you lied when you said you loved me
                                                                ­                    
                                      and i lied when i said i didn't love you back


j.f

Where did all these years go?
How did we drift apart?
I was once your little girl,
and you were once my hero.
When did I become
your emotional punching bag?
I can't pretend your words don't hurt,
when they used to be encouraging.
You were my mentor, my coach;
I thought that you knew everything.
But now it's clear that I'm just ****,
and you know absolutely nothing.
I'm older now, I see through your lies.
There's nothing but hatred behind your eyes.
I'm standing here bleeding, daddy.
Are you still proud of me?
Do you still love me?
Or am I imaginary?
I don't like the wars we fight,
my heart can't bear the pain.
When will this be over?
When will you care again?
Please don't hate me, daddy.
I'll always be your little girl.

Home is where your heart is, a friend told me some time ago
On a little piece of paper that I took with me then;
Most people think of home as something stable, as something they would know;
Each time I part, I'm thinking of this lttle note, and it is when

                               I really miss you
                                           that I imagine my heart to be in many places
one of those pieces being by your side.

this is a simple thing
thus these lines know no rhyme -
no time is used to jot them down
no time is needed here
to rhyme.

It is only of coming home.

Your lovely little daughter
Was wonderfully bright
But she had a face which
Boys would run from on sight  
  
In your jealous eyes
You saw them come to me
With endless promises of love
Happiness and matrimony
  
You harped on my flaws
And crushed my dreams
So that everyone could see
The crooked way you saw me
  
The scars on my wrists
Just brightened your day
“How could a boy love you
Since you’ve acted this way?”


So many thoughts and jibes
Ran through my mind
But the only thing said was
“My girlfriend likes me just fine.”