Dit is die trane wat niemand sien nie
Die seer wat niemand voel nie
Dit is die koue gevoel in jou hart
wanneer jy van buite af inkyk *** almal lag
Dit is die eensaamheid op naweke
Die stilte wanneer jy skree
Dit is die afwesigheid van n warm hand
Die oorblyfsels van n gebroke sielsband
Dit is die spasies tussen jou vingers
Elkeen n herinnering van n tekortkoming
Dit is die koue winters alleen
Die somers spandeer onder skaduwee
Dit is die hinkering na "ek is lief vir jou" briefies
Die drome oor die "ek is trots op jou" soentjies
Dit is al die gebroke beloftes
Die "liefde met voorwaardes"
Dit is die idee van *** alles moet wees
Wat keer dat jy gelukkig is
Dit is die wonde wat brand wanneer jy dalk mag glimlag
Om jou te herinner van jou seer se mag
Dit is die donker aande sonder sterre
Jou dood stille foon op die moeilikste tye
Dit is die konstante bevraagteken van jou waarde
Die "gaan nie eers probeer" nie's
Omdat jy voel niemand sien jou raak
En skielik is gelukkig wees, n verbode taak
Maar dit is die leemte in my hart
Die swaarte krag van al die vrae
Die "Opsoek na die vermiste stuk van my legkaart"
Wat die hartste praat
Dit is die gewoonte om te voel jy misluk
Dit is die "minderwaardige" plakker in die plek van jou gesoekte legkaartstuk...

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something.

So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.

Only once in your life, I truly believe,
you find someone who can
completely turn your world around.
You tell them things that you’ve
never shared with another soul and
they absorb everything you say and
actually want to hear more. You share
hopes for the future, dreams that will
never come true, goals that were
never achieved and the many
disappointments life has thrown at
you. When something wonderful
happens, you can’t wait to tell them
about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not
embarrassed to cry with you when
you are hurting or laugh with you
when you make a fool of yourself.
Never do they hurt your feelings or
make you feel like you are not good
enough, but rather they build you up
and show you the things about
yourself that make you special and
even beautiful. There is never any
pressure, jealousy or competition but
only a quiet calmness when they are
around. You can be yourself and not
worry about what they will think of
you because they love you for who
you are. The things that seem
insignificant to most people such as a
note, song or walk become invaluable
treasures kept safe in your heart to
cherish forever. Memories of your
childhood come back and are so clear
and vivid it’s like being young again.
Colours seem brighter and more
brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily
life where before it was infrequent or
didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two
during the day helps to get you
through a long day’s work and always
brings a smile to your face. In their
presence, there’s no need for
continuous conversation, but you find
you’re quite content in just having
them nearby. Things that never
interested you before become
fascinating because you know they
are important to this person who is so
special to you. You think of this
person on every occasion and in
everything you do. Simple things
bring them to mind like a pale blue
sky, gentle wind or even a storm
cloud on the horizon. You open your
heart knowing that there’s a chance it
may be broken one day and in
opening your heart, you experience a
love and joy that you never dreamed
possible. You find that being
vulnerable is the only way to allow
your heart to feel true pleasure that’s
so real it scares you. You find strength
in knowing you have a true friend and
possibly a soul mate who will remain
loyal to the end. Life seems
completely different, exciting and
worthwhile. Your only hope and
security is in knowing that they are a
part of your life.

Lost is how I feel in your eyes
Afraid I was, but I'm not anymore
Getting to know you proved my point
That second you realise anything and everything is beautiful that receives your touch. The way your eyes sparkle, your smile... "The look"... It all reminds me of the elegance you grace life with... How rich you make a soul feel... My soul to be honest...    
My heart for you is true, I know I won't fail. I step back and watch as you start to heal from a once broken heart... The one I wish to steal. I never thought that someone could crash through my walls like this. I tried, like you, to not let this happen but who can deny the soft gentle you, the naughty side, yes there's that too. I had no defence when it came to you. I don't want one, don't need one, for something in me screams you, you, YOU. Taking my time, patience I have till one day I hope to take it away... That thought of love not being true. I guess its still me, loves biggest fool. I didn't become the cold beast I hoped for, and for that my darling I blame the beautiful you

Its been 2 months since you said yes and my love for you is still centered, straight in my heart right where it belongs. Our relationship is right and holds no wrongs. Its been a while since "i like" became "i love". My like used to be grounded, now my love soars above. Because I love you so much and I want it to show. I'll love and care for you forever, the best way I know. Even though you may think it isnt true, forever my love will stay with you. You are my only love, I know you are my last. We can live together and forget the past. Our time together has been so much fun. You are the most important in my life, my number 1. Well I have to go now, im sorry its true nut I wrote this so u know I love you and I hope our months turn into years because you make me so happy, you destroyed my fears. Its been 2 months and I dont want it to end. Any time we could have split we had the ability to mend. Thats the thing about us, together we are one but seperate I am nothing... no fun. Well as sweet as this is, this poem has a curse. It eventually has to reach its very final verse. I love you forever and ever, I will always stay true. I have to go but never forget baby, I love you.

Thought how good it would feel
To be under your spell
Well the conversation’s dried up
And I’m left shaking
I’ve got things I must do
Never waste a day when the sun is shining
But I can’t fight these blues
And I feel just like I am drowning
So sail away my darling
Wave a kiss goodbye
I swear I thought we’d make it
Oh God how I tried
So I’m holding on tight
To the strength of my own convictions
Another sleepless night
Never thought I’d feel this broken hearted
And everybody loved us
But everyone could see
A change that left me holding
An empty fantasy
Heal… myself
You are supposed to be the one that does so well
And everybody knows the pain of loosing love
When are you suppose to learn to give it up….
Give it up
So sail away my darling
Wave a kiss goodbye
I swear I thought we’d make it
Now just an empty fantasy

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people, and sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
People are people, and sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
It's two A.M.
Feeling like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy for me
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
I'm sorry

Let me breath you in, and breath the words in your mouth, inside
your shivering, the silence shouts so loud. I just want to, I just want
to stay around, and while my heart beats I promise I won't let you
down.
If you keep building these walls, brick by brick towers so tall, soon I
won't see you at all, until the concrete angel falls, I knew who you
were from the start, but now I don't know who you are, soon there
will be nothing at all, until the concrete angel falls.
If I'm somewhere else it doesn't mean that I don't see, that you
don't trust yourself, that's why you don't trust me, it makes me
crazy, when you're crazy, you don't speak, you think you know me,
but what you know is just skin deep
. If you keep building these walls, brick by brick towers so tall, soon I
won't see you at all, until the concrete angel falls, I knew who you
were from the start, but now I don't know who you are, soon there
will be nothing at all, until the concrete angel falls.
It's twisting your mind, I'm not getting through, cos I don't see it like
you do, There's nothing to find you've got no excuse, I'm over
getting over you, cos I don't see it like you do, I'm over getting over
you.

I'd be deemed a liar if I suggested you leave me with no breath... Now, I find myself weightless... elated, drifting in that anti gravity that is the dream space of a carefree soul, but by a glance at your design. Never has any desire been a pleasant torture until now, I wish for nothing during these stretched out days but the visits you grace me with in my rest, the only thing I might want more, if time allows...is to convey to you through eyes connected, that I could never find words that would suffice in expressing to you the residency I've allowed you in my heart... I am and have always been untamed,wild and free in spirit, but I cannot deny that your outstretched hand will be the only call to turn my tracks around.. It is a warmth carried in your song that has cleared a heavy mist relentlessly restricting, suffocating... what is left of the rhythm of my own life...? I hear your song... My heart is still beating

I met people that at some point I thought were my soul mates... I loved a lot and I have been hurt too many times! I was once in a relationship, beautiful it seemed, but I was alone in it. A lesson in the end... how to be alone and make it work because although I was alone... I was not lonely. I know the kind of woman I want and need so I am waiting for her... Until then I'm alone but not lonely because I am happy knowing I'm waiting for wat I deserve! Being alone is much better than playing the field because you lose your focus of happiness, your self pride, a lady knows her dignity. I learned that when I decide to be alone, but definitely not lonely... I am content... waiting for you xox

So many things rush throug my mind. Memories, feelings, things that now seem like lies. I trusted again and it took so much this time.

You reminded me of the day I never came by. How sad you were, even pictures where you cried. You see the reason was still to protect you inside... I knew your hurt, I never wanted to see that side. I promised myself to give you my all, hence why there was never that knock on your door. You had me fight hard for me to reach a point where for you my heart was released. Yours to hold, yours to keep.

You made it hard with the confusion you claimed as watching you kiss other girls, leaving me behind to find with in me the trust to be bound, to the love I now look at with a heart that drowns. The tears you told me was over me was in actual fact for the lover that knocked, more lies and deceat.

I kept my cool, I knew it was real, the love for you I started to feel. I closed my eyes and took the step you now want me to see as regret. I could never have you see what I saw... The girls you tried to keep. Knowing my past you pulled the ace that slammed our dreams back in my face. I tried keeping you safe while you found yourself deep, in a place darker than the nights I held you while screaming yet you were fast asleep. The first shot was hard, the sting felt deep, deeper than any scars in me. I shruged it of and stood by your side no matter how hard I had to fight. For reminding you how precious you are meant far more than my silly scars. We made it out to the light, our love now free to remind me again you are forever in me. Marry me one day I heard you breath in a moment we both thought could never be. I wanted to scream, i wanted to shout, yes my love please,  forever I'll love you, I promise you me.

My tumble in life came when I tried to see to a brighter future for you and me. I tried to stand tall but I fell on my knees, for I looked around to find just me. Away on business, you told me, was actually ripping us apart, another girl other than me.

I accepted your words as truth told to me that you would never hurt me like that, you loved only me.

Confused at times over words that cut deep, I thank you for reminding me why my scars were so deep. Taking a knive, you ripped us appart...

Questions still hang fresh in the air but now I know, the answers are there. A truth hidden deep in the scars you have left. I would have loved you forever, beyond my last breath.

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost, your witness Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed You step a little closer each day That I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly Love  it taught me to lie Life  it taught me to die So it's not hard to fall When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear Still a little bit of your words I long to hear You step a little closer to me So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly Love  it taught me to lie Life taught me to die So it's not hard to fall When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to cry So come on, courage, teach me to be shy 'Cause it's not hard to fall And I don't wanna scare her It's not hard to fall And I don't wanna lose It's not hard to grow When you know that you just don't know

The truth of it all
The hurt once there
The giant let go, the giant was free
Oblivious being this giant would be
Scorned emotions locked away deep
The giant's mistake, it was only asleep
Insignificant to the listening soul
The words woke up this demon so old
It raged with no fear, destruction to peace
Inside a once gentle giant. Now a beast
It tore through the soul and a heart made of gold
Shaking the roots of a giant that stands so tall
The battle inside made to break the soul
The demon so savage will taunt the giant
Reminding the strong how words can cut deep
The demon trigger would never know
How the sharp weapon they carry made a demon grow
The demon now quiet, patient, asleep.
The giant now aware of its own defeat, waiting for the weapon
To utter words that would again cut so very very deep

Time, it moves slowly while you're gone
I haven't heard your voice in quite some time
But I still see your face
I cannot erase the things you've done
And all the ways you kept me hangin' on
Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road
I know, it hurts to hear the truth
Well maybe
I was never meant to be with you
And I cannot replace
The tears of disgrace
That run for you
Cause running from the truth is what you do
Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

The time has come for me to grow
Between you and I some deep emotions flowed
A road we knew, we both felt its pain
I need to choose at the forked road
I choose the road that leads me away from you
I tried, patience tested but my free will remains
I had to let go. The fear of what you turned into makes my deepest emotions hide
I chose to love you, I chose to hurt
All that is now done at the fork that will split us to be free
I now know I have to save me
My heart you see it shows no fear
For the love it holds is bigger you see
Bigger than the hurt you chose for me

If I could tell you how much I like you... If only I could tell you how much I am fond of you
So much more happiness would unfold. If I could tell you how much I care for you, you would be touched. You would have me in your arms, tightly clutched
If I could tell you how much I fancy the thought of us, I would say it right away If only I could only tell you how scared I am to show my feelings for you. What will you think, is the thought that leaves me with nothing to say

I see that something is missing to the once perfect you. I read... But this feeling is nothing I imagined, for what I see I have heard before... Maybe look deeper from where came this all.

The words that haunt me forever it seems come to light when your heart, quietly bleeds. Your secrets are safe forever in me as I wait for dawn to be my escape.

Always in the shaddow it seems of a previous giant of lies and deceat. Never a day would I do the same... Even now I imagine that pain.

Truth be told once and for all... Me the fool in the bigest game you played out of all.

My mind rest easy knowing that I never replaced something you now claim is fake. It brings new sight to my life... I can now see, only one of us believes in true love and its me

If not for you, I wouldn’t know
What true love really meant.
I’d never feel this inner peace
I couldn’t be content.
If not for you I’d never have
The pleasures of romance.
I’d miss the bliss, the craziness,
Of love’s sweet, silly dance.
I have to feel your tender touch;
I have to hear your voice;
No other one could take your place;
You’re it; I have no choice.
If not for you, I’d be adrift;
I don’t know what I’d do;
I’d be searching for my other half,
Incomplete, if not for you.

She let go... Without a thought or a word, she let go. She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the 'right' reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.

She didn't ask anyone for advice . She didn't read a book on how to let go. She didn't search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all the memories that held her back. She let go of all the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.

She didn't promise to let go. She didn't journal about it. She didn't write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn't check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.

She didn't analyze whether she should let go. She didn't call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn't do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn't call the prayer line. She didn't utter one word. She just let go.

No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go. There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn't good and it wasn't bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.

In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore....

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

Things that bring us to our knees. Things that threaten everything we think we know. Things that make us say, Oh ****. And only oh **** will do. Even if you’ve not cursed in decades, you know only oh **** will do. You don’t need a period or any punctuation for that matter because it’s not over; there’s no time to pause. Ohfuckohfuckohfuck.

How does it feel? Like the sting of the wind on a fresh cut. Only worse. Because the bleeding won’t stop. There’s no Bandaid big enough. You start to hold your breath and bite your lip because you’re watching your very life, the marrow from your bones, ooze onto the pavement in front of you. And you just want to hold on — if only to this breath. To life as you knew it this morning or yesterday or the day before that.

How is this happening? You’re in shock. This isn’t supposed to be happening.

I open my lungs to breathe in
forgiveness and love
Haunting me now reminders of how I
used to be
And on down the road my troubles
are sure to follow
Looking out the window, the hell if I
know where I will go
So I'll just keep on driving
On my way to PE looking into the
rear view as the roads fade away
I've sworn off my past, first to last bad
call that I ever made
Tell me how to make right every
wrong turn that I've learned
Well, it's my heart I'll follow this time
Who would've known that pride is so
hard to swallow?
As I rest on the shoulder of a road
growing colder
With the trouble I own, should I just
keep on driving?
Tell me how to make right every
wrong turn that I've learned
So this can all end tonight, EC
line just changed my mind
Well, it's my heart I'll follow this time
I know I must be doing something
right
Ask myself if I can turn it all around
tonight
And stop living with doubt
I've sworn off my past, first to last bad
call that I ever made
It's my heart I'll follow this time

You are the only one for me, Doesn't matter how hard it get's.
I'm here standing firm, with or with nothing to earn...because that's how Love works.

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her
mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is
wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers
"I'm fine” after a few seconds... she is not at all fine. When a
GIRL stares at you... she is wondering why you are lying. When
a GIRL suddenly grabs your hand... she is wishing for you to be
hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she
wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says "I love you"... she
means it. When a GIRL says "I miss you"... no one in this world
can miss you more than that. Life only comes around once make
sure u spend it with the right person...

Fading of the day
as night takes over
and I can almost feel
you here
Your memory remains
I breath it closer
I swear that I still feel you near
The cool wind is taking over
it’s taking over
So far away
you’re gone so long
and I’m waiting
Till that day
I take you home
know that I’m waiting

There is so much that I like about you
Day and night you're on my mind
The way that you are, you caught my eye
Beautiful...  I can't get enough
The way you make my heart beat fast... Doesn't take much, just put you in my sight
The way you smile reminds me its true... That beauty is like fine art, there to be admired... yes you  
The expressions you have keeps my eyes locked on your face
Painful memories fade away when I look into your gentle eyes
A heart that is true that makes my soul come alive
Your intellect, your mind, its a welcomed place, the connections I find when I listen to you
Getting to know you is worth my while
I fell hard for you, a truth I can't deny

The day I met you was the day that I knew
That angels are real and dreams do come true
The day I met you was the day that I found
That love is what makes this whole earth turn round
The day I met you was the day that I heard
The whistle of the wind and the tune of the birds
The day I lost you was the day that I swore
That I would never love again, no-one, anymore
The day I find you will be the day that I know
That I’ll love you forever and never let you go
The day I meet you will be the day that you say
I’ve waited all my life just to meet you today.

I love you still with each passing day
I need you more than words can say
I'm missing you with all my soul
The days have passed, I've lost control
My heart stops beating when you smile
I would have died for you, this pain's not easy
Whether you love me, whether you care
I need you to know, I'll always be there
When you're sad and falling apart
When someone breaks your heart
On nights when you cry yourself to sleep
On days when it stings, when it cuts so deep
Every second you swear you'll never live again
Every hour when you feel you have no friends
When all you can feel in your eyes are the tears
When your hands are shaking and you're surrounded by fears
On days when all you feel is the pain
When all you remember just isn't the same
I promise you now, I'll always be here
When all you need is a friend, I will always be near
Some people feel they have no one at all
Like their world is breaking and they can't help but fall
Let me tell you right now, I've felt that same way
And in ten years from now, in five, in a month, or today
I will still love you
I will still stand beside you
I will still be there for you
To talk
To listen
To cry
To care
To just believe
No matter what they say, turn around and
Behind you is where I will stand
Forever to catch you,
Forever your friend.
So when you feel like your world is about to end
Just call out my name
And I will be there.

Thinking back on my life, when I was a little child
So outrageous and bubbly doing things that were wild.
Thinking back on my life, all those wonderful years
Not a care in the world, no worries, no fears.
Thinking back on my life, all the advice I was told:
What a wonderful child, my parents hoped they would mold.
But as we all know, it's not always what we dreamed;
Life gets harder, and to us it's not always how it seemed.
There are two roads in life: the right one and wrong one
The wrong one I chose and it seemed life was done.
But as time has went on, I had to agree
I can do and be anything I want to achieve.
I have tried over and over and failed to succeed
But I am a SOLDIER, that's what I believe.
My LIFE is too precious to let it slip away
I must try harder and harder each coming day.
One day soon, I'll be All that I am
How do I know you ask?
BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN!!!!