Things that bring us to our knees. Things that threaten everything we think we know. Things that make us say, Oh ****. And only oh **** will do. Even if you’ve not cursed in decades, you know only oh **** will do. You don’t need a period or any punctuation for that matter because it’s not over; there’s no time to pause. Ohfuckohfuckohfuck.

How does it feel? Like the sting of the wind on a fresh cut. Only worse. Because the bleeding won’t stop. There’s no Bandaid big enough. You start to hold your breath and bite your lip because you’re watching your very life, the marrow from your bones, ooze onto the pavement in front of you. And you just want to hold on — if only to this breath. To life as you knew it this morning or yesterday or the day before that.

How is this happening? You’re in shock. This isn’t supposed to be happening.

There is so much that I like about you
Day and night you're on my mind
The way that you are, you caught my eye
Beautiful...  I can't get enough
The way you make my heart beat fast... Doesn't take much, just put you in my sight
The way you smile reminds me its true... That beauty is like fine art, there to be admired... yes you  
The expressions you have keeps my eyes locked on your face
Painful memories fade away when I look into your gentle eyes
A heart that is true that makes my soul come alive
Your intellect, your mind, its a welcomed place, the connections I find when I listen to you
Getting to know you is worth my while
I fell hard for you, a truth I can't deny

The time has come for me to grow
Between you and I some deep emotions flowed
A road we knew, we both felt its pain
I need to choose at the forked road
I choose the road that leads me away from you
I tried, patience tested but my free will remains
I had to let go. The fear of what you turned into makes my deepest emotions hide
I chose to love you, I chose to hurt
All that is now done at the fork that will split us to be free
I now know I have to save me
My heart you see it shows no fear
For the love it holds is bigger you see
Bigger than the hurt you chose for me

Lost is how I feel in your eyes
Afraid I was, but I'm not anymore
Getting to know you proved my point
That second you realise anything and everything is beautiful that receives your touch. The way your eyes sparkle, your smile... "The look"... It all reminds me of the elegance you grace life with... How rich you make a soul feel... My soul to be honest...    
My heart for you is true, I know I won't fail. I step back and watch as you start to heal from a once broken heart... The one I wish to steal. I never thought that someone could crash through my walls like this. I tried, like you, to not let this happen but who can deny the soft gentle you, the naughty side, yes there's that too. I had no defence when it came to you. I don't want one, don't need one, for something in me screams you, you, YOU. Taking my time, patience I have till one day I hope to take it away... That thought of love not being true. I guess its still me, loves biggest fool. I didn't become the cold beast I hoped for, and for that my darling I blame the beautiful you

If I could tell you how much I like you... If only I could tell you how much I am fond of you
So much more happiness would unfold. If I could tell you how much I care for you, you would be touched. You would have me in your arms, tightly clutched
If I could tell you how much I fancy the thought of us, I would say it right away If only I could only tell you how scared I am to show my feelings for you. What will you think, is the thought that leaves me with nothing to say

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something.

So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people, and sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
People are people, and sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
It's two A.M.
Feeling like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy for me
And we know it's never simple, never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
I can't breathe without you
But I have to.
I'm sorry