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Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
Thought how good it would feel
To be under your spell
Well the conversation’s dried up
And I’m left shaking
I’ve got things I must do
Never waste a day when the sun is shining
But I can’t fight these blues
And I feel just like I am drowning
So sail away my darling
Wave a kiss goodbye
I swear I thought we’d make it
Oh God how I tried
So I’m holding on tight
To the strength of my own convictions
Another sleepless night
Never thought I’d feel this broken hearted
And everybody loved us
But everyone could see
A change that left me holding
An empty fantasy
Heal… myself
You are supposed to be the one that does so well
And everybody knows the pain of loosing love
When are you suppose to learn to give it up….
Give it up
So sail away my darling
Wave a kiss goodbye
I swear I thought we’d make it
Now just an empty fantasy
Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
So many things rush throug my mind. Memories, feelings, things that now seem like lies. I trusted again and it took so much this time.

You reminded me of the day I never came by. How sad you were, even pictures where you cried. You see the reason was still to protect you inside... I knew your hurt, I never wanted to see that side. I promised myself to give you my all, hence why there was never that knock on your door. You had me fight hard for me to reach a point where for you my heart was released. Yours to hold, yours to keep.

You made it hard with the confusion you claimed as watching you kiss other girls, leaving me behind to find with in me the trust to be bound, to the love I now look at with a heart that drowns. The tears you told me was over me was in actual fact for the lover that knocked, more lies and deceat.

I kept my cool, I knew it was real, the love for you I started to feel. I closed my eyes and took the step you now want me to see as regret. I could never have you see what I saw... The girls you tried to keep. Knowing my past you pulled the ace that slammed our dreams back in my face. I tried keeping you safe while you found yourself deep, in a place darker than the nights I held you while screaming yet you were fast asleep. The first shot was hard, the sting felt deep, deeper than any scars in me. I shruged it of and stood by your side no matter how hard I had to fight. For reminding you how precious you are meant far more than my silly scars. We made it out to the light, our love now free to remind me again you are forever in me. Marry me one day I heard you breath in a moment we both thought could never be. I wanted to scream, i wanted to shout, yes my love please,  forever I'll love you, I promise you me.

My tumble in life came when I tried to see to a brighter future for you and me. I tried to stand tall but I fell on my knees, for I looked around to find just me. Away on business, you told me, was actually ripping us apart, another girl other than me.

I accepted your words as truth told to me that you would never hurt me like that, you loved only me.

Confused at times over words that cut deep, I thank you for reminding me why my scars were so deep. Taking a knive, you ripped us appart...

Questions still hang fresh in the air but now I know, the answers are there. A truth hidden deep in the scars you have left. I would have loved you forever, beyond my last breath.
Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
I see that something is missing to the once perfect you. I read... But this feeling is nothing I imagined, for what I see I have heard before... Maybe look deeper from where came this all.

The words that haunt me forever it seems come to light when your heart, quietly bleeds. Your secrets are safe forever in me as I wait for dawn to be my escape.

Always in the shaddow it seems of a previous giant of lies and deceat. Never a day would I do the same... Even now I imagine that pain.

Truth be told once and for all... Me the fool in the bigest game you played out of all.

My mind rest easy knowing that I never replaced something you now claim is fake. It brings new sight to my life... I can now see, only one of us believes in true love and its me
Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
Let me breath you in, and breath the words in your mouth, inside
your shivering, the silence shouts so loud. I just want to, I just want
to stay around, and while my heart beats I promise I won't let you
down.
If you keep building these walls, brick by brick towers so tall, soon I
won't see you at all, until the concrete angel falls, I knew who you
were from the start, but now I don't know who you are, soon there
will be nothing at all, until the concrete angel falls.
If I'm somewhere else it doesn't mean that I don't see, that you
don't trust yourself, that's why you don't trust me, it makes me
crazy, when you're crazy, you don't speak, you think you know me,
but what you know is just skin deep
. If you keep building these walls, brick by brick towers so tall, soon I
won't see you at all, until the concrete angel falls, I knew who you
were from the start, but now I don't know who you are, soon there
will be nothing at all, until the concrete angel falls.
It's twisting your mind, I'm not getting through, cos I don't see it like
you do, There's nothing to find you've got no excuse, I'm over
getting over you, cos I don't see it like you do, I'm over getting over
you.
Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
Time, it moves slowly while you're gone
I haven't heard your voice in quite some time
But I still see your face
I cannot erase the things you've done
And all the ways you kept me hangin' on
Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road
I know, it hurts to hear the truth
Well maybe
I was never meant to be with you
And I cannot replace
The tears of disgrace
That run for you
Cause running from the truth is what you do
Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road
Nikki Wolmarans Oct 2013
I forgot what life is all about ...I forgot what it meant to cry ...I forgot
that pretending to be happy, doesn't make you happy ...and that
pretending to be smart, doesn't make you smart ...I forgot that you
can't just forget the past in fear of the future ... I learned that I can
love ....I learned that it's okay to mess up ..And it's okay to ask for
help and it's okay to feel like hell . I learned it's okay to complain
and whine to all your friends for a whole day ... I've learnt that
sometimes the things you want most, is worth holding on too and
fighting for. I've learnt that the greatest thing about life ISN'T the
parties or the hook-ups ... I've learnt that sometimes, the things we want to forget, are the
things that we most need to talk about ...
But basically,I've just learnt that the people in my life now are the
most important people to me in the entire world ...AND .. Without
them, I wouldn't be who I am today ....
Dream as if u will live forever...Live as if u will die today...
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