They tell me to write
But my heart is in my hands
With a seizing beat
There is nothing but frozen  time
Memories of distant days
When he filled my veins
And I tasted of summer honeysuckle
Wild berries and sweet sweat
But I've peeled my skin like an orange
And threw away the fruit
To leave nothing but rind
I've left myself to be a shell
An empty vessel in this life
Treading a desolate city
Of ghosts that know my past
Because we are the same
Our stories are fundamental tragedies of naive children
We've tattooed our necks
And bathed  in the salt
Of the choices we've made
And the lies that we keep
To live this world with our falsified beliefs
Our vanquished faiths
And blinded eyes

Our bodies illuminated in a single moment
These lives become one life
Only to fade in times hands
Dissipating in the air
A stale taste in my mouth
By bitter rinds we left
Remember when we burned
Without igniting our flesh
Through spirit alone
We found each other in our souls
As a singular entity beneath the sun
And under pouring stars
We were the doves of winter
The fireflies of summer skies
Now we are the forgotten
Lost ghosts of the world
Stealthily moving about
As the lovers that never met

I said au revoir a long time ago
To the only thing that made me real
So that I could be an ornament
Of this flesh they know me by
I clogged my vessels with false pretenses
Weighed down by love that's not there
Guised by a beating heart under the fire
And now walking a trail towards nowhere
I can now conclude I am only human
But I was once much more

The rain is tapping on the roof top, a soft breeze whistles through the cracked window. I've lost my mind, lying on the floor, floating, leaving this place. No one seems to notice what my eyes are whispering. Shades of green, bursts of red, and spots of brown, colors to hover the window to my soul. I've lost my mind. I can hear the cries of all the people in the house. The spirits of them all, slowly sinking, drowning in the sea. I wish someone could see, see the truth within me. It's not beautiful, nor bright, but dark and glum. I should hide the grotesque brokenness. I suppose I have this down, no one knows. I lost my mind. The carpet beneath me is starting to brush harshly upon my skin. I toss, I turn and the thunder strikes. I can taste the salt, it burns my eyes and dries my skin. Have I told you, I lost my mind.

There is so much to say
But I said nothing at all
I gave my tongue to the cat
And cough every word
Into lies that disguise me
I'm the seamstress of veils
I wear all shades and colors
Just so you don't know
That in the end I'm just scared

Stars filled the moonlit sky
The field lit up like fire
And the fox came for me
My hand in his snout
His fangs in my flesh
The blood was not there
Salvation in a desolate city
Wandering hopelessly
To nowhere but everywhere

A question lingers in my mind
Shall these words ever leave
This chained down tongue
I yearn for the  answer
But the fear it holds me back
From the inside out it tears me apart
I just need to know
Before the sand runs out
And my watch is upside down
Whether this heart of mine
Can invest in an empty soul
Will I be the one to fill it up
Quenching the thirst you have
Or will I be a whispered note
To drift along in the wet cold
In silence beyond the earth
For you I'd like to be this
I know what response awaits
Yet I still think to ask
But I don't want pains reign