I'm sorry that I can't be your sunshine
because I'm basking in mine
I wish you could lay with me
so the heat can penetrate your heart
with warmth and sunlight
I want you to feel the life
that swims through my veins, now
so you can understand
that it does get better
and this lurid battle you fight
every day of your life
is ending before your very eyes
so that you can join me in the sunshine
to finally feel what you thought
couldn't possibly be real

Kiss me to sleep
You'll be forever mine
Love is not a waste
E**ven if it doesn't shine

maybe it's the way you write
the curl of your smile
or the glimmer in your eyes
maybe you take me back
to times long forgotten
and words left unsaid
the words that I don't have to say
because they are running through your head
maybe you remind me
of the way I used to cry
and somehow you make understand
the reason i'm alive
you give me this feeling
of past understandings
and I presently accept
that maybe you carry
behind a heavy weighted mask
the color I've been looking for
pumping blood to one another
so I can fall asleep just right
in your arms tonight

i miss this little girl
with colors in her heart
and fire in her veins
who sang songs about the sunshine
and soaked up all the rain

there's an alarm going off
inside my head
telling me things
that makes me wish I were dead

it's harder tonight
than it was just before
to forget memories
I don't want to remember anymore

and my pillow
gets sorrowfully damp
with whispering tears
that are better off sealed
because i'm not sure
how much more my heart can hear

I feel everything I feel
with such a strong intensity
that's why when I fall in love
I fall too fast and too hard
it's why when I fall out of love
i'm left recklessly abandoned
utterly ******
I feel with a different part of my mind
one that exaggerates every little detail
one that turns puddles to oceans
breeze to tornadoes
and me into someone who feels
just a tad too much

i smile, sometimes
when I see that everyone I care about is black and white
not because we are sad
although we are
but because we all share
a love for the absence of color
because we see things differently
with a different light, a different vibrancy
my whole life I've searched for another
black and white personality
never thinking that i'd end up
with people quite like you