you have this wonderful power to make choices, make the ones that get you where you want to be.

you said please don't give up on me

but it's kind of funny,

since you ended up being the one to give up on me

i used to keep happy memories
in a jar, so i can open it any time
and look back at the happy times

but now i've used up all the
happy memories..they're all
gone.

there's nothing more dangerous than a person with nothing left to lose

Art is a world we don't often get to see.

you can't compare me to anyone else

you don't have to chase what wants to stay

be real with me or just leave

be what you're looking for

i do.
but I am afraid of making that love too important.
because you’re always going to leave me.
we can’t deny it.
you’re always going to leave.

die with memories

the more you love, the more you suffer

where there is pain,

what do you mean?
                                       do you want to be right or do you wanna be happy?

where do I go with all this silence?

"There are nightmares I don’t want to wake up from. In these nightmares, you’re still in my life. You haven’t left. We still kiss upon meeting, and you still laugh in that musical way you always used to. Every time, it’s something different we used to do. Maybe we go to different museums even though I always consider you the most captivating piece of art. Or maybe we’re watching Netflix and actually chilling. Or maybe we’re just holding each other in silence because the world is too loud. No matter what, it’s always good, great even. So why would I call these dreams nightmares? Because I always wake up not with a cold sweat, but with an intense longing and tears that taste like the last kiss we shared. My hands always reach out for you but you’re not there. Instead, I’m always greeted by the familiar empty space in my bed. Every time, I’m forced to remember exactly how things used to be, just to come back to reality where it’s almost like we never met. And to this day, I can’t say I wish we never did.”

beating heart
closing eyes
blank mind
cold touch
numb feet

baby don't cry


        t o n i g h t

I feel like I’m drifting through life when I should be living it

don’t mistake
salt for sugar
if he wants to
be with you
he will
it’s that simple

"I can’t stop crying because I know you’re gone. 
My friends tell me you never really loved me, because if someone loved another, they’d never leave them. Especially not in the darkest of times. 
I know you’re gone and I should be over it.
I know you’re gone, and crying isn’t going to bring you back. I know you’re gone, and no amount of poetry I write will result in you calling me up at 4 am. You don’t want me anymore, and I realized that the second you quit your good morning and goodnight texts. I watched you unlove me when our love spun out of control, and hit rock bottom. The funny thing is, I only loved you more from that moment on. But I know, I know. I know I’m never going to hear you sing to me again. I know you won’t pick up my calls at the first ring like you used to, because lately I’m just forwarded to voicemails. I get it. What we had was up and down, and I can’t expect you to love me forever.
Even though you told me you wouldn’t mind doing that. You told me you wanted to get as close as possible to forever with me.
I know you’re gone. But when will my heart finally understand what my brain already does?
I wish I could forget, and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I’m meeting new people, but somehow only the sound of your voice still echoes in my mind."

It's so sad and frustrating when you try your hardest but people still don't find it good enough.

.she hides all her problems behind a smile.
                                                behind her smile is a world of pain and hurt.
       you think you know her,
but you really have no idea

highkey care too much
lowkey tryna hide it from you

the sad thing about this world is that there are so many heavy hearts out there, but not enough feet willing to carry them.

i drink slowly



to feed the night

i want to be your everything

you need yourself more than you need them.

do you ever feel like you don't deserve to be loved?

i keep my distance from fake people

THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE
BECOME GHOSTS INSIDE
OF YOU AND LIKE THIS
YOU KEEP THEM ALIVE

sorry is a word. when heard repeatedly, it becomes a lie

"your first mistake was leaving me. your second mistake was giving me the chance to realize I could live without you."

"you fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time."

home isn't where you are it's who you're with and did

im a freak lunatic on beat