The storm
Raging
And brutal
Has finally
Ended
And now
All I have
To do
Is dry
Off
And hope
The sun
Shines
Through.

You will always be
The kisses in the rain
That will never leave me

You are the symphony of my soul
That never stopped playing
Only went off tune

You are the roots
I am the tree
Without you I wither

Without you
I do not feel the raindrops
Or the music inside me

Without you I die.

I'm not use to writing in rhyme
Not no more
I'm not use to poetry at this time
Been to long since I wrote
And well
It's been to long since I used a quote
And while this poem too
Isn't any good
It's what I gotta do
I lost my talent it seems
But I try
Because A girl got dreams
And while this ain't worth reading
It's better than bleeding
I hope my inspiration comes back
But I believe my inspiration
Is currently under attack.

I want you
I need you baby
I can't pretend
That I'm okay anymore
Please help me
I love you so much
Sweetie it hurts
Please come kiss it better
Sweetie I'm trying
But I can't see the darkness
So how will I know
How will I know baby
Please I need you here
Tell me what to do
And I'll listen
I just don't want to hurt

I can't help
But think
If only
You had
Come back sooner
I would be innocent
I wouldn't have fallen again
I wouldn't be looking back
I wouldn't have cried
Or cut
I would still be obssesively in love
And maybe you and I
Wouldn't be here now
Together
So maybe all happened
For the best
Even if it hurt
It helped us grow
Stronger
Helped us see
How we're
Perfectly meant to be.

I knocked at a door
Labeled "God"
And heard a simple response
"I'm not who your looking for"
I blinked and the door changed
It smelled of wonderful pine
And had your name carved in it
I knocked three times
And you told me to come in
And I knew,
I knew God wanted us together
I knew that he'd lead me to you
When I walked in
My life was complete,
My future laid before me,
My future with you.

Win that lottery
And take me away with you

Let's leave this life together

Just like you said we could

I hope you win

Not because I want you to have money

But because I want us to be free

Free to go anywhere together

And maybe just maybe

You would finally

Just let yourself love me.

We have been falling in and out of love
All to often my dear

The rollercoaster we're on
Has finally derailed
And it crashed
You jumped out
I stayed on

The ride is over
Oh how I would love to get back on.

I saw your face today
For the first time in
Far too long

And it was somehow
A breath of fresh air

My eyes widened and I smiled
But my heart gasped
Aching for you
Aching because of you

God I love that face

More than I ever planned to.

If a man whom I could love
Is to hug me
I hug him
Shaking with the fresh fear
Of everything that could be
Everything I know never will
And I grab his shirt in my hands
Holding oh so tight
I never want to let go
His shirt in my hand
His smell in my nose
And most of all his arms around me
Why on Earth would I ever want to leave that?

Your asking me
To change
My base
Your asking me
To believe in
Something I don't
And it breaks my
Scarred heart
To think this
Can destroy us.

For four years
I have loved you
Please
Don't
Doubt that.

The major problem with him

Is quite simple

**He's not you.

I miss you
Every day
And every night
I write your
Name on my hand
And hope somehow
You can be here
Holding me tight
Kissing my forehead
I love you now
And forever on baby.

All I know is that I'm a little lost right now
A lot like you are so often

All I know is this ring on my neck
Is a promise
That I would rather die than break

A promise that I'd one day
Be your wife
No matter what happens along the way

This is me
Telling you
That my heart has always been yours
And that I'm never letting go
The vows we'll one day take
Are already in affect for me

You see I vowed the day I fell in love
That no matter what I'd find a way
To make us work
To make sure
That in the end
You will be in my life.

I'm sorry we can't make love

I'm even more sorry

That I will

Make you need to.

Hey there,
I know we don't know each other very well, but I thought you ought to know how much I love you. I've waited my whole life for a man so wonderful, a man who maybe, just maybe, could love me in the same insane way I love him. I know my love of ice cream and the color green is a bit crazy and that I can be wild and weird but that's something I hope you'll learn to love. We can watch science fiction series together and have snacks, of which I got way too many. You'll kiss me all the time and it'll always make me smile. You won't look at me like I'm a total loon when I refer to you as the father of my cats, or at least I hope. You'll watch the same Friends reruns with me whenever they're on. You'll soothe me when my anxiety is bad. You will always be extra careful when we are making love because you understand what I've been through. Hopefully, you believe in aliens and bigfoot like me because that would be so cool. If I'm lucky enough to find you please know I'm not good at letting go and that I will love you so much, even if sometimes I try to act independent and self-sufficient. I hope you're real because I have so much love to give and it's hard when you have no one to love. It can get pretty confusing but I think once I meet you it'll all become clear.
                 Until we meet my love.

One step forward
Two steps back

That's how it is to try moving on

You can't forget first love

You can never truly stop loving them

So I wasn't your first

I couldn't be

Here I stand thinking about a life,
A life alone, a life without you,

And in those thoughts
All I want is your hug

You're like vines
Beautiful life
And yet they can trip you
They can hurt if used as a weapon

You were always the strongest weapon
It was so easy for you to break me.

Wiped clean the slate of mistakes

Starting anew

A wisp of wonderous change

Being yours

Is what I do best.

I had the choice
Between
The boy I thought
I would love forever
Or the boy
Who
Made my happy
I chose happiness
Because
If there is no
Joy
Then there is
No Real Love.

I need something
To grasp
So will you
Come
And tuck me into
My bed tonight?

Will you
Accept me
As I am
Or let
The future
We dream of
Fall apart.

I miss him
Almost as much
As I miss smiling

I miss him
I need his hug
His friendship

I miss him
Because honestly
No matter how bad he hurts me
I will always love him.