The wind hits my neck
And I shiver with the mixed emotions
Of pleasure and coldness
But I love it
Because it reminds me
Of your suckling kiss
That always gives me
Goosebumps
And that always
Tickles
And excites me
Oh I don't mind the cold
Because it reminds me
Of your warmth.

Your kiss
Like the smell
Of dewy grass
Telling me something
Wonderful as arrived
And your passion
Like wearing flip flops
And running through it
Wet and slippery
Yet so comfortable
All just so serene
And absolutely perfect.

I love you

But then

Wall

You're 28

Depending on me

To do basic needs

Turning an arm injury

Into a lifetime of excuses

I don't know what to do

Because there's this boy

Who actually seems like

Just slightly more of a man

And there's you grown

And slightly more childish

And my heart is flustered

And my brain confused

And I just wish you would grow up.

Passion beginning in short kisses
The moment tongues are thrashing
You pull me closer in a fit of desire
My pleasure audible
I seem to press closer and closer
Feeling your warm body tremble beneath me
You must be losing control
Because your pushing my hips away
I move them closer to feel your body
Hard against me
Your losing control
Circling my pant line
Almost giving into temptation
Giving into me
But you fight
Until you can't bare it
Any longer
And your hand
Crashes into my skin
In a beautiful feeling of pleasure.

I think Hades has erupted from the depths of Hell and is controlling everyone around me everyone is turning on me the only cause I can see is the devil himself.The famous Hades himself must have a hatred for me that runs deep in his veins.Why he hates me I will never know but I know he is truly evil.

Happy Birthday Darling
If no one else says it
I will
My girl
Your older now
On your way
To becoming a grown up
Your no joke
You are strong
You Keep me going
I can only try
To describe you
I would say your
Funny
Bright
Pretty
Smart
Loyal
And Honest
I trust you
Your an amazing person
And star you light up my day.

I hate this love that grows for you,
It grows every time we speak,
Every time I see your photograph
My heart aches,
The tears begin to fall,
And I'm remembering all we were,
This love I've grown to hate merely because your so far away,
This love is still there even through the distance,
Our memories were made,
And Never Forgotten.

They answer hate with hate
I answer it with silence
A lack of participation
Trying to keep locked up
Not to reveal my anger
To assure safety
No hate for me
Though hate grows
I'll keep it in
Sure not to show it
Or my weakness
Hate is not solved with hate
Or silence
Hate is solved
Only by a better understanding.

I hate myself
Because I love those
Who can never love me

Because somehow
I always do what's wrong
Instead of right

Because in the end
I'm the one left alone
Crying

Holding only myself.

Hatred
Bred from
False lies
Hate in your soul
Causing
You to unhappily die
You see
Hate is not pure
And your hate
I know for sure
Your desires buried
By this loathing
I'm glad your gutless
Because it keeps you away
But still I know
It'd be better for us both
If your hatred wasn't so determined to stay.

We're no longer the people we use to be
We have to move on
And leave those shadows
In our past
Sure stories are fun to tell
But they make you long
For what you no longer can have
They make you wish things
You don't really mean to wish
Don't get stuck in the past
Because life won't wait for you.

Knowing
Your sweet
And gentle
Heart
Has loved before
Will always
Ache
Always sever
A small part inside of me
But I can't change it
I can't say I hate you
Because I love you
And you know
I've done worse
Than just love
I've tried so hard
To erase the past
And not let
Curiosity
Eat away at me
But the algae of jealousy
And the atoms
Of our past
Come back to haunt us.

Trust that I

Have been faithful

Believe that I

Want this love to last

Have hope

That our future

Will be as amazing as we imagine it to be.

I love you
And I'm human
Despite the fact
That I use to say
I was born
In venus
So yeah
I make mistakes
And no I'm not perfect
Even if in your eyes I am
I'm not
I love you
And even when I cry
I love you
And I know I don't always
Act like I do
But I do
And you mean more to me
Than anything
And I'm sorry
For every time I hurt you
And I wish each night
You were here to tuck me in
But I'm patient
We've lived a miserable life apart
And I hope we never have to bare that again
I love you
And darling
You've always had my heart.

My poor head
With all it's endless
Pain and aching.

As always I am
Healed with passion
With love
With an undeniable
Connection between our souls
So that in the end
Everything
Is better than okay
And we can live out
Our lives
Together
Just as we planned.

I'll never
Want anything
More
Because wanting
Leads to hurting
The healing process
Is me just
Ignoring the
Tug in my chest
The process
Ensures I
Act carelessly
Toward you
Never Look
Into your
Browns eyes
And
Always
Tell myself
I hate you
Even through
The whispers
Of love that
My heart
Sends to
my ears.

I Hate You


*I Love You.

In my empty room


Someone tried to get my attention






                                                                               *Pssssss

Our whole lives
You've been fighting the love
I've been fighting for it

I can no longer count the times
You've left me
Or ended our relationship

I've known you almost nine years

I know your every expression

I know I am not the right choice

But I would fight for you until the end of time itself

And that's the biggest heartbreak of all

My dedication
And your lack thereof

I think back to when I use to smile

And it was always in your arms

I remember walking in the heat of August

Sweaty palms didn't stop us from holding hands

I remember us venturing in the middle of winter

We walked in the snow
And you were still so warm

I remember the way your whole soul seemed to calm when I rubbed your back

I will always hold our memories

I have tried to erase them

But my dreams won't let me

I wanted to be yours

I would follow you anywhere

And yet

I am alone now

When our old song comes on
I can't bare to listen

Because it hurts so bad
And I remember when you believed in us and it would make you cry

You're choosing your mind over your heart

And I'm left with my heart
Too **** full

And my mind drowning in memories

How do I let you go

I've been asking myself this since we met

Since you asked to be my friend
And I told you this would happen

How do I let you go

Because I know now

It'll never be me

I will never be your final choice.

I hate honesty
And I hate that no one likes my poems
And I hate that no one will understand this
But writing for me is like setting my heart free

I hate being away from him
Because at night after a long miserable day
I need him close
I just went on vacation
But it was only fun in between
The yelling
And swelling
And the pain
And today I imagined my arms
Cut up
And I hate those thoughts
And I hate feeling weak
I don't wanna watch this kid anymore
He's not mine
I don't wanna hurt
I wanna be with him
Whenever I want
And I want them to stop doubting us
I wanna feel free
To work toward my goals without
These things weighing me to the ground
I want him and school and my dreams
I want to work and be normal
At least a little
I want to breathe and not feel like a monster
I don't wanna be fat
But I don't wanna eat meat and eggs and salads
I want fruit and yogurt and nuts
And I want to smile
I want to smile
With hope all these things will come true
When in reality I'd settle for one
Just one.

I
Have
Only
Needed
You
To
Survive
Because
With
You
I
Am
Whole
And­
As
Long
As
Your
Holding
Me
My
Heart
Feels
Happier
And
So
Much
More
Completed.

I wish I could explain it,
But I'm so confused,
My heart it aches each and everyday,
I've let go,
At at least mostly,
But when I'm alone your face flashes by in my mind,
Then I remember it all,
Our friendship that became love,
I remember our story,
Our hugs,
Our kisses,
Our laughs,
Our smiles,
I start remembering how much you meant,
Remembering when you loved me,
I wish you never let go,
I wish you would hug me,
But these days,
Just a hello would do,
A hello I may never get.

I need you
Now
It hurts
And the
Tears sting.

I'm going to cry
Ready
To break
Can't
Explain
These emotions
But I know
You sure
Would be
Helpful right now.

Forever
Can you please
Happen sooner.

Time
Can you move
Just a little faster.

Love
Can you last
A little longer.

Will-power
Please just get
A little stronger.

Emotions
Can you just
Make up your mind.

I wish I could hold you in my arms
All day long
And just call you baby
Call you amazing
Call you my life
I wish your home
Wasn't so hard to live in
And I wish mine wasn't so stressful
I wish things were easier and everyday
Could be just us
Together
I'm sorry I can't always help
But know I'm always here
Because I'll always be
My love is infinite
I'm not going anywhere.