Rejoice

In the sweet

Reunion,

Oh how

I missed you.

You tell me you love me what lies such deceit in your eyes all of your sweet lies will end in a heart breaking good-bye...

I don't want
This
To be
Temporary.

There used to be
A softness to your voice
A sweet smell to you
There was a feeling
Between love and desire
That once lived between
The space we occupied
Our stares began cute
Smiling without realizing
There used to be
A feeling you gave me
It made my heart jump
And leap
Twist and turn
With such passion
I never wanted to break
What was growing
But everything changed
And now
Your frustration is clear
Or is it a cold cut mocking
I put myself on the line
Admitted my desires
And you cowered away
Like the little boy you are
Your eyes connect with mine
And I feel the connection
Breaking
I feel the discomfort radiating
Off the both of us
And it collides
And it creates
What we have become
Are we enemies
Strangers
I'm unsure
I'll just be glad
When I get to say
All love has gone
And a aggrivation
Has grown in the place
I'm sorry it had to end this way
I'm sorry I have to let go
And forget all the good
Because you so obviously have
And you let the bad overcome it
Now this is done
And we
Have Gone Our Own Ways.

I was okay
when you left
But when I
Discovered you
never did
my heart
Rapidly dug up
All the old
feelings and
Memories
And I was
reminded
That you
Stole my heart
I love you
You rejection
Was never yours
Yet we'll never
be
we were the
Right souls
colliding
At the
wrong time.

When his
Sweet words
Are known
My heart
Aches
Not because
A pain is
Ignited
But simply
Due to
My heart swelling
From utter joy.

I wish the lies would die,the truth could be revealed,Joy came with love,I wish dreams came true and most of all I wish forever to be with you.

I wish this made sense
Wish everything
Would stop feeling
So incomplete
So empty
Because for once
In my life
I want to smile
I want to laugh
I want to feel joy
And know
It's because life is okay
I desire the sun to sooth me
Like the cloudy days do now
I live in and out
Of the darkness
But now
All I wish
Is to pretend
Like the darkness doesn't exist
And Just Feel
Just Be Happy.

Take me
Hold me
Because
No one else will
I'm not loved
Not by you
Or myself
Save me
Don't leave
I'm unstable
Ready to fall
Ready to break
I have nothing left
Come closer
Whisper
A soothing tale
Of a princess
Who finally
Found her prince
Just as she wanted to quit
Tell me
They lived
Happily
And stayed together
Even when times
Weren't perfect
Tell me
They Will Be Us
Years From Now.

Why Does Your Heart Break
Cause Me So Much Pain.

Sometimes
I lie in bed
And imagine
That your
Lying beside me
And I seem
To drift off into
Blissful sleep.

I blocked myself
From viewing your face
Because I knew
The heartache of
Looking into eyes
That no longer cared
No longer mattered
I already knew
What it was like
To look into the past.

I don't like being less
I don't like being so near edge
Because that's what I've been my whole life
And when I finally accomplished
One of my dreams
When I had it all
My past invaded and broke it
So I remain less
Until I have once again
Earned my place.

Same height
Ring size
Hand size
Lips that entwine
So perfectly
We have
So many emotions
And can be stubborn
But when we love
We love with
All that we are
We're stronger than we think
Because we're fighting
Even when we're in tears
And at the end of the day
There's nothing better
Than being in each others arms
So yes I believe
That we're meant to be
But even more
I believe God made us
Meant for each other.

Put on a smile and pretend that it's all okay.

Tears swelled in my eyes
And pain mounted in my chest
As my lips begged for hope
And what I needed more than anything
Was a sweet and passionate kiss
And so I lean over to you
And kiss you
We get lost in it
You try to pull away
But I pull you closer
Never letting lips part
Because I cannot let you go
For I am healing
And suddenly we are submerged
In lashing tongues
And the sweet passion of young love
And there's no telling what
Wonderful place that can take us to.

It truly was
One of the
Most amazing
Sensations
I could ever
Feel in my life.

I want lips
Of a female
Because they too
Desire nothing more
They seem more innocent
Less fearsome and beastly
I want to feel the heat
That I know
Only a girl will
Be able to cause
I want her
I'm not sure
If this is everything
I want
But it's
What I need
A beast
A male
Is tempting
But they only
Leave me in darkness
And a girl
She brings
Light.

Marriage
Does not
Scare me
It's everything
Before it
The fact
That while
We wait
We can part
Is terrifying
For I want
To be married
And I want
To be married
To you
So please
Work with me
So we can be
Together always.

I have lived without you
If living is what you'd call it
My anguish was found
In the endless nights
That I knew
I'd be waking up
With you not there
Tears stung
The cut burned
My addiction was
My sorrow,
My sorrow
A life without you
Forever would be
One huge misery
And now
With you
Don't expect me to go back
EVER
I cannot survive
For you see
I've learned
What happiness is
I've learned what it's like
To be loved
And I will fight all who
Dare try to take you away
Because you mean everything to me
And I will not dare return to darkness.

And I miss you
Like its been months
Instead of a week.

I miss waking up to
And I miss waking you up

I miss your scar
And the way you kiss my freckle
And the way you kiss me

I miss your hugs
And I miss holding your hand

I miss being stronger because your near

I miss you
My heart misses you.

I wonder
If they'll
Scar
I almost
Want them
To.

When our eyes meet
                                    My hate ignites deep inside
You still talk ****
                                     Like we just fought yesterday,not 5 months ago
But I don't see hate
                                       Not in those eyes
But it's there
                         I know it is
But why
                    Why do you still bother with your talk and your **** hate
Give up
                     You don't want me
I let it go
                   Our friendship truly died
Whatever
                          It's your loss
Just let me rest
                             Because I'm done with your
*********

Every time
It's like getting
To know
A part of my soul
Laying with him
Bare and more
Vulnerable
Than ever before
It's as though
I've finally
Found
My piece of heaven
And I find it
Each and every time
He does that with me.

Bliss does not compare
Joy not strong enough
To express the feeling
That grows in me when
I find you
And have you
Wrap your cozy arms around me

A smile on my face can never be as wide
As the one I wear proudly on my heart

Your gentle kiss
The sweet words
An amazing symphony
Ringing in my ears
I play it over and over
Just to keep my happiness
Happy


In your arms
It seems
Everything is
Better
Everything with you
Is perfect.

I went there everyday after you left
Hoping you'd be there

You never were

I ran my hands down the pipe
Every time it rained

It never did rain the same

I tried to sit the same way
That we did that day

It just never felt right

I tried to imagine you
Sitting there

But it's not the same talking to the air.

For me
You represent
Every aspect of my life
The past
Where I was a different girl
Weak and obsessive
To afraid to let go
And was madly
In love with you
The present
Where I've grown
Stronger and wiser
The woman in me
Coming to life
Where I've lived through some ****
But still know
Your the one for me
The future
The one we planned
With our marriage
Our will be child
A life together
For the rest
Of our lives.

Every time
I hear
Or see his last name
The one he decided on
I want for it to be mine
I'm afraid
I sound presumptuous
Or obsessively in love again
But It's not so
I have always just
Wanted to be his
To bare his child
To marry
This amazing
Man
Is all I've ever
Wanted out of life
If he'll have me
I'm here
Always.

I wish
I could
Meet you
In a empty
Room
But not
For anything
Enjoyable,
But for
A little chat
Because I
Have a feeling
If the world
Left you and me
Alone
You'd
Talk to me
Not about me
And maybe
We can figure out
Your **** problem!

Despite our past
And our good-bye
My mind needs you
A part of me misses you too
While the rest of me
Aches
And itches
To escape
The area
You posses
It fears you
Needs to forget
I'm stuck here
Between
A need
And a hate
An urge
And a pain
And I know
I'll Never Decide

When she drives by old places the two of you use to visit
She slows down just to stare a little longer,
Ignoring all other vehicles
Because you are more important
Because you always were
She put you first so many times
You put her second and third and
Sometimes she wondered if she mattered at all
So sometimes she cries herself to sleep
Not out of anger or frustration or even loneliness
But because of how long it has been since she has been held
Because it has been so **** long
Since a kiss has made her feel her heart in her toes
Sometimes she misses you
Not because she has no one else
But because she knows there will never be anyone else
You were her every wish and prayer come true
As selfish and terrible as it may seem
She wanted you
Just you, in any way you would take her
You were her entire world and the worst part
Is that you still show up in her dreams.

I want you
In bed
With me
Right ******* now!!

Please don't bring it up
I don't like it when you do
I don't want you to like it
Or hate it
Or deal with it
Or stick up for it
Just shrug
The subject away
I hate it
When it comes up
Because no matter
What you say it stings.

He wants me to be his,
but he will not speak of his desire,
he has me in disbelief,
I cannot believe,
So now I must leave,
my heart will try to let go,
I must make it so,
my heart may not love you,
one day my heart won't be true,
But I'm A Liar,
My Hearts For Sale And I Need A Buyer.