You are a flame in my heart,
that can never be put off.
Our little interactions,
the texts, the calls, the smiles,
are all just smoke.
Flames are always stronger
when there is no smoke.

hate me..
***** me and throw me..
I'm already scarred
what difference does a few more blemishes make..
Paint me black with sin and burn me at the pyre..
I will take it all, in fact enjoy it all for you.

I'm happy that you never really understood me
And if you hate me more,
That is great too
I don't have to worry about you missing me
when I'm gone
I don't have to keep pushing through all this
for you anymore
I can rest assured that you will be happier without me
More at peace, less guilt, moving on to something better.
That's all I want for you.
To move on and be happy.
So I won't tell you if I'm dying here without you.

The day I fell for you,
I felt cupid's arrow pierce through my heart,
It's been sending me through waves
of pain and pleasure ever since.
On somedays more pain than pleasure,
Somedays stabbing further, deeper into the wound,
Somedays I'm just left to bleed.
Hoping that someday you would heal me,
Save me from this slow death.

You came to me.
For validation, for distraction.
Not the other way around.
I kept telling myself, I must love you
because I do all these things for you.
I convinced myself, It must be love
Why else would I put myself through so much pain?

It's not your fault,
that I fell hard for you.
I shouldn't have let you take over me.
You never meant for it to happen,
I gave myself unasked.

Whatever happens, just remember
None of it is your fault
You are not responsible for how others make you feel
However, you are responsible for what you do with that feeling
Don't indulge in things that are not you
Just because the other person is that way.
Always be your authentic self.
It's never too late to get back to yourself

keep loving you...

Vulnerability is not for everyone.
the more you open yourself up,
the more love you receive.
The more love you accept,
the more you allow yourself to get hurt.
Love and suffering are inseparable.

If you can't handle the suffering,
it is best not to love,
best not to be vulnerable.
Vulnerability sure is a sign of great strength
not everyone can handle it.