There lies
Tangled sheets
Wrapped around
Two lovers
Who finally
Made love
In Their bed
The smile
They bare from
Their night
Exhausting
But ravishing
These lovers
Are soul mates
They must be
Such love making
Such passion
Cannot exist
Between anyone
But true soul mates

Love me
Love me
Love me

Please
Please

Your the one
The one

You are my soul mate
My soul mate
I need you to see that

I hope you love me
Truly love me
*Please love me

I get scared
Because your so
Attractive and I
Am just a girl
Guys have only
Taken interest
To use me
And I'm scared sometimes
That you'll want
To leave me
But I guess we both
Have some fears
Mine more realistic
Because your
Unique perfection
And I'm a mess
I ramble
And I rant
Losing myself
In life
And you seem
Stronger
Like your tethered
And torn soul
Can handle so much more
Than my worn one
I love you
And I want to forever
To be yours
But I get scared
Because I don't know
What you see
In a girl like me.

Never again
Will my body
Be caressed
Or cared for
Nor shall it
Be seen again
My body will rot
And die
Thinking
Of the lover
Who took me
Fiercely
And often
Who i shared
Passion with
Who i experimented with
Who i let teach me
And who i moaned for
Whose name i whimpered for
The lover who is one of a kind
Who i let try things that hurt
And things that felt amazing
No matter how nervous
The lover who
I said those three words to
That lover
Who i will never
Get to make love to again
That lover who no longer exists.

I fought against being clingy
Despite your requests
Because i knew
Once i became clingy
You'd see me for my weakness
Not for my strength
And our blossoming love
Would forever die and fade





*Oh how right i was

Love is such a odd thing

You can love someone who hurts you

And I mean LOVE them

And you can love someone who adores you

And I mean ADORES

But they often aren't one in the same

Love is a rollercoaster

And you're just waiting to get back to the beginning

Waiting for that smooth ride.

I miss making love everywhere
That passion that swept us away
That told us that here and now is perfect
The sweet kiss on my neck
That always made my skin rise
And the way we said we loved each other
And the way he touched me
The way he kissed those lips of mine
And made me claw at him and the sheets
The way we joined face to face
Face to hips
And best of all hip to hip
I miss the way we finished together
But never really finished because we always
Wanted more
I miss my lover
Because he was more than just that
He was a friend and the man
I dreamed would be my husband
And thats what made it special
That why our first time
Really felt like my first time.

I'm not use to writing in rhyme
Not no more
I'm not use to poetry at this time
Been to long since I wrote
And well
It's been to long since I used a quote
And while this poem too
Isn't any good
It's what I gotta do
I lost my talent it seems
But I try
Because A girl got dreams
And while this ain't worth reading
It's better than bleeding
I hope my inspiration comes back
But I believe my inspiration
Is currently under attack.

Don't
Don't
Have ***
With me
Please
Oh please
Just
Make
Love
To me
Love me
Please
Make love
To me
For the
Rest of my life.

Love shares too many good-byes
Too many unsaid words
Far too many pieces of shattered hearts
The painful memories are unumerable
Love begins with such life
Such beauty
But as it dies a part of us does too
Love shares tears as well as smiles
Shares gut wrenching pain with butterflies
Love begins with a bright and mystical magic
But love ends with black life ******* magic
There is no changing this predestined course
It was loves way of saying they aren't the one
Even if every ounce of you says they are.

You
Have always held my heart
That I can't deny
But one day you'll hold our child
And that
Makes me the luckiest
Girl
Because your mine
Now
And forever
My first love
My first kiss
Will become my last
And that's a love story
That's our story.

You said your other personality
Was the spirit of anger

Well baby,
Didn't you know,
My whole personality,
Is the spirit of love,
Of undying hope

Didn't ya know that girl,
Who once loved you the way I did,
Could never stop

Didn't ya know,
That despite so much anger,
Despite your unwillingness to forgive
Despite every bad day

The spirit of love within me never died,
She lives forever,
She is me,
Love is me,
You cannot **** us,
Cannot knock us down,
We will always stand,
We will always love.

Passionate Kisses,
To Spiteful Ignorance.

Tender Hugs,
To Evil Glares.

Sweet Laughter,
To Painful Silence.

Eternal Love,
To Everlasting Hate.

I Vowed Never Again To Love,
Love had broken me down far too much and I could no longer bare the consiquences of it all,
But then one day I saw you and everything began to change,
Our eyes met and it was from that moment I knew something would come from us,
There was a rumbling in my heart and I couldn't control it another moment,
You rescued me from tears and from cuts,
You gave me comfort and I ravished in every moment with you,
My smiles were worn proudly and all because of you,
My joy was endless as long as I was in your pressence,
I slowly found myself thinking about you every moment I could,
As time passed you were even in my dreams,
It seemed I had fallen in love and to this very moment I curse myself for it,
I'm in love with you and what we are  merely consists of laughter and jokes and a bare minimum friendship,
Your have me under your spell,
My heart is trapped,
My heart is yours and you may do with it what wish,
Your my love,Your my everything and without you I would fall to endless pieces,
Please darling love stay close and don't go,
Please darling you know I love you so.

Go Ahead continue on your way,
Continue Breaking me,
Treating me like trash,
Making me feel miniscule,
Making me feel inhuman,
And unlovable,
But while you do all those things to hurt me,
I'll be there reminding you,
While you tear my world apart,
I'll be whispering sweet lullabies based solely on our story

I'm scared,
this crush,
it makes me smile as little more each day,
and I'm scared you'll never like a girl like me,
but honestly I'm feeling some mixed signals,
But all I'm sure about is that when you smile at me I melt,
I melt at the sight of your amazing lips that I crave to kiss,
and I melt at those amazing dimples that always keep me so entertained,
This crush keeps me exhilarated,
This crush keeps me on edge,
I love every moment we laugh together,
And better yet,
I'm Starting To Love This Crush...

The aching
use to feel
like a million
knives in my chest
It left me in such
Agony and pain
My eyes the color of blood
Because the tears never stopped
My scars that became
Fresh wounds
I was filled
With such emptiness
So much worthlessness
It seemed I'd never
Stop this feeling
Even when
I thought it faded
It grew back
And it hurt much
**Worse

I would never see you again
I let the thought fill me
Walking away
I thought of us
And I tried
Just to remember
The look in your eyes
The sound of your voice
The curve of you
The lips that were mine
The hand I once held
I captured everything
And then I decided
This truly was
Good-bye
Even if I wish
It was still a hello.

When you look my way my heart skips an beat,
Talking to you makes my cheeks blush,
I feel the heat,
It's rising and I'm falling,
Still I fear the day you'll leave me bawling,
I trust you but you'll break me,
So all I can do is dream of what we could be.

I want you more than you know
But I fear the day you will go,
I'm just sick of being a tool,
I try my hardest not to come off a foll,
But you see the truth you see reality
Do you see us do you see our unity?

I'm scared you'll break my heart,
But I can't ignore the facts,
I've loved you fromn the start.

Maybe one year,
If I'm lucky
I will have a kiss on new years

Maybe one year,
If I'm lucky
I will have someone
To wish me a happy new year

Maybe one year,
If I'm lucky,
I will wake up on January first,
In the arms of a man who loves me

Maybe one year,
If I'm lucky,
The fireworks will not remind me
Of the fire in my soul,
That goes unloved

Maybe one year,
If I'm lucky,
I will know of a love,
That will last every year.

My body's running off the deep end
Trying to get closer to you
My body it wants you
We're lustful teens
But we're also in love
Your uncontrollable shiver
Turns me on
I have fight back urges
When your away
Images and thoughts
Of making love with you
Rot my mind
No one will ever touch me
Like you do
I get nervous when
The chance arises
But even though I retreat
I want to march forth
And let our bodies be one
But every teen girl fears
This is all you want
Even though I know its not
My past has traumatized me
And my body's begging I let go
I need to
Because my body wants to be with you.

For I have known
A lust so strong
That when torn apart
Could tear a already severed heart
Hath I known
I would have strayed
Ran with fright
For the lust
Has me begging
And pleading
And he is not lust worthy
So I am now stranded
Nowhere to go
But filled with desire
Yet I let it be
I let it take all of me.

I love that
Look
On your face
The way
Your eyes
Look desperate
For more
The way
You need me
Not just because you love me
But because you
Lust for me too.

I want the excitement

The titillation I felt whenever I felt your hand touch me

The passion behind every kiss
And the desire in each breath

I miss the lust more than I miss you.

Lying awake night after night,
So many thoughts being processed,
I tend to my desires,
Thinking of all the possibilities and all the outcomes,
They seem to end in a disaster,
Ha,
Just like everything in my life,
My aching heart tries putting in a word or two,
I just remind it what happened the last time I listened to it,
It got broken,
And so I try to focus in on the thoughts,
Each one making no sense,
Yet complete sense,
The bad thoughts mix in so well with the good ones,
So everything in me is all jumbled up,
And I lie there for hours trying to figure it out,
Figure out the things that make me happy,
And I realize it's all the things that make me sad,
The Love I want always perishes,
The load of responsibilities that is sometimes my escape only grows,
My Friends all fade and leave me alone,
My Life grows dimmer,
And piece by piece I see myself loosing everything,
And I know happiness is only temporary,
But that temporary time has yet to come,
And before I sleep I ask,
Will It Ever?

"Your eyes are glowing"

I know
And yours as well
As you admire me
I love it
Love the very idea
Of this little town
Something draws me in
The pure beauty
The little shops
The sea just moments away
Oh how I love the sea
My eyes fixate on its movement
I love it here
With you
In this place
That feels
Magical.

I need to hold you close
Pull your body near mine
Kiss your neck
Then your lips
To feel you body in my arms
Bring it closer
For our lips to never part
The moments I could spend
Holding you
And exploring you
These moments can be
Part of magic memories
Magic moments.

Whenever I cry
Whenever we fight
I get so scared
That I'm losing you
But you hold on tight
And prove you'll stay
You kiss me and
I find that
We need each other
More than ever
Because when
Things hurt
Or fall apart
Even if only
For a moment
Lust takes over
Pure desire
And I think
We just need
Each other
To touch
To kiss
To hold




But never miss.

Looking into your eyes
I know that this is
Suppose to be
Forever
Yet there's
Our battles
But no couple
Is perfect
And we're still young
We'll figure it out
And ignore that feeling
I use to have
Because your it
The stop sign
For love has found me
And I no longer need to search.

Someone always seems
To ask me
How do I know everything
Will happen the way I hope?

And I simply respond
**Because when he loses faith
And when nothing seems right
I look to the sky
And I whisper my dreams
And the faith rushes back into me
I'm suddenly reassured
That everything will go the way I hope
And everyday I awake with faith in my heart
For I know with faith and determination
I can succeed.

They looked
At me
Like I was a monster
And I viciously
Look at them
With the
Fierce image
Of ripping out
Their throats
And standing atop
Their newly
Rotting corpses.

And this year like every year
Someone will break my heart
For my birthday

Whether it was my father
My first love
Or myself.


Happy birthday to me!

What is there to say
I will be a year older
Yes I the outcast
Of society
This marks another
Year closer
To freedom
To casinos
And maybe a drink
But why should we
Celebrate
You see
I'm old enough to see
Just how lonely I can be
I will spend my day
"The day "
Alone
Roaming the streets
Waving goodbye
To all those years
Of parties
Where I only invited
Two friends
Because it's all I had
I'll be waving goodbye
To the memories of
Crying each year
For no good reason
You see this year
I'm one step closer
To being
Not only a fully
Grown woman
But an adult
And with age
Comes a new responsibility
I just wish
I was good with goodbyes
Or with handling life
But hey maybe this year
Things will change
But if not
Let's have some
Great ******* cake instead.

When you left me
For the last time
You took a picture of us
I wish I still had
I miss your face
That scar
That somehow
Made you perfect
I wonder if you have it still
I wonder if you look at it
And say how you miss my face
And my freckle
That you use to kiss
We were imperfect
And we fought to love each other
Because it wasn't easy
But we found it in those little things
We found it
Together.

Marriage
Does not
Scare me
It's everything
Before it
The fact
That while
We wait
We can part
Is terrifying
For I want
To be married
And I want
To be married
To you
So please
Work with me
So we can be
Together always.

In a place of weakness
I moved my head up
From the soft place in your chest
And whispered
I want to marry you so badly
And even I had no intention to cry
I had no clue that my desires
Ran so deeply in my veins
And yet I knew with tears streaming down my face
I wanted you
For the rest of my life
And I knew this with such intensity
That nothing can quite compare
For I knew then I truly loved you
I knew I truly couldn't bare your absence.