I dreamt of a life where I could float
Forever, aimlessly in a vortex of nothing
All alone
Where thoughts run their course
And make me weak.

It's harder to laugh than it is to cry
So I break down and release
The easy way out
And all the shadows crawl out slowly
Whispering words that, too, make me weak.
Silence falls and the world goes blank.
I wake up
And do it all again.

So close, yet so far
Every time I reach inside myself
To feel around for that small piece of hope
Thats growing like cancer throughout my body
I can feel it, aching to be shown off
But I search and I search and it can't be found
Am I looking hard enough?
Am I searching for that glimmer of hope?
Or am I searching for something very different
Like the hate and wickedness that engulfs my heart and gnaws at my bones
Easier to be found and easier to accept
What I want, not what I need.
But how could dark over-power the light?
I am dark
Dark like a new moon night
And dark enough to always shadow the light.
So I wait for the day
When the sun is shining
And so am i.

When I lie and I cry and I just want to die
and I'll say anything just to get by

When my heart grows weak and it hurts to speak
and I struggle to survive another week

When I'm kicked down
I learn to stay on the ground

I learn to keep my mouth shut
and speak through the cuts

My eyes sink in and my head will spin
from lack of the light but it seems far too bright
so I close my eyes and say my goodbyes

Life starts to fade out, that's what it's about

everyone dies, everyone cries, everyone lies
everyone's in disguise, all feeling demise

So we close our mind
because we're too scared to be blind.

We're afraid of the water at first glance
It's deep and cold
We know we can drown
I've learned to wade
rather than jump

Slow and steady
has made all the difference.

Weather like this
reminds me of a time
when it hurt to breathe

Weather like this
reminds me of giving up
when I couldn't live.

Sun shining
Wind blowing
Patches of grass showing
And my eyes watered over
from yesterdays heartache
of giving up
and a time when it hurt to breathe.

I'm cold, but getting warmer.

Cover me in colors
Light up my world
I'm not so strong anymore

Give me your love
I swear I won't let it fade
I don't feel so good anymore

I'm tied together with a kiss
But if you fade away
I won't be ok anymore

I'm sorry that I need you
I'm sorry that you don't care
I'm sorry that I'm coming undone

I can't help it anymore.

Haven't you heard of us?

We are the voices inside your head
We are the sadness in your chest
We are the feelings that you dread

We are the breath that you exhale on a cold winter morning
We are the hairs on the back of your neck
We are your lamentations; we are your mourning

We are the scratches on your walls
We are the evil in your mind
We are the darkness when night falls

We are the dizziness that you feel
We are the hunger pangs when you starve
We are what makes you feel unreal

We are your darkest nightmares
And your worst lies
We are your deepest secrets
And your most jagged cuts

We are everything you fear
We are what makes you curl up and cry
We are what makes you shiver

We are your screams
We are your tears
We are your friends
We are your enemies

Darling,

*We are you.