don't disappear
I need you near
to keep me here

I could lay down with you for hours
share our deepest secrets
admire each others imperfection
and call it practically perfect

I could listen to this song on repeat
for hours and hours
drowning in the words that I hear you say
pulsing them throughout my veins

I could listen to you ramble and giggle
for hours and hours and hours
because I've never heard a sound
quite the same as the one escaping your mouth

I know i'm not much
but I want you to stay
and listen for hours and hours and hours
as we pretend to be your favorite films
500 days of you and I
and in that moment I swear we were...

please don't run away,
for hours and hours
i want you to stay

sometimes I notice that the snow falls comparably to how I do
and lands with the intention of staying awhile
so I stare in awe at the crystals of ice glistening
over a blank sheet of perfection
and maybe that's how you see me
but i'm freezing
i can't give you warmth and comfort
but that doesn't stop you
from laying down and making snow angels
that watch over me and make sure that
I won't be cold for much longer

it scares the hell out of me
that i have the option to find new beginnings
it makes me sick
knowing that you are letting me

after months and years of slowly melting together
colliding with each other's colors
of soft gray and deep blue
you fade away

but I need you here
and you don't know how it hurts me
to see you smile at everyone else except me
while I'm screaming for you to notice me
but then it all makes sense
and i fall on the floor
you don't care anymore.

you and i could run through a forest
scream at the mountains and breathe in serenity
we could hold the sun in our hearts
the stars in our mind and the moon in our soul
I know where your mind is wandering
i'm already there--
Hell's gates are open and heaven's already gone
i'm begging you, god forgive me
i'm not ready to move on

The best days of my life
I recall being with you, thinking about you
breathing the air that you exhale.
I need to catch my breath when I remember
that beautiful ocean air
and clear blue water that separated us by inches
I'm lost in this confusion of how to let you go
because I wouldn't ever dream of it
I'm just a memory
but to me, we're A romeo and juliet love
where I can't live without you
so I'd rather die than breathe anyone else's
exhaled air.

My mind is no longer littered
with feelings of hatred or numbness
my entire world revolves around you
but this reality does not work
if you aren't in my solar system