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i love you sorry about all this mess
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change your password
keep to yourself
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both of you really ****** me and u know i never deserved it
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A sphere that no one can penetrate
Alone
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starting to believe love does not exist
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nothing alive is breathing
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u dont even know me
or make the effort
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begins to feel how everything begins to feel

is there anything else
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idk if i can take this anymore
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how is dark and where is god
approaching the end
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starting to believe in none of this is real
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i am the master of the monotonous
and distance hardens the exclamation
nothing is returning nothing is never ending
there are no eyes that can see what is needed
neadrathal, white club dragging black ink through cantankerous white leaves, love is an iv,
long refuted poison of a debutants dream, it just blankets u while you sleep
and walk away
blank down colorless empty streets
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real love does not exist
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everyone can love and respect you in the world and it means nothing if the one you want too doesnt see it
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even when im together im alone
no one sees this like i see this
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i dont trust you or anyone
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why can no one be transparent
even when things are so obvious
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it all changes in the morning
what i was is gone
u need to embrace reality
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already dead u just dont feel it yet
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I can read your mind
You can read mine
What you built is not what you needed
And I’m still watching over your building
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i still dont trust you
something isnt right
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i showed u sylvia plath for her head in the oven
not her words i youtubed hunter s thompson for the ashes in a cannon not the drug use
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i see u just slide by
like nothing ever happend
like years never happend
like i never showed u life when you were empty
like u never took from me any chance of living right
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done giving my whole self to people that dont deserve it
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no one will ever see u how u want to be seen
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I dont trust anyone
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i dont want to know you more than i do
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what is the purpose of anything
with everything that is dying
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******* for using me
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u abandoned me at the darkest time in my life and for that i will never forgive you i always was there for you
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reminding myself that every door I open is also an exit
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done trying im here now but you are not ready
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i really dont think this will work
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past life
reunited love
nothing else
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people need what is not given to them freely
when they recieve it everything else diminishes into nothing and a relationship is born
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maybe i already turned away what i needed
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all i want is real love ever since i can remember everything else  is a byproduct of trying to find this nothing else has ever mattered
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never meant to feel happiness
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u know nothing about me
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idk why this is so hard for me
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terminally sad
in unending repair
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i know things i cant tell u
if i tell u its on me and
i will never let it be that way
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a woman riding the beast
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week 1 constant intense ***
week 2 slightly dimished
week three effort dissapears
conversation changes
everyone else is of higher importance
because u have alreay overcame the challenges and claimed what you fought for
texts dissapear
*** dissapears
except for in the movie in their eyes everytime another challenge walks by
and u are alone now together
dreaming of sleeping with other people
for the rest of your life
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u ask someone please tell me the truth
they lie to you
and thats all there is
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god is just a memory where you need her to be
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U don’t know how to feel for another person it’s all self pity and a sickness in your stomach that you don’t want to feel anymore
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