My heart
Was always on my sleeve
You grabbed my hand
Brushed past my heart
And let it smash
You broke me
With your touch good-bye
You let me fall to pieces
I was your puppet
You pulled my strings
Made me fall in love
Made me smile when I cried
Made me happier than I thought I could be
And then again
You left me here
Without a word
Of sorrow or apologies
You just let my love hang there
Let my heart fall
And all I felt was it break
As all the good memories
Collided with the bad ones across the floor.

No, I don't always love myself,
No, I won't always,
Because I make mistakes
And I'm allowed to hate myself for them,
I'm allowed to forgive myself too,
I'm allowed to mourn for myself,
So no, I don't wake up everyday loving me,
I work really hard at it,
I tell myself to smile more days than not,
Because truth is, smiling is hard,
I may not always love myself,
But I still have the capacity to love,
To love with all of me,
Just because I struggle,
Does not mean I do not deserve happiness,
In fact I deserve it more because I struggle,
Maybe I'm not perfect,
Maybe I'm far from it,
But I have to remember,
Even if I don't feel beautiful,
Someone else out there
Might just think I am,
Someone out there might just think,
I am perfect.

Waking up and instantly you enter my thoughts,
I can't even think about the day ahead,
Your image flutters by,
Your stuck on my mind,
Waking up filled with memories,
Memories of the dreams I previously dreamed of,
You were there too,
God your everywhere,
They say this is love,
When you can't get someone outta your head
But what if the one you love said everything you ever shared was just pretend?

Just when I feel
Okay
I ***** up
Don't even
Realize my massive mistake
And only when
I'm on my knees
Crying for forgiveness
And understanding
Do I see my fault
Yet
It's the cycle of me
Because I don't allow
Myself joy
I allow only
Agony and misery
Confusion and
Terrible behavior tendencies
Due to my ways
I'll never
Smile
And know
That I'll
Always feel that happiness
Because it gets taken away
By
Myself.

The knowledge of your completion
Completed me.

Comfort

Your arms

Sweet bliss

Your kiss

Speechless

Our bodies collding

Eternal*

The love that binds us

So wont you come back
Wont you be mine
Where have you been
Your eyes are dazed
And you seem miles away
You gave me a sad look
As though you didn't want to
But I need you
I miss you
My heart must heal
And together we must
Accomplish this obstacle
And get our happy ending
Wont you have faith
And keep holding on like I do
Please darling come back to me
You've stayed but you seem so distant
I need you
For my heart
Will forever be yours.

**** it hushboy
Your eyes that sting
Like venom
**** your dimples
Because they're
So apparent from afar
**** you and
You devilish hate
In a past life it would've
Worked out
But in this world
You and I are enemies
With history
Where I used to care
And you
Who the hell knows
But all is over
And now all I receive
Is your
Venomous stare.

I hope that
If you look me in the eyes
You might see my love
Faithful and undying
Incapable of withering
Only hurting
And as unbearable
As the pain may be
You may look into my eyes
And still see an unfaltering love
My love deeper than the depth of the seas
Stacked upon on one another
My love so grand and endless
Will you cherish it
Look me in the eyes
See it
See how I feel
And wrap me in your arms
Make the pain dissipate
With those three blissful words
Make it clear that I am yours
And you are mine
And that we are only each others
For now and always.

"Your eyes are glowing"

I know
And yours as well
As you admire me
I love it
Love the very idea
Of this little town
Something draws me in
The pure beauty
The little shops
The sea just moments away
Oh how I love the sea
My eyes fixate on its movement
I love it here
With you
In this place
That feels
Magical.

My kitty
Is here for me
If no one else will be
She'll share this bed with me.

My favorite place is on that street,right above the Highway,
Where the cars pass,
I might have no clue where they are going,
But in that instance As I watch those cars racing by,
I smile and let out a silent chuckle,
My mind is at peace,
Maybe it's the wind blowing in my face,
But I think it's the uncertainty of where life will take me,
I think it is the uncertainty that makes me so happy,
Because in that instance,
the bad is gone and all I think of,
Are The Possibilities,
The moments in the future that I hope leads me to happiness,
Those cars hold people,
I have no Idea where they are going,
In life or in that car,
And I guarantee they have their own little adventure to embark on,
As Do I,
And There On That Street Above The Highway There Are So Many Possibilities,
Just Waiting for me or anybody to just take action

I fell for you
So weak to my knees
Butterflies
And the shakes
You left me breathless
Brought me joy
And made everything better
I love you
And you love me
But it never ends the fear
It never puts away my doubt
It doesn't **** my fear
That one day you'll leave me
That one day you'll break my heart.

I loved once upon a time
but he wore a crafty mask
made up of smiles
laughter
a defiant gaze
his brown eyes would shine
such hope was found there
his poor mask
worn by a cruel master
who turned out to be
only a fool
in the process of breaking my heart
I got to break part of his
and while I may never completely recover
I hope he doesn't either
because he doesn't deserve to be whole.

I miss your embrace and your glorious face I'm such a disgrace,A big waste of space this place is not for me.....My hearts racing it keeps pacing.... I can't forget our memories they were short but sweet.Memorable and forgettable but our memories will forever be a small part of me...

I always wish
That I knew
That the last day
Was the last day.

So I could've hugged you
Just a little tighter

Kissed you a little harder

Said I loved you a little more

And held on just a little longer.

That scar
That sits somewhere
Near your eyebrow,
Yes that one,
The one I ran my fingers over
A million times
Until you finally learned
That you don't need to flinch
No one will ever love that scar
Like I did
Maybe it was my way
Of cherishing
Even the imperfections
That erupted every so often
Maybe it's because if all images
Have mentally faded
That scar remained
Maybe its because I just liked
To touch you
And seeing your reaction,
Like when I'd play with your hair
And you told me it calmed you
And I smiled and continued
Maybe its as simple as
I like the feeling
When were close.

Never let me go
For I'll
Hold onto
You forever.

I miss laughing with you,
I miss talking to you,
I miss staring at you,
I miss your voice,
I miss your eyes,
I miss your hug,
I miss your kiss,
I miss your touch,
I miss,being loved by you...

To much time has past,
I know if we start it could never last,
You wouldn't let it,
You simply can't commit,
I've loved you to long,
But now I sense somethings wrong,
Your heart went cold,
Just as I was told,
I warned you
My love would always be true,
I tried to stop,
And all my heart did was drop,
You've left my heart slain,
You just called it to plain,
So now I'm filled with pain,
My heart has mixed feelings of disdain,
But this heart will not die in vein,
Hear me complain that it's you that made me insane.
Don't even try and explain,
I see now,
What your heart does not allow,
It is everything I was willing to give.
The love has turned into a hate,
Was this truly our fate?

Simple feelings,
They overload me,
Override my barely functioning system,
Why do you do this to me?
Make me smile by just walking into a room,
Make my heart jump when you catch me look your way,
Why do you make me happy when I see your smiling face?
Oh,I almost forgot your everything I want,
Almost forgot that every time we talk I feel my cheeks blush with pure excitement,
Everything about you keeps me both happy and sad,
So happy because your so amazing but so sad because you'll never want me,
Not like I want you.

This love



It's so much more


Than you'll ever understand


He and I



We're more than teenagers in love




Together we are one completed soul




Together



We are happy



What kind of person





Would tear real love apart?

I am nineteen years young
And I don't know what career I want
When I grow up
But I do know
I want to be happy

I am so tired of paychecks
Forcing us into these holes
Saying you can't live without us
When they know **** well
We don't even wanna live with them
Because unhappiness is just as bad as poverty

You still don't want to move
Still cry yourself to sleep
If you sleep at all

You still have a hunger inside of you
Unfed and wild

No I don't think poverty and unhappiness
Are very different

One way you live to survive
The other you barely survive to live

There's a knife at my throat and it's labeled
Unhappy.

They looked
At me
Like I was a monster
And I viciously
Look at them
With the
Fierce image
Of ripping out
Their throats
And standing atop
Their newly
Rotting corpses.

I don't even care,
My heart doesn't carry a spare,
What do I care if you break it you just wanted to take it,
You can't fake it,it's your fault you wanted to take it,
this isn't fair but you don't care.

I love that
Look
On your face
The way
Your eyes
Look desperate
For more
The way
You need me
Not just because you love me
But because you
Lust for me too.

I want you,to be by my side,
I want you,to hug me,
I want you,to kiss me,
I want you,touch me,
I want you,to love me,
I want you,to mean it,
I want you,Forever and Always...<3

You


Marrying *you



Being with you forever


Baring a child with you


Falling asleep wrapped close to you


Waking up beside you


Living life fighting happily for *you

We've known each other
For nearly six years
And we have been together
Nearly two
And I find it's completely
Normal to draw a blank
When it comes to words
You see we're not average
Nor below or above
Just different
And in that difference
Silence may come
But no need to fear
For our *****
And randomness
Always helps soothe things
And so I find it's completely normal
To text you two hours later after
Going silent to tell you
About a chocolate heart
And I find it completely normal
That you made all the aching
Go away
For with you my heart
Is always at its best
Even if our minds get a little lost

Flower me in your embrace,
breath sweet truths in my ear,
take your time dear,
I can wait,
for you I would wait an eternity,
please don't forget me,
your time is nearly up here,
and though I wish you'd stay
you too will walk away,
I too will be forgotten,
but darling let us lavish in now,
let me bathe in your arms,
and never let me forget this feeling,
this glorious feeling of knowing you,
of being yours,
hold on tight darling,
until you must go.

They think its only been a few months
Its been years
I've waited
And waited
For you
And I know
Everyday that
I am alive
Is better now
Knowing that after
My LONG
Wait
I got you
Now and forever.

Years all spent in vain,
Your feelings were all lies,
You never did feel the same,
I hope you realize how my heart was slain,
Your broke my heart,
You've caused me pain,
You tore my world apart,
My tears now blend with the rain
With memories of how I loved you from the start,
Now my heart cannot breathe,
It cannot feel,
I was once my smiles you loved to steal,
Now you leave me cold
Similar to your heart as I was told,
All I did was love you,
And all you did washurt me,
One day I hope you see
All that we could've been is all that we still be,
If you'd just take a chance,
Take a chance on our romance.

I wake up every morning
Knowing I can't hold you
With the facts running
They grab me and won't let go
Remind me
I will never get to wake up
Beside you
Won't hold your hand
Or kiss those lips
I'll never hear the words
That I ache to hear
Never get to feel
Me in your arms
I have to settle
For a look
A word that
Can make my heart soar
I have to settle
Living my life
Knowing we'll never
Be anything more
Than the nothing we are now.

I love him
Want to marry him
Live with him
Make love with him
Have a child
Get a cat
Raise that little kid
The kitty too
I want to show him
A good time
In this ****** up world
I want to fall asleep
Each night
With him
And wake up to his smile
I want to grow old with him
We must change
Change comes with age
But at least this time
If we're lucky
We'll change together.

You hold me close,
minute by minute,
I breathe in your scent,
You let go and wipe away my tears,
I tell you what's wrong,
And you tell me too,
But there is a secret I'm keeping from you,
Your perfect in my eyes,
But I tell you lies,
It's not them I desire,
Your the only one who lights my fire,
I burn for you,
But the truth is I'm trying not to,
Your unsure if your gay,
The hope that your bi can make my day,
I need you to see what everyone else sees,
Your made just right for me.

You
Were
Life
Altering
But
I
Don't
Regret
One
Moment
Of
Agony
Because
It
Brought
Me
Back
To
You
My
True
Love
We
Were
Mea­nt
To
Meet
And
Be
Forever
Changed.

If I could have you
All would be right
In this horrendous world
All would become brighter
The darkness fading
To know the feeling
Of your lips on mine
Would surely brighten
All the stars in the sky
If we were to entwine hands
The crops of this Earth
Would grow and prosper
Right beside us
If you were mine
And I was yours
The world would be
A much better place.

Have any of you figured out how to stop yourself from loving deeply?

I feel it everyday in my bones
And I can't force myself to stop
Loving him is so natural for me.

Have you figured out how to stop crying over a broken heart?

I still feel the aching of his absence and it is unbearable.

Have you figured out how to live without love?

I still can't stop myself to racing to his call. He is the light of my life even if he's a pessimist. He's my pessimist. Except he's not my anything.

Have you figured it out yet?

I wish
He understood
Just how much
I love him
How much he means
I wish he didn't
Feel distance
In my love
Because that's
As close
As we can be for now
I wish he could
Comprehend
That he
Is my everything.

This feeling
It lies
Somewhere in between
Filling me
Or is or just complete emptiness
It itches at me
While summons questions
It's hard to figure out the difference
Between reality and dreams
Or shall I refer to them as "nightmares"
Because each time I wake from them
My chest is heavy
And I feel the tears forming
People don't comprehend this
And nor do I
I can't tell if it's
The depression rising again
Or maybe it's the memories
That I burned
Coming back
Maybe it's me losing
Every bit of strength
I Thought I Had.

Somewhere between our love,
Grew hate,
You gave up on me,
On us and all that could have been,
I held on,
I believed in us,
Unlike you I had dreams,
Forever seemed definite,
Back then I wanted no one like I wanted you,
You quit when things got tough,
Even when you did I tried to pretend otherwise,
I stuck up for you,for me and for all that we were,
They put us down
And each day I fought to bring us up,
My love was stronger than anything I've ever known,
But that was then,
And now I'd rather be chopped into pieces
Than to see your face,
Hear your voice or name,
I'd rather be attacked by venomous spiders
Than spend another moment regretting what was.

Now someone else will "be"

I need you too
When your away
I crave you most
The undeniable urge
To lie my head
On your chest like
I once did on
That bus ride home
I miss you even now
I wish you were here
So I could fold my body
Into yours
Or lace our fingers
So that we are just a
Little closer
I wish I could fall
Asleep beside your
Beating heart warming mine
I Want you
To let me just be yours
Happily and forever.