your touch set me on fire
but i realized too late
that i was engulfed in flames -
burning alive
and you were not there
to extinguish me

i laugh at the irony
that love broke my heart.

i like to pretend
that i am strong
that i know how to handle sadness
but i really don't.
i am so lost.

i can't explain it
and i don't know if
it's just because i can't understand it
or if it's just one of those things
that exists in this universe
that is too complex
and too extraordinary
for the mind to comprehend

i really just want you
to be proud of me.

i know that
one day
i will be okay
and that
will be the end
of you.

do not
leave me alone here
no matter how much
i tell you to go