i don't really know
what i was thinking,

putting my words
out
here

thinking it would help
thinking this feeling would just

                                                                                                                   fade.

he keeps asking
why
I don't write
about him

my dear,
my sweet darling,
it is because
you
do not cause heartache
and pain
like the others did

I do not know
how
to write
when I am in love