At the end of the day
You only have yourself
Everybody is so worried about themselves
They forget about others
And those others
Are the ones desperately begging
For help to come their way

And you shun them
So don't mind me if I say
I feel alone
But I won't say a word
Because words might start the battle
But actions are the swords

- 04/20/19

A seed
Most carefully placed
Into the soil
Watered
Lightened
Grown
This is a representation
Of what you did
To me

- 04/10/19

4:46 am and I feel like time is escaping me
The world is disabling me
My exponential growth
Is containing the beast inside of me

4:46 am and I'm laying here wondering if it is all worth it
Will things really get better
Or is that just a phrase
To shut those battling inner fights up

4:46 am and I just got slapped with a small "it will get better"
And a tight "just have hope"
You told a depressed one something that seems
So simple to say
But so hard to do
In terms that'll make me seem okay
*******

- 03/12/19

Me and You
A small little melody
Of joy and warmth
Happiness and growth
I love you
You love me
How much better could things be

- 11/30/19

How hard is it
To let go of your fears
And continue on with your life

Knowing any step could be your last
And any moment may just be a vast memory
Sitting in class trying to understand the lesson
But your thoughts corrupted your mind
And it's not that easy
You're fading so quickly
But what else can you do?

- 01/30/19

I lay down
I wonder what I have done to deserve this
It seems with every positive there comes three negatives
One step forward and a million steps back
Will life always be like this
I question my worth often
I've lost my faith
My hope has been demolished
The candle is still burning
The light to guide through the tunnel
And that is all I have

- 02/22/19

My mind is fidgeting with my soul like a kid playing tricks
My soul is dividing my body like one who does not care for herself
My body is failing me and destroying my peace of the unknown
But this will always be that way
Nobody really cares until it's too late
Nobody really realizes until it's time to go
Nobody understands until you're just a picture on a shelf
Or a note on a fridge
You are not that special to them as they say
But you are special in yourself
You are one of a kind
And don't you ever forget it
You are you
You are more than enough

- 02/22/19