I have you
Our lust
Our passion
Our love
And I never wanna let you go
I'm fearful
Of the day you'll leave me
Because everyone does
My life can't bare your absence
Because I awake each morning
Waiting for your kiss
Your hug
Smile
Touch
And whispered love
With you I am complete
No longer a broken soul
Looking for her other half
The future we've planned
Is all I need for the rest of my life
I wanna live with you
Marry you
Bare your child
And die blissfully
Old and In love.

My body
Bloated with passion
Is not easy without you
For I writhe
Back arched
Soft frustration
Uttered from my lips
Hand desperate to touch
To feel
Roam
But it's nothing
Compared to
How every
Kiss
Every caress feels with you.

I pray
I cry
I hold onto hope
That something
Has changed
Something was wrong
Just so you can stay
And our plans
Can follow through
You use to wake up
And call me
Your paragon of a wife
Your packing up now
And I don't want you
To ever pack up us
Because I'm afraid of being buried.

We're old enough to know we want each other forever but young enough for dreams and aspirations to come true and together I believe everything we want and everything we dream is possible.

Your the only man
I could ever see a future with

The only one I can see
Myself marrying

I always imagined having a child
And it would always be our baby

I dreamed of us and our marriage
My dress and your unhappily worn suit

We'd live together so happily
Sharing that bed
And you'd no longer fake sleep

I'd call you husband and you'd call me wife

We'd raise that child together
Teach him right from wrong

We'd die together
Or one after the other
And our souls would see


Exactly what I always suspected
That we were meant to be

That we have been bonded since the
Very beginning
And that's why we haven't given up

That's why no matter what
We'd return to each others arms


You get blinded sometimes
I do too
And as lovers
It's our jobs to help the other see

There's something here SO
Worth fighting for

So baby don't let go
*Let our dreams come true.

This waiting
Is a retching
Agony
Eating away
At my insides.

Look what you've done,

You broke her,

After making her feel like she was the one,

It's not right,

It's not fair,

You took away her light,

You don't even care.

I stare out into the distance,
Hoping it's you I see,
The lust has been growing,
And it's you I need,
Please I beg of you,
Satisfy my wants and desires,
I yearn for the love you give,
Any others would be sub-par,
You,
Looking at you,
I see everything I want,
It's right there,
Looking me in the face,
Teasing me,
But still,
I cannot touch,
I cannot have you,
Though every part of my body aches for you,
I cannot have you even if it aches for you and only you.

I never

Believed in

Forever

But maybe

He'll prove me

Wrong.

You never cared,
I was only your game,
Seems like you've won,
Was this your master plan
Tearing my world apart?!
You heartless *******,
I wish I never met you,
***** the good memories
They all lead to this disaster,
You've made me weak far too long,
No longer will I love you!
I can't continue to watch as my world falls apart,
Even if it's already begun,
and nearly impossible to stop,
I'll try,
I always try,
But so often do I fail,
I still try to put on my brave face and pretend it's all okay,
But isn't obvious how I'm dying inside?
My heart is now old and weary,
Useless for loving,
Impossible for being loved,
Are you proud?!
You ruined my life,
and if I am never happy again the only person I'll blame,
Is YOU.

I wake up every morning
Knowing I can't hold you
With the facts running
They grab me and won't let go
Remind me
I will never get to wake up
Beside you
Won't hold your hand
Or kiss those lips
I'll never hear the words
That I ache to hear
Never get to feel
Me in your arms
I have to settle
For a look
A word that
Can make my heart soar
I have to settle
Living my life
Knowing we'll never
Be anything more
Than the nothing we are now.

A touch that has become poisonous,
A voice blurred by the agony of it's presence,
A feeling that makes you numb,
One long intrustion
A forcful emotion cowering.
It is evil lurking behind the penatrators eyes,
Perhaps he did not feel the squirming,
But maybe he just didn't care,
You hear of things like this but you don't it to come true,
You expect never to run your path by one of Satans dearest friends,
But he is there caressing you
Making your body shiver,
You may not think,
You may not feel,
Your soul is released for the short moments that endtrap you in Hell,
But truly all it is is a hellish reality,
You may not escape unless you are set free,
You cannot leave until the Devils dear friend is done,
You take the brutal and traumatizing moments
And you let them suffocate you,
The memories may always haunt you
But ***** it and the hellish reality that surrounds you.


He's finished and you're free to go.

I Need Escape
This place has me trapped
Hate evolved
It's beyond containment
These walls are collapsing
And all evil is being set free
I'm itching
To run away
Get out
Never come back
These minor inconviences
Have become unlivable circumstances
I Will Find A Way Out
I Will Escape This Hell.

How can I fix wounds
That are so fresh
That open every time
You tell me I'm your everything
Every time you tell me you love me
You hate him
Because in your mind
He stole me away
And maybe he did
But I never planned it
I thought I was falling in love with you
So I ran
But he got in my way
And because of it
He unleashed an older love
That can never completely die.

My heart
Is like a
Large dog
Trapped
In A small
Cage
It barks
It cries
Pleas
For
Freedom
A new
Owner
But
No one
Rescues it
Just leaves it
Lets it rot
And die
It gave up
And let go
Because hoping
And holding on
Was too hard.

For all the imperfections that create this being
There is another scar you'll never see
The horror of myself in weakness
Will not be often;
No, for all that I reveal is my insanity
For my weakness is burrowed deep
And it will not emerge again
My imperfections may make me
But they will not change my already injured soul
I know the world is cruel
So judgemental and materialistic
But me
I still worship personality, a caring soul
Who see's goodness and ravishes it
Still I only want another person
Who the world considers imperfect
So that together
Our imperfections
Seem so miniscule
So pointless
We'll be happy because
In each others eyes
We're just
Perfect.

Same height
Ring size
Hand size
Lips that entwine
So perfectly
We have
So many emotions
And can be stubborn
But when we love
We love with
All that we are
We're stronger than we think
Because we're fighting
Even when we're in tears
And at the end of the day
There's nothing better
Than being in each others arms
So yes I believe
That we're meant to be
But even more
I believe God made us
Meant for each other.

You asked me to draw a heart on your face,
But for me it is a sign of my love,
That would mean close contact,
While that excites me it makes me nervous too,
The truth is no matter what I still dream of you,
You have magical powers to lighten up my day,
Feelings though may not be returned,
You have another girl to caress,
To hold close,
To kiss,
To love,
And I don't really matter,
I'm just some girl who is hoplessly in love,
I'm just a girl,
Nothing special,
But she must be,
Because she has you.

Feeling
Alone

Because I know

You won't see it


Until it's too late.

In the pit of me I knew it would end.

My heart
Was always on my sleeve
You grabbed my hand
Brushed past my heart
And let it smash
You broke me
With your touch good-bye
You let me fall to pieces
I was your puppet
You pulled my strings
Made me fall in love
Made me smile when I cried
Made me happier than I thought I could be
And then again
You left me here
Without a word
Of sorrow or apologies
You just let my love hang there
Let my heart fall
And all I felt was it break
As all the good memories
Collided with the bad ones across the floor.

All I need are simple things,
Just to have you look my way,
Just to see your smile,
To hear your laughter.

But things get complicated and I find myelf needing more,
I need to be in your embrace,
Need your kiss,
Your touch,
All I need is you.

I need you.

I put myself out there,
Only to be broken,
I'm treated like the nothing I've learned to be.

I Loved Once,
And even that faded away,
Any good must die,
Any smile must fade,
All laughter will slowly go,
And Once Again,
I will remain alone,
I will remain only slightly whole.

All that stands between us is only a street,
Only words left unspoken,
All that stands between you and I,
Are the experiences we have yet to enjoy together,
All that stands between us,Is our denial,
The denial that all true feelings we've shared have come and past,
Because every time I look into those eyes I still see a part of my heart,
I think it's taking refuge there because until we admit how we feel,
How we've always felt,I think that part of me feels safer with you,
With what it wants most,
You,
You and your heart.

I.** The day I realized
That you were out there
Almost within my reach again

II. The day you proposed
And we ditched school to
Celebrate

III. The day we first kissed
And my heart jumped so hard
In my chest that I actually jumped

IV. The day we went to Newport
And I cried because my love
Overwhelmed me with my desire
To one day be your wife

V. The last day we had together,
Despite the ending it was still
My favorite birthday because I had you,
My favorite person in one of mt favorite places

VI. The day we spent in Warren
And it was nearly 100° and we
Had like three dollars that we spent
On candy and freshly made soda

VII. The day we first made love
Nervous and new and yet still
So worth while

VIII. The day we bunked
And you told me you loved me
For the first time in our relationship
And my heart broke free from my chains
And I said that I loved you too

IX. The day we met to kiss
After so long and we talked for
An hour instead before I finally kissed you
And the magic of your lips once again
Made my heart flutter

X. The day, just any day
That we spent at home together
Laying in bed, cuddled up
And made love and cooked
And watched TV together
And we were free and we,
We were happy.

I think you're being petty

I think you're being childish

I think you're being blinded

Am I suppose to tell you

I've been holding my tongue

Keeping in every ounce of admiration

Was I suppose to tell you

That your smile made me melt

That your presence shook my life

That every time you touched me

I hoped it was just a little more

I'm better now at being silent

Your life is going through an earthquake and for that I forgive all the bad thing and all the sad words

But know that if I could I'd kiss it all away

Even if it risked my own earthquake.

Your sweet smile
Gentle laughter
The brink of flirtation
Those amazing moments
Where it was just you and me
Such warmth in your eyes
My heart that was slowly falling
Before you pulled on the reigns
And stopped me in my tracks
Our world
The one we gladly shared is now
Seperated
Your world and mine
Such hate in those eyes
A cool look of guilt
For your the one to turn me away
I cared so deeply
I'm sorry if you were afraid
But now everything
Has changed
And our flirtation
Is a hatred.

You hated me first.

I've been waiting

To come home

And I'm delighted

To say

I'm almost there.

I
Think
My
Body
Needs
Yours
To
Penetrate
It
Now.

It's when
Your away
That I know
Without a doubt
That my love
For you is so true
For when your
Body is away
The memories
The dreams
The thoughts of you
Overflow my mind
And I smile
Knowing your the one
I will spend forever with.

An explosion
A on edge way of surviving
Each day battling
Each day waiting for defeat
Abandoned by hope
Knowing evil rests here
A nice smile
Tightening innards
Survival no longer seems vital
Giving in is so simple
The urges grow
A split of a vein
It will set me free
Agony will longer reside in me
I will no longer be a abandoned memory
I will be the forgotten pain
I am not strong
Words will not change that I am weak
Time has not changed it either
I am a ticking time bomb
And I must EXPLODE

Lust has been silent in my life for so long now

I miss the desires

I miss the thrill of firsts

The sensation of wanting every ounce of someone's body on me

in me

I miss the way I was wanted

In my eyes
You were always
More than a great person
You were a wonderful one
You were the reason
That I found safety
That I emerged
From the lonliness
And fought
For my smile
You were always
So special to me
And I will love you
Here, now
And wherever I go.

For four years
I have loved you
Please
Don't
Doubt that.

You broke my heart so many ways

More than than I thought possible

And yet with each shattering I would still tell you how I loved you

And I don't know what's more pathetic

The way I let you break me so often

Or the fact that when I said I would always love you I meant it.

I love you
And I say it
With sincerity
I miss you when
Your gone
And I love it
When your near
Secretly
My heart hates
All these other girls
The ones who cry on you
Because I like to do that when I'm sad
The ones who get to laugh with you
Because I envy the way they make you happy
But I am silent
Of my jealousy
So you don't think
I'm that crazy obsessive girl
Who once tried so hard
To cling to you
Like a magnet to metal
I want you
I want the rest of my life
To be spent with you
Always
Because no matter
The people
Who want us
All that matters
Is that we only want each other.