I'm simple
Not much to see
Drifting here
Over there
Wasting time
Jotting a rhyme
Thinking heavily
About nothing
Silly right
Wasting time
Going nowhere fast
Shouldn't last
Expiration past
No one left to fight
Isn't right
Whatever
Seemed clever
But am I
So simple

There is pleasure
There is pain
This I treasure
Drives me insane
I've known joy
I've known misery
Simple little boy
Man fighting viciously
Tasted lips sweet
Left there heartbroken
My skipping heartbeat
Hurtful words spoken
Passion so intense
Loneliness even more
Just made sense
Just as before
Smiling all day
Dropping of tears
Happiness at play
Love just disappears
Floating on air
Drowning so fast
Hope is everywhere
It doesn't last
It's so clear
Yet I'm confused
Sublime in here
Emotions being misused

In my head
I do dread
What I see
Inside of me
Through the years
And the tears
I felt insane
From the pain
All the confusion
And the dillusion
There's no escape
From the hate
Years of abuse
And substance use
****** and ****
Fist they hit
Across my face
Frustration they misplace
Ugliness became me
Innocence ripped viciously
Saw a ******
I dove further
Insomnia now arrives
Nightmares now thrives
Beatings more violent
I'm more irrelevant
Let's fast forward
Life more horrid
Another ******* death
Friend's last breath
He committed suicide
Emptiness consumes inside
Youth in hell
Where I dwell
Gunsmoke choking me
Monsters hunting me
Now the cage
Woman's misplaced rage
Here's the twist
With my fist
With much force
I'm the source
A chilling beast
Wicked I feast
A menacing fool
Violence my tool
Scars go deep
No longer weep
Burden crushing shoulder
I grow colder
Bloodstained hands tremble
Now I resemble
What I despise
**** no surprise
Daughters ripped away
Shame on display
Tears soaking inside
Emotions must hide
People judging me
Reacting so ignorantly
When I'm down
Kicking me around
When I'm soaring
Good times roaring
Now I'm grown
I'm more alone
Hard to feel
Need to heal
I am dying
But I'm trying
But this rage
Is a cage
Do you see
Beauty in me
Is it there
I'm so unaware
Please I say
I'm on display
I do try
That's no lie

That child is gone
Left to die years past
Innocence did not last
Normally it's true
But this isn't the case
The trauma I try to erase
Isolated seems better
Avoiding love so long
It always feel wrong
How can I be open
When my emotions speak
I am labeled weak
Could I be so different
Why should I care at all
When only hatred comes to call
I can never breathe
Suffocated by my pain
With these nightmares I contain
What is normal or mature
I wish I knew
So I could share that with you
If I say I care
How if I stay away
Afraid of what I may say

Insomnia
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
**** I'm tired
Exhausted not expired
So much transpired
Their hate inspired
So many desired
Heart on fire
**** seems dire
Some still conspire
Label me liar
You I desire
It is clear
I'm still here
I have fear
But I persevere
Suffering always near
What to say
Push me away
Strength on display
I don't play
Held at bay
So you know
Let it show
Let it go
Take It slow
We can grow
If we share
Will we care
Things weren't fair
If we dare
End this despair
Insomnia
I can't sleep
Nightmares still creep
May not weep
Still cuts deep
I can't sleep
Thinking of you
Away from you
Laughing with you
Snapping on you
Inspired by you
Insomnia

As I lay
There's the text
Time to play
What happens next
Send the reply
Wait a few
Sexiness can't lie
Talking about you
Here's the thing
I just won't
Will it bring
Ok just don't
Empty each time  
It feels good
Our desires climb
If I should
What will be
A bad boy
That is me
Your little toy
I'll be brash
Someone to use
Someone to smash
Possession you abuse

So cold this concrete floor
Voices muffled behind this steel door
As I wear this uniform faded blue
It's over my life is through
Feel the anger in this cage
Time to knuckle up enjoy the rage
No time to cling to fears
Dare not show those pathetic tears
Weakness will be consumed so quick
By these savages so sick
Come test me I'm ready
I shall not falter I'll stand steady
I'll fight leave you in a state of disarray
I'll stand my ground my heart won't fray
This evil to me nothing new
I would not wish on my enemy or you
Rifle in towers keeping things in check
Savages preaching misinterpreted respect
The days intertwine as one
Everything so grey no color not even the sun
A disowned son who will care
No need to ask if it's fair
Was this the best decision
Who cares ******* you're in prison

Doesn't take time
To write a rhyme
Obstacles I always climb
Confusing texts will chime
Faith feels so sublime
Honesty doesn't cost a dime
Orchestrating a simple game
With what's their name
Defeated as they came
These bullies are lame
They're so easy to tame
Poor little fools what a shame
Been playing so long
Dodging death became strong
It's the same old song
Don't know where I belong
It always feel so wrong
So many strangers I walk among
Stumbling in my daydream
Let my chaos scream
Flowing like a jet stream
My thoughts never mainstream
Pride coursing in my bloodstream
My passionate soul will gleam
Loneliness at night whatever
Will never be alone however
Make money comes whenever
The hustle came whichever
Stay real that's forever
This bad boy can be clever
******* I don't say
Hearts I won't play
Truth I will convey
Karma had a heavy price to pay
Emotions never have time to stay
***** I'll be just fine anyway