Ignore the
Harsh words
And please
Lavish yourself
In the good ones
Never ignore
The words
"I love you "
Because I tell you
Every time I can
Don't listen
To my words
From the past
Because not all
Of them are sweet
Darling
Just know
No matter what I say
Or what I do
No matter what happens with you
Or me
My love for you
Will live on forever.

I love you
And it still seems
So fresh
So new
No matter how
Well it
Has aged
I will always
Have fears
Because with us
There will
Always
Be a first
Our first kiss
Hug
Our first time together
Our first misery apart
We've embarked upon so many
Adventures together
And sometimes
A new one comes along and scares me
But I know it's okay
Because no matter what
You'll be there
Right beside me
In whatever first may come.

I am a flawed woman
Head to toe
Inside and out
I am imperfect
So I do not believe
I get the perfect guy
I do not get my happy ending
Because I am flawed
Because a man has yet
To grab me by the wrists
Shaking them as he stares me in the eyes
And tell me all the reasons I am perfect
I have yet to be told
I love you with an open heart
With full commitment
I am imperfect
And I am a woman
I am a hopeless romantic
And I still dream of this man
I still wonder
Are you ever going to be him?

Scattered thoughts,
Incomplete sentences,
Partial ideas,
Broken words,
Unable to explain,
All that comes to mind clearly is frustration,
And I continue with it,
My mind is flustered,
So many thoughts,
So many wants,
Needs,
Desires,
So many impartial moments.

Go ahead
Call me or message me
Tell me how you hate me

And I'll remind you
I loved you when you were afraid to be with me
Because we were only eleven and our peers opinions mattered

I'll remind you that one year later
We had our very first kiss and it was perfect
Except for the part where you moved away
And didn't tell me

I'll remind you that when you called me
I had just suffered statutory **** for the first time
And you told me you loved me for the first time
We were only twelve

I'll remind you
You stopped calling

I'll remind you
You moved back
And dated my friend for a month
And I was so happy she ended up liking girls

I'll remind you I forgave you
I tried to be friends again
I told you about my other ****
We talked about our failed relationships
We were fifteen

I'll remind you it was your idea to meet up and kiss
And how we talked for an hour before I couldn't take any more
And I kissed you and we didn't stop
We never wanted to
But you caught your breath and asked me to be yours
And as scared as I was I said yes

I'll remind you we ditched school only a few weeks later
And you told me you loved me and I never believed you more
Then in that moment by the skating rink
And I almost cried saying it back

I'll remind you that we made love
We made love everywhere and all the time

I'll remind you that three months in
You proposed to me
We were fifteen
And I said yes

I'll remind you that we broke up
On and off for stupid reasons
And that you always ended it
And I always waited for you to change your mind
And you always did

I'll remind you that at sixteen my best friend and her boyfriend
***** me and you thought I cheated
And you hid your revenge for over a year

I'll remind you that we survived months
Of long distance
And with our libido it was hard

I'll remind you when you moved in at seventeen
You promised you would stop leaving me
You would stop breaking my heart

I'll remind you that we stayed up late in the living room
Watching movies until we fell asleep there together
Because at first it was the only way we could sleep together

I'll remind you that your family's opinion of me didn't stop me
From visiting them with you one Christmas

I'll remind you that no matter how many times the darkness
Emerged from you I accepted it

I'll remind you that when we slept together you made me
Spoon you and rub your back and I always would

I'll remind you that you stopped kissing me
Stopped making love and started to pity **** me as
Youtube videos played in the background
And I would cry and go unheld

I'll remind you that you talked to her
After promising not to
Because you broke a lot of promises

I'll remind you I still forgave you

I'll remind you that one morning
You held me
Which you hadn't done in so long
And we woke up just like that
And you told me you were leaving
I didn't cry at first
But I felt every part of me break
More than it ever had before

I'll remind you
You blamed my mom
But she loved you like a son
That's just how she treats her kids

I'll remind you
You asked me out again
Not long after we had make up *** a few times
And I cried because it all felt so different

I'll remind you that with a broken heart
I ended things for the first time from eleven to eighteen

I'll remind you that I wanted to stay friends
That I wanted you to prove you loved me
Because I always stayed when you ended things
And you disappeared like you always did

I'll remind you that our story is messed up
But that we loved each other somewhere in that mess

I'll remind you that you will always be first in my heart
And that nothing can change that

I'll remind you that I forgive you
Because I love you
Because no matter what happens
You're my best friend

You were the first person to show me
Just how happy I can be

You taught me so much
And my heart,
It'll always be yours
Even when I mess up too.

Please
Let me go
The chains
You've placed
Are heavy
And I'm tired

Please
Leave me be
No more
Please no more
I'll let the
Chains stay
If you just go
My past
My pain

Leave me alone
I don't need you
I don't want you
Please go
Your no longer safe
And all I'm searching for is safety

So leave me be
You aren't being fair to me.

Here's the simple truth,
No ones voice will ever
Sing to my soul the way
Yours does

Never will another chest
Be as comfortable and warm
To cuddle into as yours

I'll never kiss another set
Of lips and be satisfied
Because if they're not yours
Then those lips don't matter

You are the best advantage
Life has given me,
Even through all the
Mountains and rollercoaster rides
We came out okay,
We came out in love
And that means *everything.

You hold me close,
minute by minute,
I breathe in your scent,
You let go and wipe away my tears,
I tell you what's wrong,
And you tell me too,
But there is a secret I'm keeping from you,
Your perfect in my eyes,
But I tell you lies,
It's not them I desire,
Your the only one who lights my fire,
I burn for you,
But the truth is I'm trying not to,
Your unsure if your gay,
The hope that your bi can make my day,
I need you to see what everyone else sees,
Your made just right for me.

I miss your embrace and your glorious face I'm such a disgrace,A big waste of space this place is not for me.....My hearts racing it keeps pacing.... I can't forget our memories they were short but sweet.Memorable and forgettable but our memories will forever be a small part of me...

Forever will I love you.
Forever will I miss you.
Forever will your image be in my mind.
Forever will I think of you.
Forever will I love your kiss.
Forever will I miss your embrace.
Forever will I crave to hear your voice.
Forever will I desire your touch.
Forever will I need you.
Forever will you be my one true love.
Forever will chills run through me when you say those 3 little words "I love you"

My heart is confused it doesn't know who to choose it wants a little part of each of them but it simply must decide to whom it belongs but it wants a little part of each of them to hold onto forever and always but what it doesn't see is that one day they'll all give up on wanting it and one day my heart will be alone all over again just like it was before they came along.

He holds me
And he tells me I'm perfect
Just the way I am

He kisses me enough
To cover every cut I've ever made on
my body

Hugs me enough to comfort any painful words that have ever rung in my ears

He is the other half of myself in every way I didn't know possible.

Your the boy
Who stole my heart
Tore it apart
And left me here
With only fear
I'm broken
I'm not whole
I used to believe
You had a soul
Now here I am
Searching for another way
To rid these thoughts of you
For all the days
I don't want to hurt
But I do
Mainly because
My heart still loves you.

You and I
We'll never be
You were my dream
My creation
And yet
Even you
Cannot and
Do not love
Me
I had hope
For our future
For an eternal
Unity
But nothing
In life
Is forever
Not even
us.

I have this
Never ending feeling
Not even You
Want this
To Last.

I made mistakes
But you must've too
I know you love me
But my love is so much more
It's the truest of trues
We've made such a history
And we can't forget
We can't let it all go
This is our final try
And we're giving it our all
I want it all to be okay
I want you
For as long as you'll have me
Let's make new memories
And wash away every painful one
Let's be
Just You
And Just Me.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I love you

I'm sorry

Can you forgive me?

I remember when I asked God the questions of life
And I was praying every night for you
I remember how the thoughts never stopped
And how it ached to be away
Then I remember when it started to fade
Because my heart had been soothed
By your proximity
By the site of just you
And suddenly I fought my love
After waiting so long
Because my mind was free
The questions no longer flooded my mind
They only went on in the background like soft static
I remember meeting for a kiss
One I remembered being perfect
One I knew could never compare to another's
And I remember how one surprise kiss
Led to this
Led to us and here and now
Everything is perfect
There is no more static in my head
No questions about this mysterious life
And I know its because of you
Because we are soul mates
And together we're better
Than we ever could be apart.

He wants me to be his,
but he will not speak of his desire,
he has me in disbelief,
I cannot believe,
So now I must leave,
my heart will try to let go,
I must make it so,
my heart may not love you,
one day my heart won't be true,
But I'm A Liar,
My Hearts For Sale And I Need A Buyer.

I can't help
But think
If only
You had
Come back sooner
I would be innocent
I wouldn't have fallen again
I wouldn't be looking back
I wouldn't have cried
Or cut
I would still be obssesively in love
And maybe you and I
Wouldn't be here now
Together
So maybe all happened
For the best
Even if it hurt
It helped us grow
Stronger
Helped us see
How we're
Perfectly meant to be.

In the midst
Of my pain
I found
God
I found
A sense of
Myself
And
I smiled
And I'm smiling
Because
I feel peace
I feel happy
Even if I
Am missing
The most
Important human
To me
I feel
Relieved
To have found
God
And I have faith
One day
I will
Get back
All that I lost
And if not here
Than in heaven.

I tried
Tried so hard
To fight
To let you go
But my heart
It needed you
My dreams
Kept me hoping
They'd plague me
Each night
Reminding me
Of you
Of all you mean to me
And nothing could
Truly end
My desire
My love for you
Replacements were failures
Because there's only one you
Eventually
My dreams ended
But by the time they did
You returned to me
And my soul was once again free
I was no longer
Caged.

She got lost
She thought she was loved
But really he was her master
Well now
She can slide on a skirt
Put in her fake plugs
Smack on a temporary tattoo
And go out and buy another dream catcher
And guess what?
No one will tell her she looks
"Easy"
"Like a poser"
"Like a ******"
No one will tell her believing in dreams catchers
Are silly and evil
She will slide on that **** skirt and smile
Because she is free
She will go out
And she'll tell a better man
That she finally feels free
That she can finally be
Herself.

I'm cutting
The chains
And setting
Myself free
I'm sick
Of being
A caged
Beast.

I miss you

I whispered into
My empty room
Hoping it'd find you

My heart churned heavily
Imagining us together
Bathing in the glory
Of our indescribable love


Wishing you could
Just run
And find me
So we can be saved
Together
Drenched in blessed water

Oh how my mind dreams

We make a beautiful couple sweetie
And despite everything
We'd make a breathtaking child

Raised in His love
And ours

We are two souls
Tethered together

And we will *always
Find a way
To come back
To each other

I have faith
And so
I whisper
I love you future husband

Knowing your heart
Has gladly accepted the name.

Have you realized
That It was only
20 mere days ago
You proposed again
And that I didn't know
Because you asked in French
And did you know
When I realized
I cried and said yes
And missed you
And wanted your kiss
More than anything
Have you realized only last week
I was planning on being forever yours
And you forever mine

Even a friend
Can use you
Someone well known
Corrupted and destroyed
Coming for you
Even a friend can
Break promises
And have ill conceived
Points of reason
A friend
Can become a
Under cover enemy.

We need to talk

But I need answers

That I don't want to hear

I'm losing in this war
You see each day I realize
My best friend
Is becoming
My enemies
Best friend
And less mine
And each day
I realize
That the next day
I'll be sitting all alone.