don't want to remember
Now, do you see the matter?
Nah, it does not matter.
****-mer is not even a word in the dictionary
Do not worry, this is not about you.
How many times do I have to tell you?
I just want to use your name
How beautifully it rhymes with a lot of other names
Do not go down the abbey
It's not "fay"...
Do not play with me
There is no way that you mispronounced "pay"
I am not making any sense, am I?
It does not matter
I am making sense of myself, that is why.
Xy runs with rah, rah, rah
So is ElectRIKA
Maybe this is what I get
From watching a lot of Daredevil and Elektra
Stop this nonsense
Times like this, I am talking nonsense.
Friday, the day when you get your pay
Payday is also the day when you pay
I just love Fridays!
No, I do not want your hearts, and likes
Those will not bring me delight
Get me a flight
That is what I like.

Had chicken wings tonight
Took an antihistamine before the fight
Drank coffee after nine
I think, I’ll be awake until the sun shines
What was I thinking?
Maybe, it was the migraine throbbing
Planned on eating ice cream
Ended up buying an eye cream
Got home, I started encoding
Finished at midnight
My eyes won’t shut tight
Still listening to Lany
His song is on repeat
He sings, “ I miss you so bad”
I say, “I want to sleep so bad”.

AND I SAW A PICTURE OF YOU
ALL I EVER ASK IS JUST A SMILE FROM YOU
AND I ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD TO THE DAY YOU WILL ASK ME OUT
I CONSTANTLY PRAY THAT YOU WILL HEAR MY HEART OUT
AND IF I MISS YOU EVEN IF I HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE WITH YOU
EVEN IF IT TAKES A LIFE TIME FOR IT TO BE TRUE
I WILL BE INSPIRED TO KEEP UP JUST TO KEEP UP WITH YOU
I COMPETE AGAINST MYSELF TO NOT BE BLUE
I SOMETIMES THINK THAT IT WOULD BE FUTILE
THERE IS NO WAY THAT THIS LOVE WOULD EVEN BE REAL
I PRAY STILL, I THINK OF YOU, EVERY DAY OF MY (NON WORKING) LIFE
YOUR FACE COMES OUT OF THE BLUE
YOUR FAITH INSPIRES ME TO BE LIKE YOU
THERE COULD NEVER BE A CHANCE TO BE WITH YOU
TO GOD, I WILL STILL PRAY FOR YOU
IF WHAT MY HEART FEELS, IS TRUE
SURELY, THIS INFATUATION WILL BE A LOVE SO TRUE
YOU MAY NOT APPRECIATE ME YET
YOU MAY FIND SOMEONE ELSE IN THE END
I WILL STILL TRY TO THINK OF YOU
MAYBE, YOU WILL START THINKING OF ME, TOO
BY THE WAY, WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU?
ONE DAY, I HOPE TO VISIT YOU
MAYBE, HAVE TEA OR TWO
BY THE WAY, DO YOU EVEN LIKE THOSE THINGS LIKE I DO?
THE MONOLOGUE OF OUR CONVERSATION
I IMAGINE HOW I WOULD LAUGH WITH YOU
HOW I WOULD TALK TO YOU
HOW YOU WOULD CARE ABOUT ME
HOW I WOULD SHOW HOW YOU MEAN TO ME
BY THE WAY, THIS IS NOT FOR YOU
JUST A THOUGHT FOR MISSING YOU.
I HOPE THAT YOU DECIPHER THE TITLE.

Someone told me
The past will always be a part of him
He will never forget his past
He will just learn to accept it
He will never forget his past
No matter how many times he changes the color of his walls
No matter how many times he falls
He will just learn how to make his memory obscure
Even if he changes the arrangement of the furniture
I agree with him
The past will never be forgotten
Unless you have amnesia, Alzheimer's or something
Never ask the present if he already forgot his past
Never expect that even a memory will be forgotten
When the present leaves you
The present becomes your past
Do not hold on to the past
Unless, you are ready to not make a future out of your present
If, by any chance, you cannot admit your past
You do not have a choice but to let go and move on
The sun does not stop shining just because your eyes are crying
The river does not stop flowing just because your life is challenging
Learn to ride a boat
Learn to steer it to wherever you want to go
Your past will not make the oars move for you
NO ONE is responsible but YOU.

The weekend is close to the end atlas
and all I hope for was for it to last
Why do I feel such an outcast?
Why didn't I have such a blast?
It feels great to be at your wit's end
It feels great to be someone whom no one calls
There's no need to pretend
I'm the only one here who falls
Here she is with her utmost lies
Why do I feel terrible every time she cries?
Why do I feel hurt to even acknowledge that feeling when it dies?
Please, let it not be her demise

Summer came, again
Look at how we have become, again
I have gained such wonderful grains
Nothing to lose, only to gain

Will you not wither until the next summer?
Will you stay, even when you are sober?
Will you be with me, just because the other one is away?
Will you stay, even after you, two are, again, sober?
Do not stay if you intend to leave
Please, betray me, because that is what I expect from your leaf
If this is what you plan to do to get even with me
I am immune to it, go ahead, just wither and die
This is not sadness
This is not an unhappy ending
What I feel now is gladness
So tired of summer leaving

Another incomplete milestone
Another way to complete the pile
Another day for me to survive
Another weekend dies...

You have waited for this.
Do not waste your time thinking of your fears.
Do not fear the unknown.
You will not learn if you will not try.
Let others fear their own.
Do not fear what others fear.
Discover your own fears.
You will never know if you are truly afraid of something until you try.
Your youth warrants you to try, fail, try again.
You will not fail nor succeed until you try.
Do not believe what others tell you.
Let yourself tell you what to believe.
See for yourself what others fear to dive into.
See for yourself what you want yourself to dive into.
Be motivated to try.
Be motivated to fail.
Be motivated to make mistakes.
More mistakes, more tries, more chances of success.
Do not let the idea of others weaken your will to try.

JUST TRY. JUST FACE YOUR FEARS.