1.  Was I supposed to become a desert in the centre of winter? Was the ivy supposed to coil  around my hands. Ever so tightly.
2. Deciphering ambiguous signals is a prelude to madness
3. Let me ****** you with the promise of never after.
4. Trying to sink a while in these threads of light.
5. Syllable altered mood
6. It gets hard in the middle, the start is child's play and the end. Always is.
7. I was confused, set adrift, I haven't been able to find my footing since.
8. Sometimes we die before our dreams breath their last breathe.
9. Wrapped in debris, what was constellates at my very feet.
10. Mosaic of all that has disintegrated.
11. Eviscerate the issue.
12. All my longing carried away in the breeze.

A presence that shed light
On my troubles
And strengthened the severity
I knew not how to rid
of this spectator of my ruin

Perceived silent taunts from
Conjuring up enmity
Made him
Worthy to be disdained
And he was... The *******

I felt tarnished
By this rage
That resided deep within
Poison in my bones

We co-existed
In perfect detachment
And yet
It was a presence
That overwhelmed me
To the point of not
Wanting to be.

The shape of the heart
How it echoes from the depths
When molecules align
At the dawn of lucidity
Those shards of emotion
Collect at the edge of you
Your atoms speak of truth
The unsureness of being
And the kindness that blooms
That will be your greatest act.