It's time,
Time for this heart to be set free,
It's time for me to stop loving you,
Maybe I'll find love again one day,
But know you'll always be my first and truest,
Know That the memories we created made me smile for eons,
But It's time to pick up the pieces of this broken heart,
and try to be happy again,
No matter how hard it'll be,
It's Time.

Through my life I found that love is unexplainable,it can survive the depths of hell and high of heaven and still simply be only one thing,Love.How can one emotion,one word live so strongly within us without fading....

Ignited from lust and desire
I pull down my shirt
So you see
Bare bits of me
And those beautiful eyes of yours
Light up
And I can tell your admiring parts of me
I never could
You want me but for now
We settle for you burying
Your face somewhere just below my heart
I smile
Satisfaction clear
I love that look
Uncontrollable lust mixed with your undying love
Its just perfect.

From the land of the
Dead did I emerge
Wounds and scars
My way of life
Tragic love stories
Whispered in my ear each night
Making it so hard to fight

I was born from
Tears and prayers unanswered
I am from a mystical darkness
That always seems to loom

I am the Mighty Queen
Of complicated lives
Of broken hearts
And lost words
The monster in me
Was born the night
I came to life
(In the momement I first knew love)
And it promised never to leave
On the day I learned heart-break
Here I lie now
A creation of evil
Fighting to be good
To be anything but
What the world has tried
To make me.

I'll fill this space with empty words,
A half-hearted energy,
No true meaning,
Just a few sentences to fill the blank pages,
To cover up the hollowness growing here,
Don't worry it'll all be over soon

I am my own disease

It spreads like wildfire

My veins burst

My skin bruises

My insides begin to die

I am my own disease

You are the cure

So far and out of reach

I will die

Before ever even getting close.

I'm curious
Do you love me
Or who I use to be

I'm curious is it me you wanna marry
Or the shadow of the old me

I'm curious
Are you ashamed
To claim me as yours

I'm curious
Are you here
Just to hurt me

I'm curious
Do I even matter to you
Or am I just dreaming.

I put myself out there,
Only to be broken,
I'm treated like the nothing I've learned to be.

I Loved Once,
And even that faded away,
Any good must die,
Any smile must fade,
All laughter will slowly go,
And Once Again,
I will remain alone,
I will remain only slightly whole.

I loved you
And this aching
Won't fade
My heart misses you
The smiles you brought
The joy that swelled in me
Because of you
I know what it is
To be happy
In the presence of a friend
Even if you love 'em
And know it can't progress
I know it'd be easy
To hate you
But my heart can't forget
The warmth
Your smile gave
The comfort
You gave with just a look
You worried for me
And looking back
I wish I could have
Saved you
Like you saved me.

A smile to hid his demons
Pretend he's okay
  Better than he seems
   But with my love
     I see past it all
      Beneath his eyes
       Past his smile
        Away from his dimples
          Somewhere in there
            Beyond all his perfections
              I see his pain
                The emptiness
                   His agony
                     And lack
                       of trying
                         With only
                          The belief
                            That no one cares
                               Even though
                            I'm right here
                      And I would never leave him
                  Even when he breaks my heart
              I will always love him whole or incomplete.

When I think
About that first
******
My body
Tingles
But I'm still
Waiting
It's okay
Because I
Know your
Worth the wait.

I
Have
Only
Needed
You
To
Survive
Because
With
You
I
Am
Whole
And­
As
Long
As
Your
Holding
Me
My
Heart
Feels
Happier
And
So
Much
More
Completed.

I tried,I tried fight it my whole life,
And in the end I failed,
And all I had left was the tears I cried and my heart that died

All that stands between us is only a street,
Only words left unspoken,
All that stands between you and I,
Are the experiences we have yet to enjoy together,
All that stands between us,Is our denial,
The denial that all true feelings we've shared have come and past,
Because every time I look into those eyes I still see a part of my heart,
I think it's taking refuge there because until we admit how we feel,
How we've always felt,I think that part of me feels safer with you,
With what it wants most,
You,
You and your heart.

I loved you.You were everything to me.You were my world.You left me broken.You always fixed it.I am not broken because you did any wrong.But because I can no longer be beside you.No longer feel your voice.No longer feel your hug or kiss.No longer feel the love you entrusted me with.I am broken because I don't have you.
I wish you were here.But your there.where that is I have yet to learn.But I know that place where you live is lucky to just be near your soul.And all I hope Is that you are happy enough for the both of us.

I felt
Embarrased
It would've been easier
To eat in front of you
Than that
But there's no
Taking it back
No time machine
To change the past
It's okay
I guess
Because
Things happen
And we just have to move forward.

I won't write a book about us

We were a whirlwind disaster

But I loved every heart wrenching moment

I won't write you a book

Because we failed

I'll write some fiction

About us working

About us loving forever

Just like we promised

I'll write some fiction

And it will be beautiful.

Dear Heart,
I will **** you,
You have fallen for only fools,
I will strike in silence,
I declare only hatred for the pain you've caused,
How dare you,
You ****** abyss of nothing,
You are the worhtlessness in me,
You are the center of pity inside of me,
With each beat my hate only grows,
Dear heart,
Your death will come,
And it will hurt.

What is it about you that makes me smile...
What is it about you that makes my heart skip a beat....
What is it about you that makes everything better...
I'll never know...But I do know I love you...
Even though you broke my heart....
Even though you made me cry....
Even though you left me....
Even though your not here...
Because somewhere inside me....There lies a piece of your heart that you gave me long ago...

Kissing me
Tenderly
I melt
With joy
Cascading
All around.

I'm sick of this
Sick of not being good enough
Sick of being changed
Sick of you telling me to change
To pretend
Sick of arguing
Sick of fighting
Of the tears
Sick and tired
Of being knocked down
I'm not who you want me to be
And if I'm not
Good enough for you as I am
Then maybe you should go
And if you don't
Maybe I'll have to.

Whenever I cry
Whenever we fight
I get so scared
That I'm losing you
But you hold on tight
And prove you'll stay
You kiss me and
I find that
We need each other
More than ever
Because when
Things hurt
Or fall apart
Even if only
For a moment
Lust takes over
Pure desire
And I think
We just need
Each other
To touch
To kiss
To hold




But never miss.

There's this
Unexplainable
Emotion
Or perhaps desire
That swells in me
As everything falls apart
I'd love to figure it out
Why as my world
Crumbles from its base
That its not
Tenderness or affection
That I want
But your touch
Because it magically
Makes the aching fade
And when that sensually sinful act
Ends
I feel better
As we walk away
With devious smiles
Hinting at what happened
As we laugh because were
Almost caught
I feel so much love
For you
The things you do
And how you take me away
Into a little world we created.

Something in
The pit of me
Broke
As fear whispered
*It's not time yet

Words that scorch
That yell at me
**Forget your love
Erase the love making
Destroy the desire
That built up
Forget what today
Would've been
Forget the love
That grew and
Tear it down
Like the world
You loved once upon a time
Erase the wound like
It was a just papercut
Instead of a sword
And arrow slicing
Through my chest
Forget all my pain
Like I can flick it away
Just forget the love story
And start over
As if

Within An Instance I Was No Longer Me,
I Was One With Him.
Two forms became one,
Our lips met and suddenly the world began to slow,
The clock seemed to stop dead,
The only thing that existed was he and I,
And We Had Become One.
The feeling of his lips on mine sent chills everywhere,
I swore in that moment nothing could get any better,
I knew nothing could surpass the wonderful taste of he and I passionately kissing in the rain,
I had craved the moment so long,
And then when hope was nearly lost,Miracles occurred,
He was mine,
And I was his,
Nothing else in the world mattered,
Everyone else ceased to exist as long as I was with him,
In His Arms The Only Thing That Mattered Was Him,
And How Much I Loved Him.

Its as though
They smell my
Weaknesses
Long before they
Attack
They must know

They must.

Your wrong
Seeing your on and off again
Boyfriend once a week
Is nothing compared
To what it'll feel like for me
And it doesn't matter
That I've lived without him before
Those two years were the most
Excruciating years of my life
I cried myself to sleep endlessly
And I was drenched in my own blood
I was weak then
And my love was beyond the human capacity
So seeing him once in a while now
It won't be easy
But it's better than having a gaping hole
Where your heart once was
And I know you haven't been without
But I have
And let me say
Two months is so much better
Than two years
At least your heart won't be left
Wondering,hoping,dreaming
At least now
Each day will be a step closer until you meet again
At least this time
There will be a return.

There is a pain in my chest and it won't let me breathe,
I try to break free but love has trapped me,
I'm hurting all over and it seems
no matter how hard I fight this will be forever,
My heart will always long for those I can't have,
my heart will always ache knowing I wasn't good enough.

I've made
A lot of mistakes
In my short life
But some things
I will never
Do again
Is burying myself
Is burying my love
I will never again
Try to stop this feeling
And I will never stop
Fighting for you
My love reaches
So far beyond
The average means
God gave me and you
Large sensitive hearts
To love each other with
So listen to it beats
Rythmically move us
To tears and nothing can stop this
Connected by love and history
No matter where you go
I will find you
Even if years from now
I must reach out
Fly over oceans
I will find you
God awakens me
Inspires me to fight
Tells me we're suppose to be
Meant to love each other
Because the strength we find
The happiness we find
In time spent cuddled together
Or kissing in the rain
It inspires the world
It defeats all wariness
We're a special love
That no one understands
But it's because of that
We're held together
Forever bonded
In my heart
You will always be my husband
And I am your wife
And I may not be the strongest
Or the most positive
But I believe in us
In our love
And because of it
I believe we'll survive
Survive through the worst of storms
And we'll come out hand in hand
Thanking God for everything
And praying each day
We'll never have to part again
And I promise one day we won't.

Leave me now
Or
Leave me never
For the aching will
Only grow
And agony
Only multiply

I miss you

My heart is being torn

And fear has blossomed

But I love you

And that's impossible to change.

So for now

Know that when I say I miss you

I'm actually say

How badly I wish you were here.

Everyone is always trying to explain what love is

Love is nothing and everything

It is the unseen beauty that keeps life flowing

Love is the thing that builds

Heartbreak is the thing that destroys

They are not the same

Love is the look of a weary soul coming home
After a long day and wanting
Just to rest,
Believing the night has nothing left to offer
But being delivered sustenance
Followed by quiet listening
Love is playing a game to ease the pain

Cuddling to ease the weariness that consumes
Destroy weariness, for it creates doubt,

Love is sleeping beside each other,
And laughing at each other
Because each night
Someone is being smooshed  into the corner of the bed

Love is the tears of a petty fight
That erupts from jealousy
Love lurks in the fear of losing it all

Love is in hope
Whether it's only one of you
Or the both
Love is there

Love is in the idea of marriage

In the hopes it'll happen
and if it does or has that it will last forever

Love is in their eyes,
And how they try to crack a smile
Even when they feel down and depressed

Love is there

Love is here

I can never give up on such a wonderful thing

Love in the beginning

Love in the middle

Love in the end

And Love forever.

I won't apologize
For standing my ground
For the first time all these years
I will say I'm sorry I expected more
That I assumed you would
Actually fight for me
We were suppose to marry
And we were suppose to hold
Little spence or serenity
Suppose to argue over
Santa and the tooth fairy
Somehow we lost it all
All that's left is the duffle bag
In what was our room
In the end
I missed you
Because you had checked out
6 months prior to leaving
Slowly we died
Our dreams melted away
And I stood in the puddle of it
You stopped calling me beautiful
Started insulting the way I dressed
You stopped kissing me
And got angry when I asked
You stopped making love
And wondered why I cried
You stared at the television
As you thrusted into me
Emotionaless
Did you love me then?
Do you now?
Because even though
I hate what happened
What we became
I still remember
The day we ditched school
With no money
And explored
And I was freezing
So you offered me your leather jacket
That was always too small for me
I remember kissing in snow
Rain
And sunshine
I remember the way you wanted me
The hunger in your eyes all consuming
I remember the way
You held me
The way you laughed
And dreamed of fatherhood
I remember us in love
And I wonder
How could something
We fought so long for
Suddenly not work
How could you hold me
That night
Only to wake up
And leave me
How could you leave me
When all my life
I have asked for you to stay.

It felt like I gave you everything...
I gave you my heart to love with,
I gave you my smiles and laughter,
I gave you my arms so we could hug,
I gave you my lips so we could kiss,
But I never got the thing I wanted most,
YOUR HEART...