Honestly I don't know,
My heart says I love you,
My mind says it's just a crush
so here I am in between the two,
In my limbo,
Now I declare you my limbo love,
My heart can swell at the sight of you but then it depletes,
Words not spoken leaves a heart broken,
Your holding back and words are ready to pour from my untouched lips.

This is no longer a want or a desire it has grown into a neeed,
I need thopse lips,
Need that voice and laughter,
I need you,
Your my limbo love and I forever want to be yours,
My limbo love please save me from my fears,
Rescue me one last time,
This last time just take me in your arms,
Hold me close and whisper sweet lullibies of the love story yet to come,
Tell me you love me,
And know you will always be my limbo love,
Just believe in all we can be,
I just want our love to always be clear to see.

I board up the windows and I lock the doors,
I build wall after wall all in protection of my little heart shaped home,
It does not need anymore intruders,
My little heart shaped home does not need anyone to see it at it's worst,
My little heart shaped hime will try to stand alone,
it doesn't want to be broken,
It doesn't want to be bothered,
nor does it even want to be loved,
All it wants is to guard itself so that it stays safe and worth value,
So it is not harmed,
Not cracked or broken,
Not hurt or ignored it just wants to be slightly invisible.
So Please Leave My Little Heart Shaped Home Alone.

I love you
Please believe me
My love for you
Has always existed
It's always been true
It runs so deep in my veins
You will always be my first love
And hopefully my last as well
Understand no one has ever
Made me feel the you do
I love you through and through
I simply cannot imagine my life without you
Stay mine forever and always
And I swear to always be here
Always love you my darling,my dear.

I have never known passion
Until it was your hand
Rubbing between
My increasingly wet legs
I never wanted to take anyone
The way by body aches to take you
Or better yet
Have you take me
You focus so much on my pleasure
Never being greedy
You get off on my moans
And baby
I just can't handle the overwhelming
Ecstasy
I find when your lips meet mine
Because all I can think about
Is my love for you
And how your the only person
I've truly made love with
And each moment we're together in hot passion
I find myself begging for you
Inside and Out
By Heart Loves You
My Soul Needs You
But My Body
It Wants You.

I loved once upon a time
but he wore a crafty mask
made up of smiles
laughter
a defiant gaze
his brown eyes would shine
such hope was found there
his poor mask
worn by a cruel master
who turned out to be
only a fool
in the process of breaking my heart
I got to break part of his
and while I may never completely recover
I hope he doesn't either
because he doesn't deserve to be whole.

I can no longer withstand this pain.How could you say my heart was plain?Still you've slain it.You must admit,I was your game.Now All I feel is pain and your the one I blame.My heart will never be the same.Do you even know what I became?Slightly more insane.what is this strain?Don't you understand this is my only demand...Love me...Is that hope I see?

I am my own disease

It spreads like wildfire

My veins burst

My skin bruises

My insides begin to die

I am my own disease

You are the cure

So far and out of reach

I will die

Before ever even getting close.

I cried so hard that night
Thanking God
For this last
Year and a half
Telling him how
I tried
And how i loved you
And how i shouldve listened
To his signs that it
Simply wasnt time
But he has yet to answer
If it'll ever get to be the right time.


So i fade back into the past and pray for you
Like i always use to do
Pray that you stay in my life
Even if im broken
Pray that one day you'll see
That i looked at you with more love
Than most humans can understand
Pray for God to find a way.

I was only 11
When my prince
Strode up
And asked
For a dear friendship
I was intoxicated
By him
My friend
Who made
Me laugh
And smile
Made my heart swell
And break all at once
My love that was
A miniature
Explosion in my chest
Every time he'd look
Me in the eyes
My prince vanished
For quite some time
And at 15
I met my king
He proved
He wasn't that
Silly prince
Who was ashamed
Slightly more fearless
He took my hand
And I certainly don't plan
On letting go.

Instead of tears
I'll cry a river of blood
Throw in the story of me
The heart ache
confusion
stress
innocence robbed
the abandonment
the lack of love recieved
and my every moment of pain
and then my river
It will cover the world.

You missed it,
missed the monster you created,
The cuts they lead me to hell,
living in constant surveillance,
A never ending jail,
Each knife,Each pin,
they seemed to be my saviors,
yet I could not go near them,
they were my weaknesses,
When you walked out of my life,
future scars were marked,
I tried to stop on my own,
But I needed a higher power to stop me,
I still think about it,
I still think about you,
The pain comes flushing back,
And I become weak,
I want my saviors,
I want just a pin,
Please just one,
But I think of you,
and how you tried to end it before,
So I grip onto the little will power I have and slowly those evil thoughts,
the evil thought that were created the day you walked away,
They fade,
and light shines in,
and I only hope this time it stays.

I won't conform to your ways,
I'm not straight,
I will stand tall and defend myself,
You may not understand,
But at least I know who I am,
And don't you worry your pretty little head,
I won't come onto you,
I know if you fear my kind,
I know if your uncomfortable,
But you have to accept us,
Our population is growing,
And now we can marry in some states,
Be parents,
And we can love,
And on the occasion we are not accepted
You'll see we're stronger than you,
Because of who we are we're put through hell,
But at least we can still live and still go to heaven,
At Least We're Strong And Ourselves.

In a fit of lust
We lose control
But when all is done
I smile as you put your shirt back on
Realizing how good you look without it
And remembering all the days
I use to want to see you so ****
So bare
And now
After my patient waiting
I finally get to see
And I'll never get tired of looking.

Even when
Things weren't
Easy between
You and me
I stayed
Because
You never
Give up
One someone
That you love.

You don't sense my sincerity
When I say I wish I could change it
You don't listen to me
When I say I have been faithful and trustworthy
You have ignored my broken heart
If you looked in my eyes
My soul could reach out
And beg for your understanding
It would beg for you to do
What you use to,
Understand.

I realized today
That you
Are unlike
Any other
Because
You
Are the only one
That can make me
Happy
In each and every way
You see you've always
Been my everything
And I waited patiently
To be yours
And I hope you know
Your the only
One
That will
Ever
Make me feel
Like living.

You
Are
My fiancee
My lover
My life
You shall
Be my
Husband
A wonderful
Father to
My someday child
And most of all you
Will always be
My soul mate.

You encourage me
Make me smile
Cause tears to fade
Warm my heart
With perfect hugs
You mean so much to me
I fear each day
Because we near the end
We get closer to the day
Where you'll be gone
And then there will be
Another missing part of me.

The toxic fills me and I ravish in the moment,
I watch as the blood slowly stops,
Lessening with each passing moment,
I take one long sigh of relief but something is awry,
Tears well up in my eyes as I watch my arms,
The blood a beautiful crimson red still seeping out of me,
What have I done but add another scar,
I just added another reminder to all of my exsisting pain,
We all have our reasons and mine are hidden.
I refuse to let out the monsterous stories that created me,
I tried so hard to lock up the devil in me it's already free,
Constant fear of being caught washes through my mind,
Still who would see and who would bother to care,
My demise is inevitable,
It's all dependent on time
And soon enough my time will come,
My Time Of Death.

You wrapped me in your arms to keep away my tears
(Minutes passed on by and my tears began to dry
and as they did I wished they'd stay
so I could continue lavishing in your arms)
You told me we all had a purpose in life
(I wanted so badly to kiss you
to be your first and last)
Minutes ticked on by we were alone and just talking
(I told you my lonliness,
the lack of love I've felt my whole life)
You ask if I ever liked you
(Like you?! God I thought I was falling for you
Not that I could ever tell you)
I thought my yes would suffice
(But you continued asking me heart warming questions,
Ones that gave me hope)
You asked would I ever date you if you were bisexual
(I prayed in this moment you'd tell me you were
I wanted you and this question gave me hope
yet even now I fear it to be false hope)
I said yes and you told me you weren't
(I have some questions,
Why ask if you weren't?
Would you consider me like I consider you?
Why did you hug me so long?
Why do you always hug me longer when we're alone?)
Times up and we go.**
(Leaving me more confused than ever.)

I'm sorry we can't make love

I'm even more sorry

That I will

Make you need to.

She wrote your name
And wondered why
It just looked so right

She wrote your name and knew, it would never be beside hers

She wrote your name in a dream, and couldn't believe how much she wanted you.

She wrote your name in a dream, and when she awoke she knew, she could never write it again.

Your the only one
Who can make
My name
Feel like me
Your the only one
Who says my name
In a way where
I almost begin
To love it
Cherish it
And so long as
I have you
My name shall stay.

I woke from my nap
And I stretched back
And made a weird noise
And I thought
If you were here
You'd find it adorable
While every other man
Would probably
Be taken aback
And look at me
With digust or
Unappealment.

I thought about you
And how you made me feel
So special.

Suddenly
She takes back everything
She would let him hurt her
Every way possible
If she could get just one
Just one
Moment of love and affection
The pain he gave was always easier
Than the pain a life without him gave
And his love was the sweetest
Nectar she had ever known
And now she will never taste
The bittersweet flavor she had loved
So **** much.

I really need you
But she
Needs you more
Go
And say goodbye
For me too.

I need to be loved
To be held close
And kept warm

I need kisses everywhere
To feel the laughter
Bursting from you

I need you
Now, here, there,
Everywhere, and always,

I need you please baby
Be mine.

All my mind
Asks for is more
More commitment
More love
More attention
More sweetness
More passion
More action
More more more
The greed never ends
I hold down myself to refrain
From the inner neediness
Lock away my weakness
Knowing I'm only fooling myself
Because in the end
I still hear its pleas
But darling please know
I love you so much
And that is why I'm greedy
Because I fear your absence
I fear a life without you.

Even after all this time
When I feel broken and alone
I tell myself I need you


You started my brokenness
I don't need you

Or maybe I always will.

I need you
Because I love you
But I need you because
Your touch is the one
Of a lovers
Your love is that of one too
I need you because
The future I see
Is only made up of you and me
And of course baby spencer
Or serenity
I need you
Now
Forever.

The lack of your essence gives me the shakes,
I lose the strive to survive,
Quiting begins to sound like a gift,
I need you near
To keep me from collapsing,
Your my best friend
But your also part of the problem,
But still I need you,
You hug me,
Take away the pain,
Wipe away the tears,
Tell me it'll be alright,
But you'd leave me if you knew,
If you knew I'm in love with you,
And in this moment I am a puzzle
With a million missing pieces,
And while your near I feel a little less incomplete,
I need you
Now
And Forever

If only that could be.

I will fight for you,
For me you are worth all the stars in the sky plus some,
Your smile reminds me of the sun,
Because for me it lights up not just the room but the day.

I would be lying if I said it was easy,
You are not mine unless you believe in dreams,
But I'd do anything to be in your arms,
Just to feel your warmth next to me.

I won't give up because my heart wills me to love you,
Your laughter fills me with joy,
I want nothing more than your love,
You keep me far but I want to be close,
Just know that I'll never stop fighting.

I'm just afraid
One day
You won't
Be there
When I
                     F
                       A
                            L
                               L
And nothing
Will hold me together
And I
Will just
B R E A K


My life without
You is so
Meaningless
So please
Stay
Don't let me
Hurt
Don't let me
C
O
L
L
P
A
S
E

Bad days with some tears is the way to go,
Not with fear,
Not with a knife,
Because right now I just wanna live life,
And with my will to fight,
I'll live on even if the light isn't always shining bright,
I will try and even when I fail,
I'll have a new tale,
Of my new power,
My face may be sour,
But at least I know I'm strong,
Though I waited long,
It was worth it in the end,
This completion I can't pretend,
So this real,
This is really how good I feel...

Am I beautiful?

There's so must controversy

I say no

My lover says *Yes

My childhood tormentors say NEVER

My admirer says Of course

The question continues to go unanswered

But who could ever see

Beauty in such a girl

With such a past

Could I have finally

Amended or Atoned for my sin

Have I become beautiful

Or are my hopes

Just to high.