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452 · Jun 2013
That Look
Ignited from lust and desire
I pull down my shirt
So you see
Bare bits of me
And those beautiful eyes of yours
Light up
And I can tell your admiring parts of me
I never could
You want me but for now
We settle for you burying
Your face somewhere just below my heart
I smile
Satisfaction clear
I love that look
Uncontrollable lust mixed with your undying love
Its just perfect.
Curled up beside you
I sleep
No longer needing dreams
No longer
Does my subconscious
Long
For I have
And completion
Fills me up
I exude love for you
My every pore
My every living moment
Is spent
Thinking of you
And the future ahead of us.
451 · Jan 2013
Mission Rainbow
I want
To prove
That bright
Colors and I
Simply don't
Go well together.
451 · Aug 2011
It's time
It's time,
Time for this heart to be set free,
It's time for me to stop loving you,
Maybe I'll find love again one day,
But know you'll always be my first and truest,
Know That the memories we created made me smile for eons,
But It's time to pick up the pieces of this broken heart,
and try to be happy again,
No matter how hard it'll be,
It's Time.
450 · Mar 2012
Darker Days.
I remember a time when darkness reigned supreme,
A time when pain was endured,
A time where tears wre strong,
Where nothing seemed right,
Where nothing felt fair,
A time I spent without you,
I loved you
And this aching
Won't fade
My heart misses you
The smiles you brought
The joy that swelled in me
Because of you
I know what it is
To be happy
In the presence of a friend
Even if you love 'em
And know it can't progress
I know it'd be easy
To hate you
But my heart can't forget
The warmth
Your smile gave
The comfort
You gave with just a look
You worried for me
And looking back
I wish I could have
Saved you
Like you saved me.
448 · Apr 2011
I tried
I tried,I tried fight it my whole life,
And in the end I failed,
And all I had left was the tears I cried and my heart that died
448 · Dec 2012
Curiosity Aches
I'm curious
Do you love me
Or who I use to be

I'm curious is it me you wanna marry
Or the shadow of the old me

I'm curious
Are you ashamed
To claim me as yours

I'm curious
Are you here
Just to hurt me

I'm curious
Do I even matter to you
Or am I just dreaming.
448 · Oct 2013
Fairy-Tale
I think I believe in fairy-tales
Because , well



*I believe so deeply in our happy ending.
I'll fill this space with empty words,
A half-hearted energy,
No true meaning,
Just a few sentences to fill the blank pages,
To cover up the hollowness growing here,
Don't worry it'll all be over soon
448 · Nov 2012
Creation Of Evil
From the land of the
Dead did I emerge
Wounds and scars
My way of life
Tragic love stories
Whispered in my ear each night
Making it so hard to fight

I was born from
Tears and prayers unanswered
I am from a mystical darkness
That always seems to loom

I am the Mighty Queen
Of complicated lives
Of broken hearts
And lost words
The monster in me
Was born the night
I came to life
(In the momement I first knew love)
And it promised never to leave
On the day I learned heart-break
Here I lie now
A creation of evil
Fighting to be good
To be anything but
What the world has tried
To make me.
448 · Jan 2013
Soon
When I think
About that first
******
My body
Tingles
But I'm still
Waiting
It's okay
Because I
Know your
Worth the wait.
447 · Nov 2023
Chemically Induced
I wish you were as chemically addicted to me like I once was to you.



Just so you could see how much strength it took to walk away and stay away.
447 · May 2012
I Will Always Love Him.
A smile to hid his demons
Pretend he's okay
  Better than he seems
   But with my love
     I see past it all
      Beneath his eyes
       Past his smile
        Away from his dimples
          Somewhere in there
            Beyond all his perfections
              I see his pain
                The emptiness
                   His agony
                     And lack
                       of trying
                         With only
                          The belief
                            That no one cares
                               Even though
                            I'm right here
                      And I would never leave him
                  Even when he breaks my heart
              I will always love him whole or incomplete.
446 · Sep 2011
All that stands between
All that stands between us is only a street,
Only words left unspoken,
All that stands between you and I,
Are the experiences we have yet to enjoy together,
All that stands between us,Is our denial,
The denial that all true feelings we've shared have come and past,
Because every time I look into those eyes I still see a part of my heart,
I think it's taking refuge there because until we admit how we feel,
How we've always felt,I think that part of me feels safer with you,
With what it wants most,
You,
You and your heart.
446 · Apr 2011
No Longer...
I loved you.You were everything to me.You were my world.You left me broken.You always fixed it.I am not broken because you did any wrong.But because I can no longer be beside you.No longer feel your voice.No longer feel your hug or kiss.No longer feel the love you entrusted me with.I am broken because I don't have you.
I wish you were here.But your there.where that is I have yet to learn.But I know that place where you live is lucky to just be near your soul.And all I hope Is that you are happy enough for the both of us.
446 · Jul 2011
What is it
What is it about you that makes me smile...
What is it about you that makes my heart skip a beat....
What is it about you that makes everything better...
I'll never know...But I do know I love you...
Even though you broke my heart....
Even though you made me cry....
Even though you left me....
Even though your not here...
Because somewhere inside me....There lies a piece of your heart that you gave me long ago...
446 · Nov 2011
All Must Fade.
I put myself out there,
Only to be broken,
I'm treated like the nothing I've learned to be.

I Loved Once,
And even that faded away,
Any good must die,
Any smile must fade,
All laughter will slowly go,
And Once Again,
I will remain alone,
I will remain only slightly whole.
445 · Apr 2014
Merry-go-round
I'm on a merry-go-round of love
Except It's on high speed
And I don't know where I'll land
My feet give in and I go flying
Into a dark corner of memories
Memories that are endless
And that never do fade
So I sit in my corner watching
Trying to grasp the ghost
Of all that is not mine
I stand up fighting against
The sadness and pain
And I run toward
The merry-go-round
And I hold on and I let it spin
I let it confuse me and
I let it morph everything I am
And I wait for someone who truly loves me
To join me on the ride.
445 · Sep 2015
Wave
I saw the wave that would drown me
And I did not move
But I hoped instead that it would not crash ashore
But what a fool I was to believe
That a wave would not smash into the sand
Stealing away bits and pieces of it
And pulling them into the ocean

I saw the wave that would drown me
And I stood there like a clown
Too afraid to stay and too afraid to go
Oh cruel wave
Do you see how you have killed me

Swallowed me up in your saltiness
Told me do not move or you will break
And breaking me anyway
And so I blend my brokenness with the sand
And I am washed away
Lost forever at sea
Just the sand and the broken pieces of me.
There's this
Unexplainable
Emotion
Or perhaps desire
That swells in me
As everything falls apart
I'd love to figure it out
Why as my world
Crumbles from its base
That its not
Tenderness or affection
That I want
But your touch
Because it magically
Makes the aching fade
And when that sensually sinful act
Ends
I feel better
As we walk away
With devious smiles
Hinting at what happened
As we laugh because were
Almost caught
I feel so much love
For you
The things you do
And how you take me away
Into a little world we created.
Your the best thing in my life.
444 · Mar 2013
Smiling At You
It's your face
Your eyes
That scar
Lose lips
That look
Just any look
That keeps me
Floating on air.
444 · Jan 2013
Make It Better
Whenever I cry
Whenever we fight
I get so scared
That I'm losing you
But you hold on tight
And prove you'll stay
You kiss me and
I find that
We need each other
More than ever
Because when
Things hurt
Or fall apart
Even if only
For a moment
Lust takes over
Pure desire
And I think
We just need
Each other
To touch
To kiss
To hold




But never miss.
No good blame geometry
443 · Jun 2013
Lost and Broke
Everyday feels like
That first day
That I realized
You weren't coming back.





*Heartbreaking
443 · Dec 2015
My Own Disease
I am my own disease

It spreads like wildfire

My veins burst

My skin bruises

My insides begin to die

I am my own disease

You are the cure

So far and out of reach

I will die

Before ever even getting close.
442 · Dec 2012
Now or Never
Leave me now
Or
Leave me never
For the aching will
Only grow
And agony
Only multiply
441 · Nov 2011
A Moment In Time.
Within An Instance I Was No Longer Me,
I Was One With Him.
Two forms became one,
Our lips met and suddenly the world began to slow,
The clock seemed to stop dead,
The only thing that existed was he and I,
And We Had Become One.
The feeling of his lips on mine sent chills everywhere,
I swore in that moment nothing could get any better,
I knew nothing could surpass the wonderful taste of he and I passionately kissing in the rain,
I had craved the moment so long,
And then when hope was nearly lost,Miracles occurred,
He was mine,
And I was his,
Nothing else in the world mattered,
Everyone else ceased to exist as long as I was with him,
In His Arms The Only Thing That Mattered Was Him,
And How Much I Loved Him.
441 · Jan 2013
Fear
Something in
The pit of me
Broke
As fear whispered
*It's not time yet
Your smile
Is so lovely
And oh so very
Contagious.
I'm sick of this
Sick of not being good enough
Sick of being changed
Sick of you telling me to change
To pretend
Sick of arguing
Sick of fighting
Of the tears
Sick and tired
Of being knocked down
I'm not who you want me to be
And if I'm not
Good enough for you as I am
Then maybe you should go
And if you don't
Maybe I'll have to.
Wrote this while crying at school... Problems in Paradise.
440 · Mar 2012
Unspoken words.
There is a pain in my chest and it won't let me breathe,
I try to break free but love has trapped me,
I'm hurting all over and it seems
no matter how hard I fight this will be forever,
My heart will always long for those I can't have,
my heart will always ache knowing I wasn't good enough.
440 · Oct 2013
Laughter
Nothing as sweet
As lying in your arms
And you kiss my bare shoulder
And I laugh joyously
As your breath and stubble
Tickle me
And your love warms
My soul.
440 · Apr 2014
Just friends
Words that scorch
That yell at me
**Forget your love
Erase the love making
Destroy the desire
That built up
Forget what today
Would've been
Forget the love
That grew and
Tear it down
Like the world
You loved once upon a time
Erase the wound like
It was a just papercut
Instead of a sword
And arrow slicing
Through my chest
Forget all my pain
Like I can flick it away
Just forget the love story
And start over
As if
440 · Mar 2013
Weakling
Its as though
They smell my
Weaknesses
Long before they
Attack
They must know

They must.
439 · Jan 2013
Red Finger Tips
I felt
Embarrased
It would've been easier
To eat in front of you
Than that
But there's no
Taking it back
No time machine
To change the past
It's okay
I guess
Because
Things happen
And we just have to move forward.
439 · Apr 2014
Never Give Up
I was just never
The type of girl
That could give up
On love
Especially since
I love **you
439 · Feb 2012
"Dear Heart"
Dear Heart,
I will **** you,
You have fallen for only fools,
I will strike in silence,
I declare only hatred for the pain you've caused,
How dare you,
You ****** abyss of nothing,
You are the worhtlessness in me,
You are the center of pity inside of me,
With each beat my hate only grows,
Dear heart,
Your death will come,
And it will hurt.
439 · May 2013
I'm sorry I had to say it
Your wrong
Seeing your on and off again
Boyfriend once a week
Is nothing compared
To what it'll feel like for me
And it doesn't matter
That I've lived without him before
Those two years were the most
Excruciating years of my life
I cried myself to sleep endlessly
And I was drenched in my own blood
I was weak then
And my love was beyond the human capacity
So seeing him once in a while now
It won't be easy
But it's better than having a gaping hole
Where your heart once was
And I know you haven't been without
But I have
And let me say
Two months is so much better
Than two years
At least your heart won't be left
Wondering,hoping,dreaming
At least now
Each day will be a step closer until you meet again
At least this time
There will be a return.
439 · Nov 2012
Held From Behind
I
Have
Only
Needed
You
To
Survive
Because
With
You
I
Am
Whole
And­
As
Long
As
Your
Holding
Me
My
Heart
Feels
Happier
And
So
Much
More
Completed.
438 · Jul 2016
Jump
The only way to find happiness
Is to risk unhappiness
Take a leap
And pray you land on your feet
And that on the way
Nothing gets broken.
438 · Jan 2013
Moral Conduct Broken
I promise
It's normal
For to
Young people
To have
An Uncontrollable Passion.
It doesn't mean we love each other any less.
438 · Dec 2012
How I Felt This Day
I miss you
Already
Already
Already

I miss you
Here
I miss you
*Now
438 · Apr 2012
Already Gone.
An explosion
A on edge way of surviving
Each day battling
Each day waiting for defeat
Abandoned by hope
Knowing evil rests here
A nice smile
Tightening innards
Survival no longer seems vital
Giving in is so simple
The urges grow
A split of a vein
It will set me free
Agony will longer reside in me
I will no longer be a abandoned memory
I will be the forgotten pain
I am not strong
Words will not change that I am weak
Time has not changed it either
I am a ticking time bomb
And I must EXPLODE
437 · Feb 2012
Children Lost,Adult Found.
As children we watch the world changing,
We see all the things the elders are exchanging,
But as a child we watch so many leave,
We loose our faith and our ability to believe,
We search for one pair of hands that won't let go,
The faith is lost and we hit our low,
We search for someone to just stay,
Someone to love us and not walk away,
The bright creatures we are turn to sorrow,
We can barely hope for a better tomorrow,
Sick of being hurt,
Sick of being treated like dirt,
We try to break free,
Try to have our own special personality,
We try to grow up fast,
And just forget our lonely past.
Everyone is always trying to explain what love is

Love is nothing and everything

It is the unseen beauty that keeps life flowing

Love is the thing that builds

Heartbreak is the thing that destroys

They are not the same

Love is the look of a weary soul coming home
After a long day and wanting
Just to rest,
Believing the night has nothing left to offer
But being delivered sustenance
Followed by quiet listening
Love is playing a game to ease the pain

Cuddling to ease the weariness that consumes
Destroy weariness, for it creates doubt,

Love is sleeping beside each other,
And laughing at each other
Because each night
Someone is being smooshed  into the corner of the bed

Love is the tears of a petty fight
That erupts from jealousy
Love lurks in the fear of losing it all

Love is in hope
Whether it's only one of you
Or the both
Love is there

Love is in the idea of marriage

In the hopes it'll happen
and if it does or has that it will last forever

Love is in their eyes,
And how they try to crack a smile
Even when they feel down and depressed

Love is there

Love is here

I can never give up on such a wonderful thing

Love in the beginning

Love in the middle

Love in the end

And Love forever.
437 · Jun 2013
Day No. 5
I miss you

My heart is being torn

And fear has blossomed

But I love you

And that's impossible to change.

So for now

Know that when I say I miss you

I'm actually say

How badly I wish you were here.
436 · Nov 2015
Fiction
I won't write a book about us

We were a whirlwind disaster

But I loved every heart wrenching moment

I won't write you a book

Because we failed

I'll write some fiction

About us working

About us loving forever

Just like we promised

I'll write some fiction

And it will be beautiful.
436 · Jul 2011
My only demand
I can no longer withstand this pain.How could you say my heart was plain?Still you've slain it.You must admit,I was your game.Now All I feel is pain and your the one I blame.My heart will never be the same.Do you even know what I became?Slightly more insane.what is this strain?Don't you understand this is my only demand...Love me...Is that hope I see?
436 · Feb 2013
First Love
No fear my love
For you
Will always be
My one true love
You see
You were my first
And if you keep me close
Hopefully my last too.
You were supposed to be my future
                                                             My Heart was yours
I thought we'd last forever
                                                       We lived through rough times and still cared
But caring wasn't good enough
                                                       I dreamed you'd be my husband
My future sons' father
                                                     We intertwined so perfectly
You can love someone else now
                                                                                             And apparently a whole lot longer
I was the vast sky and you were the stars that filled me
                                                                                            Now your my past
An aching that doesn't quit
                                                  When I think you've left my life
You appear like magic
                                                     To hurt me more
Wound a already broken heart
                                                    And watch as I go down
I loved you once upon a time
                                                                 But now I just wish you'd leave
Just like you did when we were together
                                                                     Except this time
Please don't come back
                                           You've caused enough pain.
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