I just hope he can
hold onto a girl
like me.
Because I follow my arrow,
whether that points towards
him, or somewhere far away.

I woke up on the wrong side
of the bed this morning.
Hair a mess,
makeup smeared on my face.
Too early.
After "getting ready" I fell back asleep,
until I had to leave,
only to step out my door and
find my car blocked in.
After all of that
I bought a pack of cigarettes.
I'm disappointed in myself
for wasting the money.
But I needed one.
Drove to work in the rain
while my car was acting funny,
and did my makeup in the rear view mirror.
It can only get better from here right?
I just want to go home and watch
Orange is the new black.
But I have my dads party to go to,
and my boyfriend to pick up.

Maybe I just won't

Man.
You used to make me
go out of my mind.
The time we spent together
never lasted long enough.
I used to think I could never live
without you,
and then I had to.
I miss you so much sometimes,
I loved you just as much.

I don't know how to end this,
just like with you.