I love you
And I want our
Happiness back.


*Please bring it back

Little kids fight
Grown people talk
No matter how angry

I believe in love
I believe love is amazing
No one can ever
Destroy that belief

Everyday
With you
Was the best day
Of my life
And each day
Without you
Is the worst.

My favorite days,
Are the ones where you look at me,
Deep and long,
And all you seem to do is want to hug me,
To give me those eyes,
To smile,
To hold my hand,
My favorite days,
Are those when you kiss my whole face
Before you kiss my lips,
Just to make me smile,
And the way you wrap my legs with yours
So we're trapped together,
My favorite days,
Are the one where you're happy,
Happy
With
Me.

In one swoop I could
Lose my best friend
And the love of my life

And maybe I wasn't
The love of your life

But you always were the love of mine.

I'll be writing our love story until
The day that I die
Because until then
We do not have a ending.

I read
To prove
That I love God
And that I
Fight for
My soul
But sometimes
I read
To prove
To myself
I'm strong.

I've read
The last few nights
When I feel
Weak or down
And it always
Makes me feel stronger

Maybe one day
I'll wake up tired of dying

Maybe one day
The thing that makes me happy

Won't **** me.

Like a bird in search of a nest
I nestled into you,
In hopes I'd find comfort,
In hopes I'd be home
But even within the warmth of your arms
The cool winter breeze nips at my fingers,
Oh I need more warmth,
I need to get closer
For the safety in your arms
May sway if the wind picks up much more.

I washed it away,
I cried it away,
I willed it away,
And yet they stay,
Clawing from the inside
The memories,
The memories that will forever
Break my soul,
The shame,
The self hatred,
Oh but the cruel, cruel, memories
They remain inside
They crawl over me in nightmares
And never seem to fade,
Existing only to destroy
Only here to mock me,
And how it works,
For in the pit of despair
I see them
And my skin wants to tear
And my innards turn out
Oh evil past
Why won't you go
I begged
And I prayed
And I sulked
And yet still unmoved they stay
To torture,
To oppress,
To forever keep me
Regretting,
To forever keep me
Hurting,
One day I vow to forget
But for now I am haunted,
Haunted by a girl
Who was me
And not me,
Who acted like a beast
But felt like a prisoner
Oh and the aching returns
And churns my very chest,
It impales me with such suffrage
To remember,
To remember the memories.

Its ironic
One of the reasons
I don't want him
Is he's a non-believer

My favorite colors are black and green
Which I find ironic
For me green represents life
While black death
I teeter between feeling alive and dead
It's like asking a rainbow to choose just one color
It's rainbow, it is all the colors,
I am black and green
Not one or the other
I am both.

Her heart
Is crippled
From loving
All the wrong people

Love is too blind
She should've seen the pain
And the heartbreak
That waits for her
Everyday.

No,
No I didn't see
You should have just
Pointed it out to me.

To be yours
Is to know bliss

Sweet and wonderful.

I dreamt of you again

Just like I've done a million times before

And I awoke

Remembering your face

And wondering...

How do I break a bond

A trauma bond

One that convinced me
Mind, body and soul that I needed you

How do I take control of my dreams

So I never have to dream of you again.

There's no future for you there


But here,


There's a whole lifetime


For us to enjoy.


Together.

I think what bothers me most

Is that I still think of you fondly

Despite you up and leaving me

It bothers me so profoundly that you could just walk away

And it bothers me that I still want to dance in the glow of your presence

It bothers me that I care for you

Worry for you

Miss you

It bothers me that I thought there was more to us than there ever was.

You were the first person to tell me they loved me

And the first person to make feel worthless.