The tossing and turning
The fact that my body
Feels like it's burning
The lucid dreams
The tears and broken feelings
Am I A Monster
Or is one living in me
I've locked away the key
Years ago trapped the monster in me
Tried to hide it
For fear it'd control me
But as it emerges once again
All I can do
Is fight it off
With my weapon in hand
And Courage In My Heart.

Don't
Don't tell me
I'm stealing
Your heart
When years
Ago you
Stole mine
How am
I suppose
To decide
How am
I suppose
To feel
I promised
You'd always
Have a
Place in
My heart
Always have
A chance
With me
But now
I'm So Confused.

I'm falling apart
Your halfway across town
And I'm breaking
Something feels off
And I feel weak
I miss you
And it's worse
Than it has been before
I don't know what I'm doing anymore
But I know I need you
To make me smile
Laugh
Hold me
So I can feel loved
I wish you were here
To kiss me
Tell me you love me
I miss you
And I'm a mess
Will you come
And hold me
If only in my dreams
If only for a moment
It's all I need.

That thought wounded me,
the thought like pounced on me as though it was a predator,
a predator to my heart.

Same height
Ring size
Hand size
Lips that entwine
So perfectly
We have
So many emotions
And can be stubborn
But when we love
We love with
All that we are
We're stronger than we think
Because we're fighting
Even when we're in tears
And at the end of the day
There's nothing better
Than being in each others arms
So yes I believe
That we're meant to be
But even more
I believe God made us
Meant for each other.

I cried
Because I missed you
I cried because
My heart knew
Without even thinking
I cried because
Once analyzed
I remembered
Every part of you
That I've seen
And inspected
That I touched
I remembered
You and me
I remembered
Being in those arms
And I remembered
That this love
Will never fade
Because you will always
Set fireworks off inside of me.

Am I beautiful?

There's so must controversy

I say no

My lover says *Yes

My childhood tormentors say NEVER

My admirer says Of course

The question continues to go unanswered

But who could ever see

Beauty in such a girl

With such a past

Could I have finally

Amended or Atoned for my sin

Have I become beautiful

Or are my hopes

Just to high.

Kiss away the scars
Hug away the tears
And just be mine
Don't go
Come close
Tell me
You love me
You can't go
Stay near
You warm everything
I was a cold heart
And with you
I can feel
I'm me
I can smile
And laugh
I feel complete
In your presence
So please
Don't Go.

Whisper a sweet symphony of secrets,
I will capture the words and keep them close,
Your caressing words will get me through the night,
My dearest of loves tell me ,
Tell me of our future,
Give me hope of all we can be,
I will not give you up for all the money in the world,
My love is not a childish feeling,
This is real and my heart erupts at the sight of you,
I desire your touch and warmth,
Tell me you'll stay,
My love of all loves I promise to keep the sorrow away.

I'll tell you the truth
Love hasn't played
A part in my life
Because honestly
It's always been
My life
I've always searched
Always wanted it
My childhood
Filled with false ideals
Of whom I love
And when I gave up
It found me
In the form
Of him
And I'll admit
The beginning of
Those first four years
That I knew
This magical person
Who had first stolen my heart
Was NOT
Easy
But here I am 5 years later
And hoping
That I spend my life with him
Not many believe in
Love at first sight
Teenage love lasting
Or even the IDEA of soul-mates
But in my heart
I know their real
They exist
They Last
Okay
I might seem insane
In saying love
Has controlled my life for
Years and years
But it's true
Because it's all I've wanted
Haven't you ever seen a romance movie
And just though
"AW I want that too"
I have
I've wanted love since the
Very first day I can remember
And It came to me
In the form of him.

She ***** up
As tight as she can
And she cries
And her soul aches
And she misses him
For the billionth time in her life
And it's all so pointless
And all she wants is a knife
And all she does is cry
Everything is falling apart
And she has nothing
No happiness
She misses love
Misses hugs and kisses
And comfort
She misses so much
She's broken
And she can no longer fix herself
No longer pretend it'll be okay.

Love has been cruel,
My heart is its companion,
Just as relentless,
They are partners in my demise,
My heart is caught in loves way,
To love another,
And have love go unreturned,
It left me and my heart with nothing,
Only a aching that wouldn't end,
I feel each moment of pain,
Each second of agony,
Love and my heart together,
Causing mass destruction,
Leaving me in a dark abyss,
For I am the one to suffer,
While they go off and just love one another.

I can hear your heart
As we lie in bed together
I'm shocked at the beating
The vibrations so soothing
But a monster is the owner
He's a user
A heart breaker
and the biggest liar I've ever met
But when I lie with him
And I feel his heart
I think for just a moment
Maybe he's human
Maybe his heart is his
And perhaps I have a chance to steal it.

I used to be *****
Life use to be so empty and hopeless
I fought a battle with myself each day
I wanted the blade and at times
I would give in
And let another one
Pierce my skin
I was so numb
Darkness surrounded me
I fought my demons
For they followed my every footstep
I wondered if light
If happiness or love would ever enter my life again
And when I had given up hope
Given up on anything good coming into my life
I let you back in
And suddenly
My whole wide world lit up
And my angel
My love
My rescuer had found me again
And I felt complete with him by my side.

The aching
use to feel
like a million
knives in my chest
It left me in such
Agony and pain
My eyes the color of blood
Because the tears never stopped
My scars that became
Fresh wounds
I was filled
With such emptiness
So much worthlessness
It seemed I'd never
Stop this feeling
Even when
I thought it faded
It grew back
And it hurt much
**Worse

It's cold here

I'm cold here

Where are you

My King

I need you

Your warmth is

Unbeatable.

Instead of tears
I'll cry a river of blood
Throw in the story of me
The heart ache
confusion
stress
innocence robbed
the abandonment
the lack of love recieved
and my every moment of pain
and then my river
It will cover the world.

Let me admit
I felt
Awkward
And twisted
It'd been a year
Even longer actually
And yet I did it
At your request
I did
And again
A thousand times more
Only for you.

That **** razor
Which I adored has
******* me over.

Rejoice

In the sweet

Reunion,

Oh how

I missed you.

I was okay
when you left
But when I
Discovered you
never did
my heart
Rapidly dug up
All the old
feelings and
Memories
And I was
reminded
That you
Stole my heart
I love you
You rejection
Was never yours
Yet we'll never
be
we were the
Right souls
colliding
At the
wrong time.

I know
Your hurting
And your all messed up
Your thoughts scattered
Only knowing
The kind of person
You want me to be
Avoiding who I am
Not seeing
How clearly your hurting me
And blinded
To how hard I'm fighting
To stay
Because my heart begs
Pleading that I've fought to hard
And far too long to quit now
But I know this will become
Our undoing
For you
Despite what you say
Only accept me
But if you really loved me
You'd accept who I'm not.

I wish the lies would die,the truth could be revealed,Joy came with love,I wish dreams came true and most of all I wish forever to be with you.

I don't like being less
I don't like being so near edge
Because that's what I've been my whole life
And when I finally accomplished
One of my dreams
When I had it all
My past invaded and broke it
So I remain less
Until I have once again
Earned my place.

You tell me you love me what lies such deceit in your eyes all of your sweet lies will end in a heart breaking good-bye...

I blocked myself
From viewing your face
Because I knew
The heartache of
Looking into eyes
That no longer cared
No longer mattered
I already knew
What it was like
To look into the past.

When his
Sweet words
Are known
My heart
Aches
Not because
A pain is
Ignited
But simply
Due to
My heart swelling
From utter joy.

And I miss you
Like its been months
Instead of a week.

I miss waking up to
And I miss waking you up

I miss your scar
And the way you kiss my freckle
And the way you kiss me

I miss your hugs
And I miss holding your hand

I miss being stronger because your near

I miss you
My heart misses you.

I don't want
This
To be
Temporary.

I want you
In bed
With me
Right ******* now!!

I wish this made sense
Wish everything
Would stop feeling
So incomplete
So empty
Because for once
In my life
I want to smile
I want to laugh
I want to feel joy
And know
It's because life is okay
I desire the sun to sooth me
Like the cloudy days do now
I live in and out
Of the darkness
But now
All I wish
Is to pretend
Like the darkness doesn't exist
And Just Feel
Just Be Happy.

Put on a smile and pretend that it's all okay.

Take me
Hold me
Because
No one else will
I'm not loved
Not by you
Or myself
Save me
Don't leave
I'm unstable
Ready to fall
Ready to break
I have nothing left
Come closer
Whisper
A soothing tale
Of a princess
Who finally
Found her prince
Just as she wanted to quit
Tell me
They lived
Happily
And stayed together
Even when times
Weren't perfect
Tell me
They Will Be Us
Years From Now.