No one will ever
Love me

I do not say that
In a negative way
Just in the sense
That it is something
That I have come to accept

No one will love my words
My heart
My soul
My body
The way I smile
Or the way that I laugh
They will not love
The curls of my bedhead
Or the way I sing off note
Or my love of every little odd thing
No one will love my secrets
My baggage
My past
No one will accept me
As I am
They will not hold my hand
With pride
Or kiss me for the world to see
Because no one
No one
Will ever love me.

Oh baby don't tell me goodbye
Because I saw It in your eyes
I know you love me
and I know I love you
And if its by Gods will you will see the light You will see how meant to be we are
And He will protect us
When all seems to fall
And He will save us when
We have nothing left at all
And we will get through
Because our love is true
And baby you cant give up our fight
You gotta see the light
We will make it through I believe in us
The way I believe in you
Baby you have to see the light
You have to see how right we are together You have to see that when we're apart Nothing is okay and that together
We can be among Gods fleet
You have to see that there's strength in Numbers and our numbers two
Because there's me and then there's you
Oh baby I need you to see the light
I need you to see that with God by our side Everything's gonna be alright so just give me another shot and
I'll prove to you that I'm worth it
So just give me another chance and I'll never let you down
Baby this is all that I am and all that I'll be And baby I love you
And I know you love me
So let us join hands and let us be free
Lets worry not because He will save us Because we'll be alright as long as He's on our side so baby see the light
And take my hands and we'll be alright and I hope baby dear
I won't just have to wish
To see you in my dreams tonight.

I feel like venom
Like somehow
I poison every relationship

Either they were built
On my poison

Or I made it emerge

Either they use me
Or I leave them

Out of brokenness
Will come more brokenness.

I almost don't
Want the year
To end because
In the end
I got what I wanted
A new beginning
Might bring
A old ending.

I prayed
I wished
I dreamed
I hoped
That you'd
Come back

It didn't happen

I stopped
My praying
Wishing
Dreaming
And hoping

And there you we're


I prayed
Wished
Dreamed
Hoped
That you'd be mine again

And it seemed like you hated me

I stopped
Praying
Wishing
Dreaming
Hoping

And you became mine again.

Never doubt

Because my

Love

For you

Will always

Be true.

I don't
Miss
Those
People
Who'd
Put you
Or myself
Down
But
At least
Now
I can
Prove them
Wrong.

Everyday I can't remember because
That hurts way too much
So I'm trying to put myself out there
At least through technology
Because let's face facts
I am not an openly social person
But I'm swallowed by the lack of decency
I am not just body parts to be displayed
I am not going to give myself away
I am not just one part
I am not a pair of ****
And let me say since when did ****
Outrank a personality
I will not send pictures to appease their fetishes
Or to satisfy them
I will not settle for a hook up because that is not who I am
That is not what I deserve
I just had my heart thrown aside
I do not need ***
I need a conversation
A friendship
A polite interest
I do not need to be objectified day in and day out
My confidence levels are lingering on low
I don't need anymore problems
I need a solution.

We've imprinted on one another
Making it impossible to move further
The twisted regret seeps in my soul
Regret for who I am
The ache of my empty life
Of my unhappy and lonely soul
The truth that emerged from
The utter darkness
That soul mates
Do no exist
For what then is it
That chains us
Why can neither of us walk away
Why is this love so strong
As to survive the years
Why has this love been blind
And perfectly sighted
Please explain what you are to me
If not the soul mine aches for
Are you an imposter
Are you simply not the one
Or is the harsh reality
That they do not exist
Because if they don't
What was it i was searching for
All those years before you came along
My bloodied heart heals only by you
And yet little healing has come
And I await
Knowing that in the end
You were right
But so was i
Because despite
How you belittle my faith in soul mates
I believe
But i fear now for us
Because deep inside
You do not accept me
And you've hurt me
And i dont feel the warmth anymore
Its as though those words severed us
Cut the link i once felt that told me
Soul mates were real
So now I'm clueless whats real
And whats not
Im a lost girl
Begging for safety.

There are so many things
I'm scared to do again
Like fall in love
Like hold hands
Or kiss
To hug
To call them
Baby
To dream
To laugh
I'm scared
Of moving on
Making love
With anyone new
Doing anything
With someone new
I feel frozen
The pain reaching every
Inch of me
I can't actually move on
But maybe I can pretend to

I hate myself in this instant

For missing you

For crying for you

For wishing you stayed

For wishing you were holding me

I hate myself for always loving you.

There comes a point
When you have to pick up
Your heavy disheveled body
And say enough is enough

When you have to walk away
Because staying is too hard
Because breaking yourself
Is slightly easier than being broken

There comes a point
When hope stabs you
And when it fails you

When you realize this
Know that you are strong

Know that you'll be okay
Know that your body won't always be
So **** heavy.

With every
Step I take
With every
Four hour
Drive I
Feel a
Ache for
We're further
And further
Apart
My body
Begs me
To crawl
Back to
You
I feel
So far
From you
My love
I miss you
Our future
Is just
A dream
Please
Don't let
Go
Please let
Them come true
You were my first kiss
And I hope you'll be
My last.

Whenever I
Think about
You hard
Entering me
The most
Amazing sensation
Runs through
My body
I tremble
Moan and
I shake
And one
Day it
Won't be
Fantasy or
A dream
One day
It will
Be reality.

He goes missing
When I'm finally
Found.

She realized she anchored people
Made them feel like staying was a trap
So when they got away
She realized that she was her own anchor
Always trapping herself
Always saying nothing would work
Because lack of faith is what shatters
She realized being an anchor
Was too much weight even for her
So she cut the chains
And she threw herself overboard
So she would never hold herself back
Never again.

I will be cradled in the shadow
Of where your body once laid

Swallowed by the one excess pillow
Because I use the other three

Deafened because I won't turn the TV down
Without you there

I will be caught in the web of you and the lack of you

Your ghost will live everywhere

I sit here
And I cry
And I smile
And I frown
And I laugh
And that's
What I think love is
All those emotions
All of the emotions
Wrapped up
So that when you see
The one you love
You feel so many things
And the hard truth that
Anything less than love
Can't make you feel the same
So baby yes
You make me cry
And yes you make me laugh
But its all for loves sake.

I used to ask
God
For love
And when he
sent it
He sent it in the
Form of you
My angel.

Your negativity
Always triumphs
Over my barely
Surviving positivity
And yet never
Will it wash away
My never ending love
For hand in hand
We will either smile
Or cry in sadness together
If you go down
I go down too
And if you can smile
Then baby I'll float away
With utter laughter.

Oh my dear
You are infinitely better than me
That is why I cherish you

You're caring and sweet
And gentle

But of course you can be rough
When you want to be

You make bits of me melt that I did not know
Could even melt to begin with

You are sun
I am shadow

I am okay with this
I have been blessed to have you

To feel you
To know your touch

Your soul
Is infinitely more beautiful
Than any words can describe

My flaws
Led to such wonder.

Whether I admit it or not
My heart is still a bit broken
And somehow with those pieces
Of a first love long lost
I have adventured
And begun the new story
Of me and another
Who whether realizing it or not
Has started to piece me back together
I may not be quite whole
But I'm much less broken without you.

Your the only one
Who can make
My name
Feel like me
Your the only one
Who says my name
In a way where
I almost begin
To love it
Cherish it
And so long as
I have you
My name shall stay.

I spent my whole life
Being kicked by the people I love
So when looking for someone new
I always settle
Not because I want to
But because I don't deserve to be with someone perfect
Because they do not belong in my chaos
Because I need love there and then
Even if it is utterly flawed
I spent my whole life
Being deemed imperfect
From my family
My friends
Even my violators
I was never good enough
Do not love me
Do not caress me
Do not tell me I am perfect in spite of my flaws
Do not get that close
I will fall in love
I will be broken again
Girls like me
Don't get perfection
I get what I get
No complaints
Appreciate what I have
Because in a instant
I will have nothing and no one again.

A lot of stuff
Is going through
My head
And I wish
He was here
To make it better.

I watched
A short video
And it
Made me
Want to
Go to
Heaven
It made me
See that
You were
Right
In thowing me
In the ocean
So maybe now
I should
Just read
The Bible
And pray
Because
Even if you
Ignore me
God won't.