I'm still adjusting
To the fact
That I will never
Be kissed again

If I said we burned bridges that would be an understatement

After being tangled in your sheets for weeks

The bridge did not just burn

It exploded

You slipped away for the hundredth time

Not that it should have mattered

We were just friends

But all I remember is slamming my hands into my steering wheel as the hottest tears streamed down my face

It's been three going on four years now since we've even spoken

But I still miss parts of you

I never met someone so opposite me

And yet who totally understood my inner struggle

The bridge that once connected us

It's gone now

And I have to realize there's no rebuilding this time.

I jokingly say
I'm gonna jump off a bridge

And you laugh and say you're coming with me

But you don't see how close I am to the edge do you?

When I'm lying awake at night
I think about your eyes
And I find It's no longer hard to sleep
I find that suddenly my soul
It brightens just a little more.

You emptied my wallet

And I think it emptied my heart.

I think of you
Every time
I walk into my room
And see the bed
That we broke
*Together

You left me
After promising to stay
*There are no words for that

She promised herself she wouldn't fall for him
And as she promised it
She realized she had already broken it.

Every ounce of joy
Is gathered and destroyed for me
And that is the way of life
I am so use to people hurting me
I am so use to being left
And as time goes on
My too big heart
Will finally wither
You can only take so many hits
Before they stop hurting.

Broken leg
Let it heal
Broken heart
It may never
Be whole again.

For years
I thought your emotional abuse was love

I deluded myself for so long

And even now I wish that some part of that pain was love.

You're the only one who has ever tasted me

And I hope my juices
Have burned your insides.

And I hate you

Not because of all the ways you broke my heart

But because the way it still flutters over you.

Years later
And you still
Have my heart
Feeling like
Butterfly wings
Fluttering against
My insides,

Tickling
Oh so softly.

Baby don't do that
Please
Just be mine


Put the drink down.


*For me

When you said you wanted to kiss me
I burst into tears
Knowing you never would

Realizing I can't remember the last one
Just the sting on my cheek as you left

I wish you were here

I wish you'd kiss me

Your ghost
Will always rattle
Within the cage that is
My soul.

For a while
Without words
My mind became mad
Sulking and aching
And suddenly words
Came and so did
Warm arms.

My body wants you

But my mind is angry

Angry with your carelessness

Angry with your childish ways

I love you

But I hate the things you do

I want you

But I need space from you

How is it

You made me love you and dislike you at the same time?

I love you with my soul
You can't just expect me
To *let go

My body was "beautiful" while you were inside of me

But when it just was
You'd ask when would I lose the weight

My **** were just fine when they were in your mouth

When they weren't you'd ask when I would get a **** job to "even them out".

You'd tell me I was perfect
But " I'd be a real knock out" if I just worked on myself.

I still somehow told myself you loved me.

I hate
How badly
I want others
To love our story
As much as I do
Knowing they
Never will

And as always
My anger melts
Into salty tears.