She saw a post on face book
She remembered why she was messaged
She remembered what she dreamt about twice
She woke up and she was messaged
She woke up and she was called twice
She remembered the face book post last night
She was remembered
Oh, it was just a coincidence.

I feel your thoughts
I hypothesize your feelings
Blood draw lets me understand you
I read your mind
I analyze your whole being

Only…

...That type of I has not existed yet
...that type of you has not happened yet

I was dreaming
The thought was just in my head
my body will never be able to move ahead
The thought was provoking
The tricycle driver was asking
If he should turn or move ahead
As my brain thought of paper stars pouring
A letter to accompany the undying

Everyday is a dying day
How can you not give your best today?
You start to pray, hope and wish
Can you not just do it as you pleased?

Everyday is a dying day
How can you not start to live today?
You start to put, in the shelf, your life
How can you endure to miserably die?

Everyday is a dying day
How come your tasks are all astray?
When all you can do is start to pray
Will it make more sense if you start them today?

Everyday is a dying day
You plan, you write, you visualize and try
Yes! The best thing to do is give your best in every try.
Give your best in every try just before you die.

To the apple of my eye
I hope this feeling will die
A conversation initiated
Dies the moment it is anticipated

2008, I wrote a song for you
2009 onwards, I wrote you numerous poems, too
2012, I asked a photo with you
2015, I asked, “How are you?”

Yesterday, as I was riding the jeepney…
I listened to “Runaway” and it was funny…
I used to hate that song
But not anymore because of you all along

You greeted me on the 25th of December
I posted the song of 311 entitled “Amber”
The conversation I initiated...
...had left even before it started

I greeted you back,
but I will not expect you to answer back
Your reply was just my consolation
For even thinking about you and my admiration

So I heard, you were with someone new
It pinches my heart, if you only knew
I will keep this secret hidden
Liking you seems to be forbidden

Ako ba'y naghihintay sa wala?
Parang kay tagal mo nang nawala
Ganun rin ba ang nadarama mo para sa akin
Ako lang ba ang ganito sa atin?

Sarili ko'y pipigilan
Hindi kita hahayaang malaman ang aking saloobin
Lahat ay gagawin manatiling kaibigan mo
Gagawa ng paraan para makasama mo

Hindi ako aamin
Ayaw mo naman talaga sa akin
Huwag mag-alala, ako'y lalayo na
Pagkatapos ng Linggong ito, ika'y kakalimutan na

Damdamin ay hindi hahayaang lumago
Natatakot na hindi mo naman kayang magseryoso
Ano ang aking magagawa
Hindi naman planado ang aking pagsinta

May mga bago ka bang babaeng kinakausap?
May bago ka bang kinikilala?
May bago ba na maganda, matalino, masayang kausap at kasama?
Anong laban ko eh ayaw mo nga magkwento?

Please know that while I’m writing this...
I remember all the talks we had
I remember all the walks we took
I remember all the meals we ate together
I remember all the movies we watched
I remember all the time we spent together

Please know that while I’m writing this…
I’ll remember all the talks we could have had
I’ll remember all the walks we could have taken
I’ll remember all the meals we could have eaten
I’ll remember all the movies we could have watched
I’ll remember all the times we could have spent together

Please know that while I’m writing this…
I’ll imagine all the talks that you could spend with Asther
I’ll envision all the walks you could take with your new girl, Heather
I’ll visualize all the meals you could eat with Abby
I’ll think about all the movies you could watch with Jenny
I’ll think about all the things you could do with all the girls except me.

Please know that while I’m writing this…
I have difficulty thinking of what have been
I have difficulty accepting what never been
I have difficulty not thinking of what could have been
I have difficulty understanding what you have been
I have difficulty moving forward from the situation I am in.