Take me
Hold me
Because
No one else will
I'm not loved
Not by you
Or myself
Save me
Don't leave
I'm unstable
Ready to fall
Ready to break
I have nothing left
Come closer
Whisper
A soothing tale
Of a princess
Who finally
Found her prince
Just as she wanted to quit
Tell me
They lived
Happily
And stayed together
Even when times
Weren't perfect
Tell me
They Will Be Us
Years From Now.

There used to be
A softness to your voice
A sweet smell to you
There was a feeling
Between love and desire
That once lived between
The space we occupied
Our stares began cute
Smiling without realizing
There used to be
A feeling you gave me
It made my heart jump
And leap
Twist and turn
With such passion
I never wanted to break
What was growing
But everything changed
And now
Your frustration is clear
Or is it a cold cut mocking
I put myself on the line
Admitted my desires
And you cowered away
Like the little boy you are
Your eyes connect with mine
And I feel the connection
Breaking
I feel the discomfort radiating
Off the both of us
And it collides
And it creates
What we have become
Are we enemies
Strangers
I'm unsure
I'll just be glad
When I get to say
All love has gone
And a aggrivation
Has grown in the place
I'm sorry it had to end this way
I'm sorry I have to let go
And forget all the good
Because you so obviously have
And you let the bad overcome it
Now this is done
And we
Have Gone Our Own Ways.

Tears swelled in my eyes
And pain mounted in my chest
As my lips begged for hope
And what I needed more than anything
Was a sweet and passionate kiss
And so I lean over to you
And kiss you
We get lost in it
You try to pull away
But I pull you closer
Never letting lips part
Because I cannot let you go
For I am healing
And suddenly we are submerged
In lashing tongues
And the sweet passion of young love
And there's no telling what
Wonderful place that can take us to.

Despite our past
And our good-bye
My mind needs you
A part of me misses you too
While the rest of me
Aches
And itches
To escape
The area
You posses
It fears you
Needs to forget
I'm stuck here
Between
A need
And a hate
An urge
And a pain
And I know
I'll Never Decide

Why Does Your Heart Break
Cause Me So Much Pain.

I want lips
Of a female
Because they too
Desire nothing more
They seem more innocent
Less fearsome and beastly
I want to feel the heat
That I know
Only a girl will
Be able to cause
I want her
I'm not sure
If this is everything
I want
But it's
What I need
A beast
A male
Is tempting
But they only
Leave me in darkness
And a girl
She brings
Light.

I went there everyday after you left
Hoping you'd be there

You never were

I ran my hands down the pipe
Every time it rained

It never did rain the same

I tried to sit the same way
That we did that day

It just never felt right

I tried to imagine you
Sitting there

But it's not the same talking to the air.

I wish
I could
Meet you
In a empty
Room
But not
For anything
Enjoyable,
But for
A little chat
Because I
Have a feeling
If the world
Left you and me
Alone
You'd
Talk to me
Not about me
And maybe
We can figure out
Your **** problem!

Marriage
Does not
Scare me
It's everything
Before it
The fact
That while
We wait
We can part
Is terrifying
For I want
To be married
And I want
To be married
To you
So please
Work with me
So we can be
Together always.

These words will not resonate within your soul
The way they have for me all these years,
When I was born, I knew little of love,
I was a baby, practically fatherless,
I struggled as a child, because something wasn't right,
I wasn't all right, you see somewhere deep down
That little girl that was me, she knew all along what she wanted,
It was a forever, as a child she believed she wanted a forever family,
As she grew up and learned what romance and love was,
She knew she was wrong before,
The cause of my great dissatisfaction in life, was simply,
I had not met the man I was suppose to be with,
This great discovery was at the age of 8,
When I knew only of puppy love,
I grew angry that life could have failed me,
Because I knew the feeling,
The constant tugging in my chest wouldn't stop,
So when I turned 11,
I believed I had found love,
And when I lost it only a year later,
My soul collapsed in on itself,
Not because I lost the person I loved,
But because I knew it would never be the same,
I knew, I had my one chance and lost it then,
When he later returned to my life,
The love boiled in my soul,
Comforting me,
Allowing me to enjoy life for small moments,
I had something real once upon a time,
He torched it all though,
Shattered my hopes at love,
Left me feeling so empty and so full all at once,
Love is my life,
It has always been,
I started looking for a partner at 3,
Here I am 15 years later,
Still looking, my journey never ending,
For no man has yet to hold me within their souls,
As I have placed others,
I cannot be loved,
And I wonder sometimes if God cursed me
Or if it was the devil,
How can a girl have such a large capacity to love,
And never be loved,
I have wondered all my life,
Why is it so easy to leave me,
To call me amazing or beautiful,
But to never love me,
To cheat my heart,
To break my soul,
Can't anyone see,
My life is nothing without someone to love,
I was born to love,
I was born out of lust and mistake,
But in the end, it created a big hearted woman,
Love has kept my skin from tearing open,
Without it, I am nothing,
My body does not deserve to live if my soul cannot be happy,
Will I ever find the one,
Most likely not,
But I will love all the wrong ones along the way.

I have lived without you
If living is what you'd call it
My anguish was found
In the endless nights
That I knew
I'd be waking up
With you not there
Tears stung
The cut burned
My addiction was
My sorrow,
My sorrow
A life without you
Forever would be
One huge misery
And now
With you
Don't expect me to go back
EVER
I cannot survive
For you see
I've learned
What happiness is
I've learned what it's like
To be loved
And I will fight all who
Dare try to take you away
Because you mean everything to me
And I will not dare return to darkness.

Bliss does not compare
Joy not strong enough
To express the feeling
That grows in me when
I find you
And have you
Wrap your cozy arms around me

A smile on my face can never be as wide
As the one I wear proudly on my heart

Your gentle kiss
The sweet words
An amazing symphony
Ringing in my ears
I play it over and over
Just to keep my happiness
Happy


In your arms
It seems
Everything is
Better
Everything with you
Is perfect.

Every time
It's like getting
To know
A part of my soul
Laying with him
Bare and more
Vulnerable
Than ever before
It's as though
I've finally
Found
My piece of heaven
And I find it
Each and every time
He does that with me.

I think of you each moment I breath, I think of you every time you leave,
I think of you when I cry, I think of you when I lie, I think of you
when I'm alone, I try to postpone the tears, Because I know it leads to
fears, I think of you each night, Despite the pain you ignite, I see you
in my dreams, It's you in which my heart screams for, Your someone I
can never ignore...Your all I live for...♥

For me
You represent
Every aspect of my life
The past
Where I was a different girl
Weak and obsessive
To afraid to let go
And was madly
In love with you
The present
Where I've grown
Stronger and wiser
The woman in me
Coming to life
Where I've lived through some ****
But still know
Your the one for me
The future
The one we planned
With our marriage
Our will be child
A life together
For the rest
Of our lives.

We met to kiss
And all we've done is talk
We're dancing around
The reason we're here
We're avoiding the
Awkwardness and
I don't quite know
What I love most
The anticipation
Of your wonderful kiss
Or the giddy thudding
In my chest that we're
*Talking.

I need you
I need your hug
To comfort me
To calm me
I'd love to be close to you
I'd love to cuddle and smile again
I miss you so much my dear
I miss your warmth
This distance leaves me aching
This distance is so hard
But in the end I love you
And in the end your worth it.

My insides are twisted
My heart says find a way
Figure it out and be his
And my mind goes
Tsk tsk tsk
Telling me to feel
Only anger and spite
Neither is the right option
So I'm at a standstill
I'm in love with a man
Who's still dicatated like a boy
I'm torn between fighting for
And just giving up on
I can't be the only one fighting
Not anymore
My aching heart cries out
And I silence it
With a stray hug
But no one can fix me

I wonder what others see when they look at you
Anytime my eyes meet yours
I feel the pitter patter of my heart
My lips burst into a smile
I can't stop it in time
You tell me to stop staring
But how can I stop staring at perfection
And I know no one is perfect
I know in the past you've hurt me
But when I look into those eyes
It all melts away
And my heart is home
I am home
You are perfect to me
Even though you're crazy
Even though you're complicated
Even if you are not mine
I can't stop staring
Because I can't accept how lucky
I got the day you walked into my life
I love you inside and out
Always and forever
Nothing and no one has been able to change it.

When our eyes meet
                                    My hate ignites deep inside
You still talk ****
                                     Like we just fought yesterday,not 5 months ago
But I don't see hate
                                       Not in those eyes
But it's there
                         I know it is
But why
                    Why do you still bother with your talk and your **** hate
Give up
                     You don't want me
I let it go
                   Our friendship truly died
Whatever
                          It's your loss
Just let me rest
                             Because I'm done with your
*********

I thought there was movement
That something was finally
Moving foward
But in the end i see
We remain in the same place
Our feet concrete
Immovable
But I'd do it all again
I'd pour my heart out again
Just for those three words.

Please don't bring it up
I don't like it when you do
I don't want you to like it
Or hate it
Or deal with it
Or stick up for it
Just shrug
The subject away
I hate it
When it comes up
Because no matter
What you say it stings.

You didn't understand
I loved you
Hell I still do
Not that I'd ever admit it
If I just pretend maybe It'll go away
But I feel it
Everytime you walk into a room
When ever our eyes accidently meet
And each time I hear your voice
I've said good-bye
And I've written it to
But My Heart Still Says Hello.

I feel so imperfect

Not because I don't
Like things about myself

But because I fear
You don't

To me you are more perfect
Than any words I could fathom

To me even things you call
Flaws
Are absolute perfection

So I'm scared

Because I know you don't
See me the same way

You see my flaws as flaws

And that makes me want to cry

It makes my heart clench

But then I remind myself

I still got to wake up in your bed
I still got to make love to you
I still got hugs and kisses
I still got you laying in my lap
I still have you in my life

And though your like for me
Greatly differs from my immense
And completely overwhelming love

Please know I appreciate every
Moment in your presence

But my mind
It's racing with fears

While my heart
It's ready to take a plunge
Take a chance
And just speak everything it feels.

Every time
I hear
Or see his last name
The one he decided on
I want for it to be mine
I'm afraid
I sound presumptuous
Or obsessively in love again
But It's not so
I have always just
Wanted to be his
To bare his child
To marry
This amazing
Man
Is all I've ever
Wanted out of life
If he'll have me
I'm here
Always.

We are in-fact
Meant to be
God has surely
Whispered that to me
But behind our
Ignorance and fear
I believe
He may be saying
It's not time yet.

I'm a gambler at heart

When i was little
I cared with great capacity
For my mother's spending
And cared too little about mine
I saved up and to get the snack
I was craving
And i spent fast
I grew up on all
Card games
Waging candy
And pennies
And nail polish colors
That i never wore
I like to put something important
On the line and be doubted
So that when i win
Im twice as victorious
I find i believe in myself more
Have more motivation
More faith in myself
So i like to play virtual poker
And play with friends
Whenever i can
But the real excitement comes
In the anticipation
Of it all
Im a gambler
Even though im too young
For the casino
And have never even seen one
And yes
I gamble in life too
But sometimes
You have to prove to yourself
How much your capable of
And how if you truly
Want something
All you have to do is try your hardest
And hope you come out okay
Even if your not always a winner.

I love you
And it still seems
So fresh
So new
No matter how
Well it
Has aged
I will always
Have fears
Because with us
There will
Always
Be a first
Our first kiss
Hug
Our first time together
Our first misery apart
We've embarked upon so many
Adventures together
And sometimes
A new one comes along and scares me
But I know it's okay
Because no matter what
You'll be there
Right beside me
In whatever first may come.

Even when
Things weren't
Easy between
You and me
I stayed
Because
You never
Give up
One someone
That you love.

No longer
Will the moon
Bare my name
Only Victory.

There he was
Awakening her soul
A soul that had taken
Hit after hit
That had been so damaged
She couldn't believe
The way it lurched forward for him
She touched her face
Just to make sure her smile was real
And to her surprise it was
Was he real
Oh his touch was
Where had this man been
All those lonely nights
Her dreams she figured
And somehow once again
She has found hope
Hope in a forever
Oh she feared he'd leave
Like everyone before him
But she needed those smiles
So she held on
And maybe
Just maybe
She's found her forever.

He wants me to be his,
but he will not speak of his desire,
he has me in disbelief,
I cannot believe,
So now I must leave,
my heart will try to let go,
I must make it so,
my heart may not love you,
one day my heart won't be true,
But I'm A Liar,
My Hearts For Sale And I Need A Buyer.

You put up your battle shield
Pretended nothing hurt
But I could see the pain in your eyes
Why'd you bother getting high for me?
Did I sever something I thought did not exist?
Our war is a unsettled love
And even when we keep apart
They see
Some pair us
Because they see
The way I look at you
And the way you look at me
A deep pain we avoid
We could have been something
Should have been everything
Would have been perfect
But you were silent of your hearts yearning
And I was too afraid
And I ran
Now all we seem to be are strangers
But we know
The world knows
Even the imbeciles of this Earth can see it
Our eyes scream love and heart break
Even if we speak of hate and ignorance.

Your everywhere I look,
The essence you give off it's been with me since the day you left,
And now It's like your the invisible man,
I hear you calling my name,
But I turn to look and your nowhere in site,
I think my heart is making me go insane,
Life without you how can it be real,
How have I possibly survived this cruel world without you,
I need you,
Need you in my life,
So my sanity may return,
So I can feel whole again.

They say love can be poison,
I'd die for it.