Fill me with your love stories
Help me imagine the love I cannot have

Fill me with your sorrow and heartbreak
So I feel less alone with mine

Fill me with comedy
So I may laugh for the first time in too long

Fill me every word you have
Teach me what it is to love and to care
Teach me what it is to forgive
Let your ink fill my veins
And let me live a better life.

Love has consumed me
Far too long
For me to ever stop
To ever lose faith
Because in my darkest days
All I had was hope
For a future with
The one I love
Who would love me
As wildly and crazily
From day one to the very last
With every bit of his heart.

I love you
I love everything about you

I love your scar
More than words can say

I love your lips
When they smile
When they laugh
And especially when their kissing mine

I love your hands
I love that their so warm in winter
I love that they're the same size as mine
And yet they look overpowering
I love how they move and touch

I love your neck
And I love that you let me bite it

I love your body
And waking up beside it
I love that it only took two minutes
For you to be deeply asleep

I love your heart
And how you care

I love your mind
Because I love knowing
Your thinking of our future too.

Well baby I think you know I just

Love you.

I am a lost puppy
Searching for a forever home
Only to find abusive owners

I am my own disease
It's always been that way
My happiness depends on others

To be loved
To love
Is the only way
I could ever really smile

I have this incessant need
To be someone's

To be held by a man
With a glimmer in his eyes

To feel beautiful

No matter how long I am alone
Whether a day or a year

The loneliness sinks in and eats at me

Without someone to be mine I sit and wallow
The racing thoughts increasing by day
The urge for a blade
The pain
The desire to give up
To give in

I lose hope when I am alone
Hope for a future

I don't know what to do anymore
I don't know how to fight this

I just wish I knew how to be happy
Without needing someone else

But that will never be me

Never.

Kiss me hard

Full of passion

And love

And lust

Kiss me

For the rest of my life.

You were like the ocean
And depending on the season

Your waves would be hot or cold

Did you love me today and crash into me with warmth

Or did you resent me today and crash cold insults into my soul

You were the ocean

And I was the sun

Bonded but never meant to be.

My poor head
With all it's endless
Pain and aching.

You are the breath I take in,
Once inhaled I can last a hour or two,
But in this moment I lack air,
Your out of my reach,
And my body is caving in,
I'm searching for any sign of you,
I need just one hit,
One moment to indulge in you,
To feel your warmth
Before the day you leave me,
And air will no longer fill me,
And again I will be empty,
With a missing piece,
With no you,
With just this horrible version of me,
Suffering,
Aching ,
Alone,
Without you or anyone to hold me,
To care for me,
I sure won't,
That kind of why I love you,
You Care

I caught myself
From saying your name
And the realization
That your name still lingers
On my lips
Only reminded me
Of the flame you
Use to leave upon them
With your amazing kiss
And how no other
Can ever compare to that.

It's as my fingers
Lose the ability
To bend and grasp
it's the moment
I'm shivering
Because the cold is
Spreading rapidly
That I realize
I truly love you
It's as I bare the cold
That I know
I want nothing
The way I want you
And all I can do
Is hope you'll stay
And wish on every star
That one day
I get to be your wife
And that maybe
We can give this world
Our child to pass us on.

It's the moment
You kiss my lips
And tell me you love me
That I believe
My hopes and my wishes
Will come true.

God gave you some beautiful lips


(That we're meant for mine)

You
Whether
You become
My husband
The father
Of my unborn
Child
Or Whether
We part
And our
Hearts become
Shattered
We will
Always be
Friends.

You were her emotional abuser
Stringing along her hopes and dreams
To shatter them every so often
You made her feel ugly
You made her feel unworthy
She was addicted to you
Addicted to the pain you fed her
Until one day
She woke up and you broke her again
And inside she snapped
She had enough
She couldn't let you go on
Telling her you were her king
When you treated her like a measly two
She let go
In one heartbreaking swoop
She tore every bit of herself apart
Just to stop loving you
Hoping
Maybe there is a man out there
Willing to treat her like the queen she is.

The worst
Part about
Fighting
With you
Is that
I have no one
To hug me
And tell me
It'll be okay
Because you're
The only one
Who can
Comfort me.

The love
Only grows
With each day
And I can
Only hope
It is Never
Severed.



*Not when
Summer comes
Not when it ends
Never
Never
Let it Sever.

The water swayed slowly
As I walked by
Each step I took
Another glorious flashback

You kissed me against that wall
When nobody was coming

Sat with me there and cheered me up

You and I celebrated there
And there too

You threw rocks
And I joined in

We sat on that bench
And watched the sun rise

You took my play doh hearts
And made me promise
To never leave them for
Strangers again
Because we were each others
And every bit of my heart
It was and still is yours

You gave me yours once
And I still hold it up to
That picture of us

We kissed beneath there
And wished we had our own room

We dreamed there of our future
Our future together

That place was ours

I remember the first time
You told me you loved me
Was on our way there
And it broke down
Every wall
I spent building
And I told you I loved you too
With fear and hope in my heart

I remember so many things about us

And I remember so many things we did
Or we said when we were there

It was our sanctuary
Together there
We were free

I love that place more than I ever did

Not because it's beauty
Or its energy

But because we created something there.

Have you realized
That It was only
20 mere days ago
You proposed again
And that I didn't know
Because you asked in French
And did you know
When I realized
I cried and said yes
And missed you
And wanted your kiss
More than anything
Have you realized only last week
I was planning on being forever yours
And you forever mine

Every time
I look back
Its hard
To believe
We made it here
We made it this far
And now were
Together
Now we know
Our love
Was always
Meant to be.

I wish I could hold you in my arms
All day long
And just call you baby
Call you amazing
Call you my life
I wish your home
Wasn't so hard to live in
And I wish mine wasn't so stressful
I wish things were easier and everyday
Could be just us
Together
I'm sorry I can't always help
But know I'm always here
Because I'll always be
My love is infinite
I'm not going anywhere.

I wonder
If anyone
Besides myself
Has ever
Thought about
How amazing
We are
When together
I'm curious
If they
Have noticed
How much
Happier I
Am with
You or
Whenever I
Get the
Chance to
Speak of
You that
My smile
Becomes so
Much brighter
I'm Interested
In knowing
If anyone
Sees that
Because of
You I
Am more
Alive and
Slightly more
Completed.

I know I hurt you
I know you want retribution
For all I've done over the years
And that no amount of apologies
Can make up for my wrongs
But I regret them all
I learned from them though
I learned that *** is wretched without love
And one day I suppose
In making it all fair
You'll see that
I learned that love
Is more valuable than pride
In our time together
I forgave you
Took you back
Buried the hatchet
Because my love outweighed
My pain
And I suppose
It truly was I that loved most
And yet I know
You'd still put up a fight saying differently
So in this time I realized that
This life without you in it to comfort me
Is unbearable and my heart
Aches with the sorrow
The past taught me
That I can't give up
Even when it seems like
Its my only option
The past showed me that
When your down
You have to fight harder
Because you can't let the current
Sweep you away
My past is a hideous thing
And besides the time with you
I'd like to erase every bit
But at least i learned
At least the lessons
Gave me faith and kept me faithful
At least even if you never forgive me
You know your loved
At least you know
You'll always have a bed to come to
Even if its broken.

I knew
The moment
Our eyes met
I'd fall
Madly in
Love with you
Oh how right
I was
To remember
My fear then
Is nothing
Compared to this
My terror to imagine
You leaving
My life
Again
My horror
At the thought
That you can
Break my heart
Again
And again
And I'd
Still
Want you.

The very thought
Shakes me to my core
I know I will always love him
I won't always be in love
But I care
Because each time
His piercing eyes
Look my way my heart
Trembles and breaks
I'll never forget him
How close our friendship was
His pure smile which caused me
From spewing tears
Even if hate is now
Our only purpose
I wish it'd change.

Nothing makes me happier
Than to lie there
Content and complete
In your arms
Tired and restless
Wanting to sleep
Or at the very least
Never let you go.

Punch**
My gut bellows

What a fool I am

To believe even for a moment
That I could look past first love

That I would stop needing him
That I would stop wanting him

First and foremost he was a friend

He didn't understand me
Not completely

Oh how he knows my soul
My truest desires

He's gone from my life
Wiped away like chalk

A faint impression left behind

How oh how could I ever tell myself

That I could find even a glimpse of happiness without him.