We were together
Three years
And you thought I was cheating
So you cheated a little

Not that there's really a degree of it, either you are or you aren't

But in all that time
That you thought that
You missed something really important

You missed the way I look at you

Like my whole world is in your eyes

Like you're the most attractive person in this world to me

Like I love you, every crazy, paranoid, insane part of you

You missed the part where I promised to always love you

And though in that time together

We did plan our future

You didn't think my heart was in it

But baby my whole soul was in it

There is no future for me without you

If there is it will just be a sad miserable existence

You lied and hid stuff

I didn't care about your choices

Just that you decided to lie

Three years together

Now nine of knowing you

And I still can't stop dreaming of you

You are home

Sweetie

I can't stop this love

I have tried

I have tried to love others

I have tried to find a lover

That could beat you

But you are always my King

And no matter how you hurt me

No matter what you think I feel

No matter if you lie or break promises

You will always be the person who brought me to life

The person who makes me happiest

And I will always love you

And if that makes me crazy

Then I'm okay with that.

Win that lottery
And take me away with you

Let's leave this life together

Just like you said we could

I hope you win

Not because I want you to have money

But because I want us to be free

Free to go anywhere together

And maybe just maybe

You would finally

Just let yourself love me.

This poem
If that's what you wanna call it
Is a ******* shrine to you

Like every poem I've ever written

It's the only thing on my mind

Words for you
Words of you

How can someone
Own all my words
All my thoughts

How can you own me

How do I stop this ******* shrine

And darkest of all
What if I never want to stop?

It's almost 4 A.M.
And I'm in this bed alone
Having an imaginary fight
With you that I know
I will never have the courage
To actually say

And I'm crying as I list
Just how much I miss the little things

And I'm wishing
That my love for you
Could die

But it won't

No matter how much time passed

You're a permanent resident in my heart

I'm breaking from everything

Every bit of love I've ever felt
Was because of you
And I will never love again

Every time I feel close
I think of you
And I know

I know no love
Will ever compare to the first

My first kiss
My first lover
My first fianceé
My first roommate

My first heart break
And every heart break after

And still I would go to you
Fall for you
Fall to you

I will always be yours.

I feel like venom
Like somehow
I poison every relationship

Either they were built
On my poison

Or I made it emerge

Either they use me
Or I leave them

Out of brokenness
Will come more brokenness.