"The thing that caught me
Were her beautiful hazel brown eyes,
But I would never tell her that."

Am I beautiful?

There's so must controversy

I say no

My lover says *Yes

My childhood tormentors say NEVER

My admirer says Of course

The question continues to go unanswered

But who could ever see

Beauty in such a girl

With such a past

Could I have finally

Amended or Atoned for my sin

Have I become beautiful

Or are my hopes

Just to high.

Oh my sweet
Lover
Whatever shall I do
For I am lost
Once again
And I need your help
To throw
That pesky love bug
Off the scent.

Maybe I should
Run from
His friendship
But he's a great
Friend
And so
Gentle
And frail
Younger
And so
Innocent
I'm afraid to
Hurt my friend
But I need him to know
It's not going to happen
He knows it's not
Yet his words still
Linger in the air.

I love you
More with
Each day
For I love you
More with every
New memory
That we share
Together.

Always waiting
For yet
Another
Luxourious kiss
For you see
My heart
With you is
Complete
And your lips
They press on mine
And send my mind
All this joy
A jolt awakens my sleepy soul
For you brighten each moment
And with you even I
Dread sleep
You kiss me sometimes
With this fierce passion
Like I'm all that matters
Almost as though
Your kiss
Tells me you love me
And when you cup my face
Or run your hand through my hair
My soul brightens up
And suddenly
The clouds part
For I can finally reach
Heaven
As long as you
Are by my side.

I think
I've finally
Found the guy
I wanna spend
Forever with
I finally
Found this
Amazing guy
Who isn't
Ashamed
That I'm his
And that he's mine.

Go Ahead
Do It,
I DARE YOU.*



I want you to

Where oh where
Art thou
My sweet
Romeo.

If this
Is a test
I quit,
You won,
I'm weak.

A lot of stuff
Is going through
My head
And I wish
He was here
To make it better.

I need something
To grasp
So will you
Come
And tuck me into
My bed tonight?

I'm going
To trust him
Even if
I didn't know
I'm not
Gonna care
About that
Because
I trust him.



I'm not that type of girl.



I don't get jealous.



I don't get angry over those type of things.



Nope,Not at all...

I want you
Indescribably
With a passion
That is yet to be known,
You see
I want you
Now and forever
For you
Are the light
That brightens each day
And if you are ever down
I'd like to make you smile
Or try my best to
Because that's what you do for me
You make me
So amazingly
Insanely
And completely
Happy.

If you foolishly think

You love me

Do what no one else has

Prove it

Scream it to the world

Make a complete idiot out of yourself

If You Love Me

Be Fearless.

He goes missing
When I'm finally
Found.

I want
To solve
All the
Issues
All the
Babble
That are
Lies
I want
To erase
Every ounce
Of hate
So
I may purify
Too
I want
To cling
To the good
And if I cannot
Change the bad
I'd like
To flee from it.

I don't want
This
To be
Temporary.

I simply
Do not
Understand
The complexities
Of myself
So no
I do not
Understand
Others
But I try
I try to
Solve this puzzle
Of me
And hopefully
While I piece
Together the images
And hidden meanings
Maybe I can start to
Understand the puzzle
That is you
Or the
Hardest puzzle of all,
Humanity.

I don't know what I'd do
If I didn't wake up
And discover you
Waiting for me
Don't know what I'd do
If I didn't have you
To hold me
You see it might be sad
But my love
Makes my world revolve around you.

I have lived without you
If living is what you'd call it
My anguish was found
In the endless nights
That I knew
I'd be waking up
With you not there
Tears stung
The cut burned
My addiction was
My sorrow,
My sorrow
A life without you
Forever would be
One huge misery
And now
With you
Don't expect me to go back
EVER
I cannot survive
For you see
I've learned
What happiness is
I've learned what it's like
To be loved
And I will fight all who
Dare try to take you away
Because you mean everything to me
And I will not dare return to darkness.

I wish
I could
Meet you
In a empty
Room
But not
For anything
Enjoyable,
But for
A little chat
Because I
Have a feeling
If the world
Left you and me
Alone
You'd
Talk to me
Not about me
And maybe
We can figure out
Your **** problem!

Sometimes
I can see it
In your eyes
The way you love me
Sometimes I can feel it
The way you touch my face
Or just kiss me
So lightly yet full of passion
Sometimes our love
Needs no words
Because with us
It's all about what's in our hearts.

My skin
Only reacts
To your
Touch,
No one else's.

Blinded I fight
Trying
To get
Just one slice
Right
Blinded am I
Blind and foolish
My naive ways
Tricking me
Into a unknown
And untrustworthy trust
For I believe
Blatant lies
My battle
Though tough
Shall be won
For the mask
Covering these
Dark eyes of mine
Will soon be unveil.

I need you
Now
It hurts
And the
Tears sting.

Love viciously
Love violently
Love deeply
And never
Think about
What can go wrong
Just focus on
What's finally going right.

I absolutely
Love it
When he cups
My face in
His palms
And kisses me
Because
I never feel
More loved by him
Than in that moment
It's as though
The world has slowed
As though his heart
Is whispering to my soul
I want you forever
And I can't help
But smile as my heart
Flutters for the first time
In ages.

I have questions for you

What do you gain
  When you talk about me
  What makes all the lies
  Worth it for you
  Why do you STILL
Make up vicious lies
  When it's been so long
  Since you meant something
  Or since I *wanted to mean
  Something, anything
  Tell me why?
  Why?

Betrayal barrels
Down the halls
And AGAIN
I fall,
Defeated.

Whisk me away
Leave behind
The twisted thoughts
Of fear
We'll escape
To the land
Of sweet redemption
Be freed from the chains
That viciously hold us down
Nightmares impossible
For we're anywhere
But in the depths of evil
Together
We will prevail
Hope is not yet lost.

Momentarily pain slips in
And a strength that grew in me
Crumbled and I wondered
*Why do these things always happen?

I just
WISH
For once
Things could
Solve themselves
But life isn't that easy
No matter how we wish.

You are
THE WORST
Tease
I have ever known.

EVER.

He was my first kiss

Maybe that's why

Only his kiss feels right


He has lips almost my size

Maybe that's why

It feels so right to have them against mine


He's my first love

And maybe that's why

I think his kiss is best

But maybe it's because

We're actually meant to be.

My king of winter
Not for cool exterior
But for endurance
In the cold
So warm
From head to toe
Except your hands
Which always
freeze for me
My king
If I am your queen
I cannot promise
To enjoy the cold
But I will endure through it
As long as your throne is beside mine
For all I need to survive
The snow and wind
Is your hand in mine
We'll make it
For spring is almost here
And I will guide you through.

I feel like
We've finally
Fallen into place
There isn't a single part
Of us I hate
We
Yes, Us
We're doing just fine.


Who said young love doesn't last?

I love the irony

You  hating

Me

Yet still

My name

It spews from your mouth

Full of mad lies

As though you've even said a word to me

I laugh as you try

Not to look at me

Yet our eyes briefly meet

I love

How you hate me

Because I know

It wasn't always that way.

The love
Only grows
With each day
And I can
Only hope
It is Never
Severed.



*Not when
Summer comes
Not when it ends
Never
Never
Let it Sever.

Nothing makes me happier
Than to lie there
Content and complete
In your arms
Tired and restless
Wanting to sleep
Or at the very least
Never let you go.

As passions
Override
We lose
Control
Passion
Igniting
A flame
Burning
Between
Our bodies
Only Fufilled
By this
Amazing act
So Tender
And So Close.

Wrapped tight
As though
It would help
Me feel
Everything a little
Better
But it was all
*Breath-taking.

It truly was
One of the
Most amazing
Sensations
I could ever
Feel in my life.

I love how my eyes
Simply did not  see you.

I love how you never loved me
I love how you pretended to

I hate how my heart broke
When I saw shirts that said Daddy's little girl
Because I knew I never would be

I get confused when I think about
How you acted like you cared
How I cried and you hugged me
A real fatherly hug for the first time
And how weeks later when I left
You didn't even say a word
Didn't fight to keep me
Because you didn't want me

I guess I can say
I lived just fine without you
But everyone wants two parents
I was left with one
And she did amazing
But whenever I go and visit my brothers
I envy them
I want to scream
Because they have their mom
And the person who was suppose to my dad

I call you Carlos because that's who you are
Not dad or daddy
And when I refer to you I say my father Carlos
And try not to sound emotionally involved
You and I have never been close
But I still have made similar mistakes
And look undeniably like yours
And each day I curse my genes

I wish I could say I love you
But I know so little
And you've made life harder on me
So all I can say is
Your chromosomes make up half of me
And I think you gave me all the crazy genes
And I cant hate you for that
But certainly can't love you for that either.

Marriage
Does not
Scare me
It's everything
Before it
The fact
That while
We wait
We can part
Is terrifying
For I want
To be married
And I want
To be married
To you
So please
Work with me
So we can be
Together always.

I wish you
Were here
To cuddle
Close to
So I can
Smile
As I
Look
Into your
Amazing eyes.