It felt like I gave you everything...
I gave you my heart to love with,
I gave you my smiles and laughter,
I gave you my arms so we could hug,
I gave you my lips so we could kiss,
But I never got the thing I wanted most,
YOUR HEART...

No fear my love
For you
Will always be
My one true love
You see
You were my first
And if you keep me close
Hopefully my last too.

An explosion
A on edge way of surviving
Each day battling
Each day waiting for defeat
Abandoned by hope
Knowing evil rests here
A nice smile
Tightening innards
Survival no longer seems vital
Giving in is so simple
The urges grow
A split of a vein
It will set me free
Agony will longer reside in me
I will no longer be a abandoned memory
I will be the forgotten pain
I am not strong
Words will not change that I am weak
Time has not changed it either
I am a ticking time bomb
And I must EXPLODE

As children we watch the world changing,
We see all the things the elders are exchanging,
But as a child we watch so many leave,
We loose our faith and our ability to believe,
We search for one pair of hands that won't let go,
The faith is lost and we hit our low,
We search for someone to just stay,
Someone to love us and not walk away,
The bright creatures we are turn to sorrow,
We can barely hope for a better tomorrow,
Sick of being hurt,
Sick of being treated like dirt,
We try to break free,
Try to have our own special personality,
We try to grow up fast,
And just forget our lonely past.

Death I savored the thought,
It would pass my mind constantly,
Death had consumed my life,
I wished for it,
I wanted to die as I slept,
But I knew this was a wish not likely to become reality,
So I contemplated how I would die,
At my age
It would have to be forced,
So my mind wandered
Eventually I came across the simplest answer,
Pills,
Wouldn't that be painless?
Death was my savior,
I thought it would bring me peace,
But what if it brought me more hell than Life did?
So I sat there,
On my bed,
The bottle in my hand,
Crying,
Knowing I'd have to stick this life out,
Just wishing there was something to make it easier,
To make it fade,
And it was that day,
I picked up my first blade

All my best friends
And most
Of my friends
Have faded away
They no longer
Entwine their
Life with mine
And suddenly
In this crowded room
I feel all alone.

Some people go looking for death,
Some wish death upon themselves,
For what I believe to be incoherent reasons,
I know what it is like in that dark place,
But The light shines through eventually,
You just need patience,
Death will come for you,
One day it will find you
When your hair is gray
and you've gone senile,
Death will find it's way to you one day,
Some way.
Until death creeps up to get you,
Live life,
Don't worry about the bad,
One day,
If you try hard enough,
It'll get better.

I remember our life
The one that started
When you walked
Up to me and asked
Me to be a part of
Your life
And I eventually
Accepted
I think about all
The time I spent
Loving you
Being in your arms
All our laughs and smiles
Each breathtaking kiss
I then begin to wonder
About our future together
The wedding certificate
Sharing a bed
A home
My life entwining with yours
And our child
A beautiful sign of
Our undying love
This little baby
That is made of part you and part me
Raising this child with you
Growing old together
And dying so happily
And still so in love.

My body
Bloated with passion
Is not easy without you
For I writhe
Back arched
Soft frustration
Uttered from my lips
Hand desperate to touch
To feel
Roam
But it's nothing
Compared to
How every
Kiss
Every caress feels with you.

There are moments
I still long to be in your arms

It's like drinking from a poisonous well

I could drink you all day

But in the end I was hurt

I would hate myself for wanting to go back

But the thirst just grows

And I have to decide

Would I rather hurt or die of thirst.

The worst story ever told
Is the story of your first love,
And how he ended up with your best friend.

I can no longer withstand this pain.How could you say my heart was plain?Still you've slain it.You must admit,I was your game.Now All I feel is pain and your the one I blame.My heart will never be the same.Do you even know what I became?Slightly more insane.what is this strain?Don't you understand this is my only demand...Love me...Is that hope I see?

Does it matter who we love?
Does it matter who we think of?
We should be free to choose,
To love and learn to lose,
Equal rights for all,
Our group isn't so small,
We are just like you,
Our love can be true too,
We will not change,
Don't cut our lives back a page,
We are people,
Let us marry on the same steeple.
We won't give up our fight,
Not until the law says our love is right.

They Call it fate,we were each others mate,Now You must be everything I hate.You may wait but nothing will change,Don't begin to act strange ,We will continue to exchange our glances,This Is what I get for taking chances,only broken romances.A love story gone wrong,I guess this is so-long.I'll try my best to act strong.</3

The problem with him is
He's not you

The problem is
I don't love him
The way I love you,
Or at all for that matter

The problem is
I don't want to
Hug him or kiss him
The way I want to
Hug and kiss you

The problem is
He knows
I'm in love with you
That no matter what
I can't erase how I feel

The problem is
That he doesn't
Match me
Or move me to tears
With his presence
And he doesn't inspire me

The problem with him
And with every man
I will ever meet
Is that *They're not you

I thought about you today,

About us,

The kisses shared,

The hand held,

The friend I had,

Today I thought about you,

About you and her,

The kisses shared,

The hugs,

The friendship,

Today I thought about you,

About what changed,

About how I messed up,

Today I thought about
             me
             and
             you
             and
             her,

And how lucky she is,

And how sorry I am.

Once again I believed
I had found love
Because I loved so strongly
I believed it could be enough
For the two of us
But as strong as my love may be
It cannot make them stay
They are destined to leave
They all are.

It was raw
And I knew it
Had to be true
You said you loved me
And I believed
Despite
The pain
The agony
Our battle
The victory is always
Rewarded to Love.

You looked at me
Like you loved me
Like I was special
Held my hand tight
Made love to me
Hugged me
Told me how
Important
Those hugs were
How they made you
Feel good
You adventured
Somewhere new with me
You kissed my neck
And told me
That you loved me
You were here
With me,
Mine
Just yesterday
And today your gone
Leaving me
And it feels like my heart
Is bleeding
And as though its cut open
You were everything yesterday
And everything today
But I wasnt anything
Not today
Maybe not yesterday either.

I remember how lonely
This time of the year was
Without him
And now that he's here
And mine
I hope that you feel
The comfort I do
I hope you find someone
To hold and keep you grounded
And safe
I know this time of the year
And it can be tough all alone.

She was at the ledge,
Ready to fall,
So near the edge,
She can't handle it all,
Her eyes fill,
She begins to bawl,
She wants her life to end,
She tried to be happy,
But she couldn't stand playing pretend,
Her heart was smashed,
Torn to pieces,
She was so obviously trashed,
Friends abandoned the weak,
She was invisible,
Her future seemed bleak,
Still She hides the pain,
No matter the hurt,
No matter how her heart was slain,
She masks her life,
Wishing,
Wanting just the knife,
Just one more time,
It gave off adrenaline,
It made her feel sublime,
She gave up hope
And decided there was only one way to cope,
Just to die,
And and not let another see her cry,
Just so they wouldn't see her weak,
So they couldn't see that little streak,
That light,
The one that flew away that night,
The night she died,
The last night she cried.

Your eyes told so many stories,
Your eyes spoke so many words,
Yet your lips never moved an inch,
That's how in synch we were,
Your eyes once said give this a chance,just friends and just hope,
Your eyes once made me laugh and smile,
Your eyes once whispered It was never her I wanted,
Your eyes once trembled please stop this madness I care for you,
Your eyes once seduced me into your arms,
Your eyes once told me you loved me,
Your eyes once made me realize,realize that life without those eyes would be no life at all...

I can't pretend
We finally reached our end
I won't pretend
I'm unable to call you a friend
I can't forget
All the good things you made me regret
I won't threat
Though my hate is a unpaid debt
I can't say goodbye
Somehow refuse to see past your lie
I won't try
Just leave you with a whimpering cry
I can't think of you
No longer love you too
I won't call you mine
It's finally our time.

Love is a risk all on it's own,trusting another person with everything you are,Hoping they are who they appear to be...

Knowing
Your sweet
And gentle
Heart
Has loved before
Will always
Ache
Always sever
A small part inside of me
But I can't change it
I can't say I hate you
Because I love you
And you know
I've done worse
Than just love
I've tried so hard
To erase the past
And not let
Curiosity
Eat away at me
But the algae of jealousy
And the atoms
Of our past
Come back to haunt us.

I was Naive,
Foolish,
So easily tricked into believing anything,
I didn't see the heartbreak waiting for me in the end,
But there is was,
And now all I can do
Is try to put my life back together again
It feels impossible but I want it so badly,
Maybe one day someone can come along
And fix what others decided to break.

I grew weary of heart break
Of being hidden
Being not quite enough

I was not asking you to choose
I was asking you to accept me

And after all these years

You still couldn't just love me

You just couldn't promise me you wouldn't break my heart again.

I miss you
I do not love you
It's all a game
That my body plays
At the slightest acknowledgement
Of your Existence
My heart fumbles
And my hands shake
But the past is the past
And I dislike remembering
Who I was
So I remind myself
Of another I loved
But then my heart
Is aching
And I start to miss
Him too
Only I start to
Remember
My heart
Is still his to hold.

See
Our
Undying
Love

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Maybe
All
True
­Experiences
S**urvive.

I envy the beauty in others but I know inside,where there soul lies,Is not beauty but a monster staring straight at me

I thought you loved me...
I thought when you held me to your body everything would be alright...
I thought when you kissed me I was more than a friend...
I thought when we touched we shared a moment for just us to remember..
I thought when you left everything would feel that same...
I was wrong everything seemed to change....
The cuts got deeper...
The tears came more often...
And the broken heart could never be healed...
All because of your sweet lies....
All because one day I looked into your dark brown eyes....

In the beginning
I believed in you
I thought you were kind
Caring and so secure
But to know now that you
Are just like the rest breaks me
You were so inspired by my eyes
And I was lit up by yours
Our laughter once was endless
Now our glares don't even last
You once warmed me heart with your smile
Now I feel as though your mocking me
You began so bright and good
But along the way
Darkness grew in you
And your indivuality
The thing I loved
It dissapeared
And you let the dark fill you
So this is over
The love I had is through
And I swear to only think bad thoughts
About this new you.

When you left me
For the last time
You took a picture of us
I wish I still had
I miss your face
That scar
That somehow
Made you perfect
I wonder if you have it still
I wonder if you look at it
And say how you miss my face
And my freckle
That you use to kiss
We were imperfect
And we fought to love each other
Because it wasn't easy
But we found it in those little things
We found it
Together.

My heart
Was always on my sleeve
You grabbed my hand
Brushed past my heart
And let it smash
You broke me
With your touch good-bye
You let me fall to pieces
I was your puppet
You pulled my strings
Made me fall in love
Made me smile when I cried
Made me happier than I thought I could be
And then again
You left me here
Without a word
Of sorrow or apologies
You just let my love hang there
Let my heart fall
And all I felt was it break
As all the good memories
Collided with the bad ones across the floor.