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Paige Summers Apr 2014
Feeling like you have nothing
and you're absolutely worthless
is such a common feeling for most of
us
that half of us don't want to live anymore
like you're being suffocated
and it doesn't even matter
because you can smell his scent on
the pillow that's asphyxiating you
and if your last breath
is breathing him
in
why could anything else possibly
matter anyways
but its so *******
scary to be suffocated
so you'd rather dig into
your own skin
with an object
that wasn't even invented
for the harm you're doing
to yourself
Paige Summers Apr 2014
“when I tried to **** myself in early February

I was thinking about laying in the snow

when I tried to **** myself in early February 

I wasn’t thinking about being under it
when I tried to **** myself in early February

I was thinking about satisfaction 

when I tried to **** myself in early February

I wasn’t thinking about a head stone
when I tried to **** myself in early February

I thought I was a waste of space

when I tried to **** myself in early February

I wasn’t thinking about my cemetery space 

when I tried to **** myself in early February

I thought of all the tears

when I tried to **** myself in early February

I wasn’t thinking about the years to come

when I tried to **** myself in early February

I was thinking about me

when I tried to **** myself in early February

I wasn’t thinking about you”
Paige Summers May 2014
I CANT EVEN SLEEP
WITHOUT KNOWING THAT
YOUR POEM WILL BE ON MY
PHONE WHEN I WAKE UP
AND YOU MAKE SUICIDAL
AND I CANT HELP
BUT SMILE WHEN YOU
SAY MY NAME
BECAUSE I WANT TO KNOCK
YOUR TEETH OUT
SO YOU CANT RATTLE
OUT THE ******* LETTERS
OF MY NAME WHEN
IM MAKING YOU STUTTER THROUGH AN
******
AND I WANT TO PLANT
MY LIPS ON YOURS
AND CALL IT A *******
GARDEN
BECAUSE GROWING PLANTS
AND SMILING IS REALLY
ALL I USED TO KNOW
BUT NOW ALL I
KNOW IS SUICIDE
AND HALF OF THAT
IS YOUR FAULT
AND THE OTHER HALF
IS MINE
ALWAYS WANTING YOU TO
BE HAPPY WITH ME
BUT YOU'RE WITH
HER AND ID GIVE THE
WHOLE ENTIRE EARTH
TO JUST CRACK THE GALAXY
OUT OF YOUR RIB CAGE AND WATCH
YOUR HEART FALL TO THE
FLOOR IN FRONT OF ME
BUT WHEN I PICK IT UP
TO GIVE IT BACK
YOU'RE DEAD
AND THERE IS NO PULSE BECAUSE YOU
ONLY LIVED ON
FOR HER
Paige Summers Apr 2014
I’ve seen that shirt

so many times

from when I’ve warn it

to when I’ve ripped

it from your body

out of awful rage

because I’d break 
every single bone in 
your ******* face

if it weren’t for the 
fact
t
hat I already broke every single bone

in both of my hands

clenching my

fists 
keeping my cool

choking down a bottle

of pills

just to keep me from finding something
to break myself with

— The End —