If I could be
A different me
A bit more kind
Would I find
My true feelings I conceal
Would I still be real
Do I have to be brash
Let my intolerance crash
Would respect still be there
Should I care
If others are weak
Why should I seek
A calmer path
Withhold my wrath
Can I execute my objectives
Keep things in perspective
Look outside myself
Put my rage on the shelf
Am I a gentle soul
Is this giving up control
Is this fear I'm feeling
That has my mind reeling
So I take a step back to observe
My opinions now i must reserve
Whether it's fair or not
I'm on the spot
There watching my every move
What do I have to prove
They will wait for me to slip
It's cool for now I'll bite my lip
Revise a better strategy to prevail
I'm not the one to play I won't fail

Would you laugh
As I write
About simple things
Life can bring
How times change
Perspectives rearrange
Finding a release
Gaining more peace
Being kind
A little less blind
To everyone around
Empathy is found
As a heart can heal
Not afraid to feel
Anger is still there
Pain does reappear
Love a stranger
Emptiness a friend
My mind still needs to mend
I'm so different now
I persevere somehow
I'm a lonely loving fighter
This is my life

With each moment
Pieces are spent
A bit of soul
A little heart
The mind
Some conversation
Even love
Some heartache
Feelings change
People too
Work is expected
Relaxation neglected
Closeness comes
Then it goes
Experiences leave a mark
Mistakes make us grow
Pain can linger  
So can joy
Happiness is relative
To what one desires
As others conspire
A true friend will prevail
Deflecting hate on every scale
Strength will flourish
Peace may nourish
The uneasiness felt
When failure is dealt
Yet if we fall
Who will we call
As pieces are spent
What will become of the moment

Would you say
You're stronger today
If tears fall
And anxiety calls
Expectations continue to pile
It's becoming harder to smile
Feeling it's never enough
Still being so so tough
Days longer by the hour
Exhaustion draining your power
With all this running around
Feeling like you let yourself down
Don't let disappointment set in
Excellence will never wear thin
With every breath you exhale
You are not designed to fail
Regardless of what has transpired
It's ok if you're tired
As your tears cleanse frustration
Remember you do bring inspiration
To every one you lead
You are growing you will succeed
I'm just a **** I don't know a thing
But I know you can do anything

If I tried
To hide
How I feel
I wouldn't be real
Heart on my sleeve
Never a need to deceive
I'm a sensitive man
Doing what I can
Even though I'm broken hearted
The indifference has departed
My kindness is saving me
Prevents me from acting savagely
My eyes seen so much pain
Nearly drove me insane
I love my family with no end
But they bring pain I can't contend
My daughters are my true salvation
Also the spark to my ruination
That situation is so discouraging
Yet loving them is encouraging
As I walked away from my past
The desolation couldn't last
I loathed the way i portrayed life
Superficial gains no longer suffice
Each day Im living is simplistic
I am becoming more realistic
If I can lend a helping hand
Offer another a chance to stand
I feel peace draping over me
Here's one thing that will always be
I'm a leader from birth
Ive always known my inner worth

As the last dollar falls
The bartender shouting last call
The conversations ending
The back up texts are sending
Dodging the hammered stumbling
Sorting out drunken mumbling
The faces look different in the light
Can tell they been out all night
Having to finish my beer
Time to get out of here
It was fun while it lasted
So many years getting blasted
Going to make that taco shop run
That drive is going to be some fun
Follow those blurry lines to the pad
Talk about the crazy *** time i had
Always a new adventure my friend
Doing this **** every weekend