I didn't know you well
but if I did
I would tell you
how your smile lit up the room
how you're eyes radiated life
and how much I admired
you're ability to stay strong
and carry the weight of the world
in the palm of your hand

but I know
she knows
you know
that sometimes
the world gets too heavy
and the weight is too much
and if you need to rest
we will do our best
to understand and accept

it's not over yet
and truthfully your story will never end
you have an eternal place
in our hearts
and in the world

I believe all things will happen
as they do
and if this is the way
things have to be
then I will remain optimistic
because clouds always have
their silver lining.

you can judge me for bleeding a different shade of red
but I'd rather you not see my blood at all
I know it's in your nature
to dig under my skin
but please just this once
let me bleed on my own
so that soon enough I won't have to anymore

Life is a concept that we too often take for granted
drowning in the thought that death would be fitting
but it's not so much that we want to die
rather that we don't want to live

angels don't deserve to die
or to feel this pain
and I truly think that you're an angel
but you let yourself think
that you were quite the opposite

angels can't die
you will forever be alive

You're bright green
because you remind me of life
and happiness
and grass showing through
my thawing ice
and there's something comforting
in knowing that it won't be winter forever.

I once had a man in my life
who told me I wasn't hungry
while I was starving
and that I should be a little more fortunate
and think about those who have nothing
while I'm throwing up and throwing away
the one thing we need to survive

but I don't think he understood
how much pressure he put on me
to look the part and act it, too
I guess he never knew
how hard it was for me to hear
that I wasn't hungry, I just "wanted" food
when it was very much the opposite.

I've had people in the past
who i could call my friends
and people who I truly thought would be there
but it's different with you
you know me just as I know myself
and I know you more than you think I do
I sit and watch as you feel the same feelings
think the same thoughts
and look at people the same way
that I know I do
and it scares me
because I would never wish upon anyone
what has been done to me
but I'll never leave you
like you're just so used to
and I hope you'll stay
and we can fight together
this incliment weather

there's a certain comfort
in knowing that you'll fall again
back into that same body and mind
but now, having more wisdom

because now you know the tricks
you know how to maneuver through
the darkest recesses of  your mind
and everyone else's, for that matter.

you could scream
or talk
or whisper
but just remember

just because you whisper the words
does not make them any less painful to say
you're falling.