I desire one thing in life,
Not wealth,
Though it'd be helpful,
Not fame,
Though it may be fun,
Not eternal happiness,
Though I do want it,
All I desire in life,
Is Love,
To Love and Be Loved,
I wouldn't mind a few bumps along the way,
As long as I end up with someone that makes me happy,
But for a girl like me,
In a world like this,
It may never come,
But I will spend my life searching,
Searching for someone that makes me smile by just being in the same room,
Searching for someone to make history with,
I just want happiness with the one I love,
I don't need anything,
Nothing but the necessities,
But I desire one thing,
I Desire Love.

I'm scared to see you again,
But I'm sure I will,
Not necessarily bad,
But not necessarily good,
My heart is still weakened by your presence,
My hands grow shaky,
And now I'm scared to let you in my life again,
Because If I do,
You'll walk out,
You always walk out.

Heartbreak,
It's Like A Knife,
A Physical Knife Stabbing You In Your Weakest Areas,
Heartbreak,
Surely The Pain Will Fade,
But There Will Always Be A Scar,
After Heartbreak,
You Trust Less,
You're Careful About Who You Let In,
You're Afraid Their All Going To Hurt You,
Heartbreak,
It Leads To More Heartbreak.
Heartbreak Shatters Once Good Lives

Listen Closely,
Can You Hear It,
The Tears That My Heart Shed,
Can You Hear It Break A Little More,
Can You Hear My Hand Swiping The Blade Across My Skin,
Can You Hear My Life Being Destroyed,
All Because I Fell For You,
All Because I Cared Too Much,
Listen Closely,
If Your Lucky You'll Hear Me Die
Inside Out.

To My First Love,
Do you know that I still love you?
Do you know why?
Let me explain,
The first day we met,
you wanted to be my friend,
I said no,I'd fall for you,
And you being so stubborn,didn't care,
We weren't just friends though,
We were best friends,
We would wave every time we saw each other in the hall,
If we didn't sit together we'd stare at each other,
Which always made me laugh,
We'd walk together,
Talk about the most random things,
Laughed about nothing,
We went through rough times,
But our friendship always came first,
The first time you hugged me I screamed,
I loved your hug though,
It was perfect,
Light and still tight enough for me to feel your warmth,
You would make me play silly games,
And made me hug you,
It took forever to hold in my scream when we hugged,
But eventually I learned,
Then we shared a perfect hug,
More than one,
Two I remember perfectly,
One where I laid my head on your shoulder and looked up,
I looked into your eyes and saw you suddenly look at me,
Awkwardly beautiful,
The second,
I was sad,
You put out your arms knowing I needed a hug,
And I ran into your open arms,
Feeling better immediately,
You asked me out on a Monday,
That was year and a half ago now,
We shared our first kiss on a Wednesday,
Not only our first,
But my favorite,
The last day I saw you was on a Monday,
Only a week since you asked me out,
you walked out of my life,
And then I had no life,
I fell apart,
Without you.

I believe this is hell,
The life some live so well,
When we die,
Some cry,
Some only let out a sigh,
But it's okay,
It's only life being taken away,
After death,
After our final breathe,
A new start,
A new heart,
Life all once more,
I feel this truth in my core,
To reach the angels above,
We first must love,
We must live with not one regret,
Because in the heaven we dream of we can never forget,
The memories will both bless and depress us,
Helping us remember the good,
Making us smile like it should,
But helping us remember the bad,
Making us sad,
Because we're remembering all we had,
I rather be stuck in hell,
Maybe one of my lives will end well,
I just hope I can cope with the truth I know.

When the air stops blowing,
And the sky stops snowing,
I'll be going,
Up to the sky,
And no questions as to why.

Hell yes
I'm scared,
Why do you think I walked away,
I was scared,
I was furious with myself for walking away,
Do you know how ******* long I waited to see you,
And I ******* walked away?!
I was scared,
Scared you really did stop loving me,
Scared maybe I stopped loving you,
I ached each step I took,
Walking away,
I hope if I am lucky enough to see you again,
That I have the strength to pretend,
Pretend I'm fine,
Pretend I am strong,
Pretend that I don't want you.
If I'm lucky I'll be able to lie about being in love with you.

I denied it for as long as I could,
I of course was in stage one,
Denial,
If I couldn't have you in my life,
I would just be alone,
Alone forever.

I stood there broken inside and out,
Screaming,
Screaming at you and your memories,
I must've been in the rage stage,
Because I would've loved to smack your smug face,
I would've loved to rip out your heart and stomp on it like you did to mine.

I must be in the bargaining stage,
Because I started praying for your return,
I started wishing on every star,
I just hopped,
I would've done anything to have you back.

Gosh stage four was the worst,
Depression,
Cuts,
Blades,
Anything to make the ache in my heart fade,
It lasted what felt like ages,
I cried so much I thought I'd drown in my own tears,
I was truly alone at that point.

Final stage,
Acceptance,
I was always close to it,
But I'm still somewhere between stage 4 and 5,
Depression and Acceptance,
Every time I come close to accepting,
You show up,
Only for a short time,
But long enough to keep me in the middle,
Keep me in limbo,
Feeling somewhere between life and death,
I hope one day stage five will be completed,
I hope you let me,
But apart of me hopes you don't.

You got to walk away,
Each time wordless,
Each time leaving me confused,
Leaving me so unsure,
And this time,
I got to walk away,
Wordless,
Confusing you why I was there,
Hopefully leaving you unsure,
Hopefully leaving you to realize how perfect
We were and Can be together.

You left me,
Never even said good-bye,
So many of my tears were cried for you,
I loved you,
And after everything,
I lost you,
You left me there,
Left me behind,
And moved on your way,
I don't care if it was your choice or not,
You could have said good-bye,
You could have told me you loved me,
Instead you left me in a daze,
Believing everything was fine,
You left me there not even knowing that you loved me all along.

When people smiled I cried,
When people laughed I cut,
When people loved I hated,
When I smiled they frowned,
When I laughed they cried,
When I loved they hated.

I love you,
My heart is rejecting it,
I hate this love,
All you've done is lead me on,
Then you pretend we never said anything meaningful,
But Those words are still there,
I saved them,
I will never erase them,
Because it shows me,
Your love was once pure,
Your love once actually existed,
My heart hates what you've done,
For so long
You've pulled it along
Partially Being honest,
Telling me all we were,was friends,
Then hugging me and saying you care,
You fooled me,
Now I see,
You were more confused than me,
But it does not give you the right to ignore me,
Love still exist between us,
I feel it,
I know you do too,
But our hearts,
They've blocked us from allowing the truth in,
And the truth is,
Even after all the crap we've not only been through but put each other through,
We're still in love,
In some way,
We still love one another,
Our hearts might fight it,
But we know it's there.