I'd awoken near a calming sea,
Everything that i'd seen had been swept away,
The waves crash against my paralyzed body,
"He left me here..." I say softly.
I scream out in rage but only hear myself,
I'd been stuck there for years,
all by myself,
He was not the one to leave me,
He was not the one to leave it was all my own fault,
I calmly sit her as the sea splashes against my rock.
"I need to love myself." I say; As all my happiness slowly drifts away,
I close my eyes and drift to sleep,
Always calmly counting sheep,
He had gone but i was fine he was ready to leave this lifetime.
The birds go on above my sky, singing soft lullabys,
I miss him as he does I,
He left and so will I,
Though it will be a while before I die. So for now I shall say goodbye.

Dear dad,
you make my life hell,
you don't know if i'm feeling well,
I tell you i'm fine,
All you say is okay,
You don't try to dig deep,
You'd rather stay on the surface,
Where you are save,
Because you don't see the world like i do,
In fact you don't see anything but a mirror image of yourself,
Someone that is "amazing",
well news flash,
your not amazing,
your the worst person I know,
I hate that you think i'm a lie,
I am no lie,
maybe your the lie,
the only reason I thank you,
Is because you brought me into the world,
other than that you ******* ****.
Good bye.
Maybe you'll soon learn your mistakes.

I never thought of this,
But what do you see in me?
My eyes open my soul,
The soul is dark and sad,
My eyes show happyness,
For that is a lie,
I guess it happend a long time ago,
i didn't know what to do,
What to say,
Or what to expect,
I guess....


I needed something...
Fulfilling...
Something that wasn't the best way to handle it,
So I left scars on my body,
The blood was dark,
Warm,
Relaxing

I went to far,
I can't go back,
I guess...
I just wanted you to know,
I feel worthless sometimes,
And I can't decide who I am,
These scars are me,
They took over everything,
My brain,
My heart,
My soul,
I'm no longer in control...

I need to go,
But just so you know,
I'm okay,
Even if the rain will go on for days,
Storms pass,
But my scars last,
Forgive me if you can.

For a while...
I didn't know a thing,
i couldn't feel emotion,
even if i tried,
nothing came of it,
I hurt myself to feel better,
i still feel the urge,
I feel alone...
so alone,

ALONE
ALONE
ALONE

i don't see the world as some magical place...
I certainly don't like the human race.

Frozen Fracture,
Paused in frame,
Simple as can be,
With such an empowering name,
Frozen hearts of cold and dispar,
Fractures of lost life,
Because we wasted time,
Trying to save what was long gone,
Frozen Fractures,
Lost in time,
Close your eyes,
And let the Frozen Fracture unwind.

Hey, I heard that you weren't doing the best... So I'm here to say you're okay I know it's feels like the world is crumbling down and like your feet won't ever touch the ground. But just so you know I've been there. I understand that the world feels like it's going to explode that your head feels like it's not yours that your body feels that it's not yours. And I know the world seems full of judgement and Hate. But that's just something we have to ignore and let disintegrate. Why do you get so happy when you look into my eyes cuz I don't understand. What are you seeing me that's so **** important. Why do you look into my eyes and tell me you're beautiful and handsome I don't understand! I grew up somewhere where I wasn't appreciated... I grew up where I was taunted for how I act. I was always told that my singing wasn't good enough or I didn't draw very well I was told that I didn't matter basically. But I'm telling you now here before you I do matter! So when you tell me that nobody loves you and that I don't matter I want to tell you that that's not true. I love you and I'm not nobody. And just so you know I've got a lot more life to go and even though the world says f* you I keep moving on. And today I left all my teachers I told them that they meant a lot to me that they were a big inspiration for me to get this far in life but I never expected it to be so hard to see them go to walk away from them. Because they were like my family. And I guess... I'll miss them a lot. There are so many people that Inspire us to strive to be our best. And all I wanted to do was protest because I didn't feel that I could do my best because I was so down low that best was not even a word in my vocabulary. My world has taken a Skydive to Rock Bottom I don't see the clouds anymore I was on cloud nine it was beautiful up there. And now here I am scars on my arms and legs from battle wounds because I fought myself. I understand this might be hard but believe me dear you'll make it out alive and some of us don't. But that's because we didn't try. I know you see the world a way that I cannot fathom. But when I see that face I can think of is why would you want to leave the human race and growing up I guess I couldn't tell. But here I am now telling you you'll be okay.

-Sincerely Me