In love the feeling I get in the depth of my heart when I see you,
Your smile send chills in every direction,
I can't seem to get you off my mind,
Your dimples make my heart swell with happiness.
I have a tendency now to bring you to Dreamland,
All I've been dreaming of is you and I,
Us with our fingers entwined and sweet and lushious kisses,
I scold myself for this feeling that's gorwing deep inside of me,
Could this be what I most fear?
Could love once again be growing in me?
I try to stop looking your way,
I try to stop smiling when I see you,
But it makes my heart ache and now I have to face the facts.


I'm crazy for you but I don't want to be because our feelings are not mutual,
I try to let go but my heart still holds on and when someone says your name my heart jumps a little,
I don't know what to do because no matter how hard I've tried your still stuck on my mind.

I feel like the rope
In a long game of tug 'o' war
I'm tearing apart
I'm not as strong as I was
In the beginning
Two sides are pulling me
Back
And
Forth
And Neither side
Seems to be winning
Yet I'm the only one losing
I'm breaking
The more they pull at me
The further I'll stretch
But soon I will break.

Take my heart
Veins cut
From unloyalty
Unfaithfulness
And injustice
Shattered by
This cruel world
But still beats
Your name
Hoping yours
Does the same
Wishing it could
Be yours
Forever.

Eternally grateful
Am I to God
For not only
Putting him
Into my life
But for keeping
Him here
Because when
Death comes
He swats him
Away for the reaper
Is weak for those
Who defy him.

Your sweet smile
Gentle laughter
The brink of flirtation
Those amazing moments
Where it was just you and me
Such warmth in your eyes
My heart that was slowly falling
Before you pulled on the reigns
And stopped me in my tracks
Our world
The one we gladly shared is now
Seperated
Your world and mine
Such hate in those eyes
A cool look of guilt
For your the one to turn me away
I cared so deeply
I'm sorry if you were afraid
But now everything
Has changed
And our flirtation
Is a hatred.

You hated me first.

Even the princesses got divorced,
They just never showed it.

You came out
Walked into my arms
And kissed me
The sun shining bright
Joy in my heart
Something unkown to me in yours
And laughter filling me
For this was completion
And the sweet taste of
Revenge filled me
As across the street
Stood someone
I had once cared for
And he looked
And looked
With hate in his heart
Or a confused sense of jealousy
For here I am
Happier than ever
In your arms.

When affection
Was bred from
Those innocent looks
The first thing
I could muster was
I'm with him
And that is not
Going to change
And I meant it.

In a life where we've been abandoned
In a world where less paternal instinct seems to exist
In a place where love is claimed by liars


We have experienced loneliness
A empty pain no other family member can replace
Liars have claimed to love us
Then betray us

Yet we remain
Always at the brink of suicide


We have found each other now
Promised to grow up to be parents who are there
Sworn to one another we love;always have and will

Here we are stronger than ever
No longer in pain
No longer alone
Or broken
Here we've claimed
Perseverance
We have shown what can happen
As long as
You NEVER give up.

Through the clouds
I see a ray of light
Our moments
Of sorrow and pain
Fades
And then you
Shine a light
And warm my heart.



You talk to me about
Wedding bands
And I once again
Take comfort
In the fact that you
Want me
Not just now
But
Forever

All my mind
Asks for is more
More commitment
More love
More attention
More sweetness
More passion
More action
More more more
The greed never ends
I hold down myself to refrain
From the inner neediness
Lock away my weakness
Knowing I'm only fooling myself
Because in the end
I still hear its pleas
But darling please know
I love you so much
And that is why I'm greedy
Because I fear your absence
I fear a life without you.

I was scared
We we're talking about
What-if's
And those
Can be pretty scary
My mind
It fluttered
And the image
Later emerged
The test came out positive
We were gonna be parents
But we're too young
My body aches
From the baby
And the fear
I can't tell
I cannot
Successfully
Finish school
Go to college
Raise this little baby
Cannot afford it neither
If you stay
You'll flunk
Find some ****** job
We'll be in a rough spot
And it won't change
The only
Good thing
Is we might be able
To marry sooner
But your mom will
Kick you out
My mom
Call me *****
But come to accept it
I know she'll cry herself
To sleep so many nights
So will I
But before I tell
I'd cut
My arms
So ruined
****** and scarred
My mom will bring me
Back to the hospital
And she'll ask
Why
Why did I do this
And I whisper
I'm pregnant
And I'll watch
As she realizes
How much
I just ****** up my life
Things get better
I guess
I'm behind in school
You got your GED
I come home each day
And watch our child
Knowing
I won't see you until
After work
We'll save up
And leave
Start our life
But it won't be easy
I don't know if we'll survive
But I know I need you
Who else would hold me
When I cry
Or when I break
Who else would stay up
To help with our kid
Our life was influenced
By passion
And I know
You'll tell me
It was Gods plan
His gift to us
But I'll just whisper
Haven't we had enough?
Haven't we endured enough hardships?
I already knew
We were meant to be
He didn't need to do this too
Nonetheless we go on
Lower class
But getting by
We're always in love
But sometimes I think
It's only because our child
We make it through
Because life
Knew
We were strong enough
For even this
No matter how scary it was.
What-ifs are scary
I just hope they
Don't come true.

I will not fumble
I will not fall
Holding in the tears
Won't bawl
Heart break is heart break
A pain no soul can take
Not so easy to shake
Show weakness with bloodshed
So many things left unsaid
The memories don't go away
They stay
Replaying in my mind
Hoping in them there is a strength I can find
But my heart is not whole
I'm slowly losing life and my impartial soul
I think a knife will make it better
So I write a good-bye letter.

Body near compulsion
I'm pulling and grasping
Trying to breathe while breathless
Our bodies merge
They try to understand
Smashing together with
No connection
It makes so little difference
Because I'm still pulling and pleading
Wanting and waiting
First timer my friend
Yet so well practiced
So knowledgeable of what's right
I wanted and received
I achieved my goal
your in my clutches
my body is yours just as your body
is mine
I'll show you the ropes
but babe it seems lke
you know the whole obstacle course.

I wanna wrap you in my arms
And tell you everything will be okay
But sometimes I realize
I can't always get what I want
And while your away
I think of why this happened
And I think its God asking us
To fight just a little more
To prove that even in distance
Our love can survive
I think He wants us to try
And never give up
I think He loves us
And that's why Hes doing this
To help us see that even apart
We're fighting to be together
He wants us to appreciate what we have now
So we'll appreciate all we'll achieve even more
I have faith things will work out
Because He gives me faith
Because you give me faith
Because no matter what
I love you
And this battle is just another step
To the wonderful life in store for us
He didn't bring us together to break us apart
But instead to make us stronger together
Don't give up yet baby
For all will be okay
Our love will fight on
So baby smile because what we have
Not for what we don't
Give thanks we have this instead of nothing
Smile with me knowing that
As long as we never give up
All our dreams are possible.

Go Ahead continue on your way,
Continue Breaking me,
Treating me like trash,
Making me feel miniscule,
Making me feel inhuman,
And unlovable,
But while you do all those things to hurt me,
I'll be there reminding you,
While you tear my world apart,
I'll be whispering sweet lullabies based solely on our story

I was only 7,
So was she,
Her illness came,
A tumor in her brain,
Killing her,
Making her slightly demented,
That explains why she beat me up,
She was my best friend,
And at 7 that meant everything to me,
The doctors,
They tried saving her,
But in reality it seemed like they were killing her,
At 7,
I watched her go through it all,
They shaved her hair,
I remember the stitches on her head,
Or maybe I'm making that up,
Her memories are buried,
But I remember how she gained weight,
The skinny little girl
Became an overweight,immobilized child,
Slowly my best friend couldn't walk,
Couldn't feed herself,
Couldn't bathe herself,
I watched as she died,
I went to her wake,
Her lifeless body,purple and cold,
I placed a note in her coffin,
To this day I'm unsure what I wrote in it,
I hope something comforting,
I went to her funeral,
And I didn't cry,
I remember feeling bad about it,
But I was just remembering the good times,
When we ran around the hospital getting candy in the store,
So unaware,
When we dressed up for Halloween,
And when we shared a bed,
We are still best friends,
Best friends even in the grave.

To be loved by you
I can't say I believe
Can't admit it could be true
Seems like your after only the physical
Even if I led the way
You seem to be after something
Someone you can't have
Could it be revenge
Or is your heart as warm as I've only wished
In your arms I feel so safe
So secure
Protected from the world
But I will not be hidden in the dark
I will not allow darkness to destroy you
You tease me without teasing me
For my mind is doing all the trickery
And while I need you around
I'm still so unsure
What it's like to be loved by you
I don't wanna let you go
But I thought I was not an option
Thought you didn't care
I was a scared girl
Who had been broken before
And ran away when she thought
Something she felt was real
I can't go back
But I can't move forward
I'm stuck in between
All I know is
If it's true
I'd like to be loved by you.

I can't give up
Because for too many years
I've held on
Because despite the differences
In your arms
I smile
My heart beats so hard
I laugh
And I'm nervous
With you I feel understood
Your love supplies this body of mine
I lied dead inside for so long
That this life inhabiting me is
Spectacular
And I don't want you to go
Because though you imagine
A future
I dream of it
Lucid never ending dreams
And I want desperately
For them to be our reality
The world can never understand us
But we understand each other
I love you
And that fact has remained
I never gave up
I just buried it all
But I already dug up the memories
Brought back joyful ones for us to share
I can't expect this to be forever
But I can dream.

I wished upon a star and I prayed to an illusive god.
I wanted you so bad but in the end I was left sad

I'm Always Surprised
When You Kiss Me
Because It Always Feels
**Amazing.

Your hands wrapped gently
Around my waist
The sweet kiss on my neck
The glorious whispers
Of a love shared
A love finally reunited
A future were reaching for
A beautiful picture
Made especially in our minds
Placed so high up on a pedestal
Only to be touched by us
Never to fall or break
Because we're determined
To make that image real
Because we've sworn our souls.

We promised the " I love yous"
And the " I love you too's "

I am a flawed woman
Head to toe
Inside and out
I am imperfect
So I do not believe
I get the perfect guy
I do not get my happy ending
Because I am flawed
Because a man has yet
To grab me by the wrists
Shaking them as he stares me in the eyes
And tell me all the reasons I am perfect
I have yet to be told
I love you with an open heart
With full commitment
I am imperfect
And I am a woman
I am a hopeless romantic
And I still dream of this man
I still wonder
Are you ever going to be him?

So I have trust issues
Blame the people who used me
So I cant get through a day without thinking about death
Blame the people who abandoned me
So I feel worthless
Blame the things that fade
So I'm not the strongest
Blame everyone who brought me down
So my heart isn't whole
Blame the ones who broke it
So I'm messed up
Blame the people who judged me when they never knew me
Or all I've been through.

Forever will I love you.
Forever will I miss you.
Forever will your image be in my mind.
Forever will I think of you.
Forever will I love your kiss.
Forever will I miss your embrace.
Forever will I crave to hear your voice.
Forever will I desire your touch.
Forever will I need you.
Forever will you be my one true love.
Forever will chills run through me when you say those 3 little words "I love you"

The worst part
Of knowing you
Is not knowing this you
But the old one
You used to be with me
Somehow
For some reason
That I cannot explain
You've morphed
And I wish so much
To go back
To the person
Who'd save me with his eyes
Rescue me from collapse with his smile
And Somehow always knew
When to look back my way
Things seem to change so fast
In a small matter of time
Someone you love
Can become someone you hate
And the person you thought you knew
A person soft and caring
Suddenly becomes this
Completely different person
Cold and too ******* anothers insecurities
Maybe one day you'll change back
And if you do
I'll be here.

My tears,
The bitter rain in which
I once loved,
They run down my face,
The face with the mask
Of joy and contentment
And yet beneath is
Utterly destroyed
By unsatisfaction
By loss in something
I believed was everlasting
By a love that was always
Incompleted because of reality

You and I
Wander off
Into adventure time
Roaming the streets
Pointing at things
We like
Our hands laced
Smiles spread
Across our face
Here we are
Somewhere
Yet nowhere
Feeling so
Free
Just you
Just me
Roaming
The world
For always
And
Eternity.

Pretend that when I cry in the middle of the night that I'll be alright.
Pretend I'll live on without him.
Pretend That I don't constantly dream of him.
Pretend that I don't reminisce of he and I kissing passionately in the rain.
Pretend I don't lie awake at night thinking of his face.
Pretend he didn't break my heart.
Pretend he never left.Maybe then I will Pretend.

What is this?
The smile that illuminates your face seems to illuminate mine,
Each moment we spend chatting of silly things this feeling grows,
Your dimples are so hypnotic,
I watch so carefully as you speak,
Paying special attention to the motion of those amazingly full lips,
But of course in those instances when you laugh I see those dimples and can't help but smile,
Your telling me we're flirting,
I was so unaware,
I wish you liked me,
Because I know since the moment I saw you I had a little crush,
And now each day it seems to grow just a little more,
And I can't seem to get you out of my mind,
But it's okay for now,
Because it's still making me smile...<3

Sometimes us writers
Feel more outcasted
Than the average outsider.


**Gosh we're so analytical

I love how your always warm
And how you love the winter
I love cuddling into your chest
And playing with the tiny hairs
I love stroking your beard
And running my hand through your hair
I love kiss your lips
And I love when you
Look me in the eyes
I love when you make funny faces
I love your eyes in the sun
Because they shimmer beautifully
And I love the way you hold my hand
I love the way you cover up with blankets
And cover me up too
I love how you let me poke your freckles
I love when you kiss my neck
And tell me you love me
I love it when you smile
And show your teeth
I love when your protective
And even when you get jealous for no reason
I love you
For everything that you are and aren't
And I will love you forever
You and I are soul-mates
And I will always be yours.

As sleep
Takes me
Into its depth
I'll dream of you
Hoping everything
Will be alright.

Finally
I suceeded
In achieving
Somethings new.

The day we met to kiss
You asked me
To take a chance on you
To be yours again
To put aside the past
And the pain
And simply be yours
And I took that chance
And I was happy
Everyday because
I finally made a good choice
But here I am now
Asking you to take a chance on me
To put aside your pain and your fear
Just like I did
And let me prove that even the deepest wounds
Can be healed with love
With time
And with a deep rooted affection
Give me the chance I gave you
And maybe just maybe
We dont have to give up
On our time together
Just fight for it together.

Being tickled
Laughter can be bright
And sweet to ones ears
But he's the one tickling
My secret spot
I laugh and laugh
Feeling so happy
So free
And as always
Trying to escape
But while I move away
I don't want him to stop
For each little finger movement
and I'm rolling on the
Floor
My neck is so sensitive
And with him near
I can expect nothing less
But as I laugh
My heart has and overwhelming
Comfort
For there is no one in the world
I'd rather have tickling me.
No one.

For years
I was the girl
Not a soul truly desired
But once I accept my fate
Accept my lonely future
I'm tackled by attention
****** desire
and possible relationships
Just as I give up on love
It finds its way to me
It always finds me
And always at the worst point in my life.

I'm sure you'll enjoy watching me fall to pieces ,
to see my tears, You'll gladly indulge in my pain,
you tore my apart my heart,
You left me a carcus with only emotions left in me,
only tears to be cried and blood to be shed,
Your so happy with yourself,
Your stupid smirk that grows on your face once you see me at my weakest,
your a heartless being and you destroyed me!