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Nikki Aug 2013
Everyone looks at me with high hopes,
Overcome by their own needs to realize,
That I am slowly dying inside.
All that I do is for them,
so that I,
A worthless being,
may feel that I am not a complete waste of space.
But even after the hard labor of pleasing everyone,
I still feel as useless as before.
Nikki Aug 2013
The problem with running,
Is that no matter how fast or far you run,
You can never outrun yourself.
Nikki Aug 2013
The darkness that lives within our mind,
That lingers in our veins,
Devours our heart and claims the soul
As its very own.
Nikki Aug 2013
Her smile so fake and pathetic,
but no one cares enough to look through it.
Can't you see she's tearing herself apart?
Just trying to discover what her life is about?
Cause all they do is muddle her thoughts till she's empty and broken,
right back to the start.
Her eyes have been blinded from the acid that drips,
from every word that is spoken by their grinning red lips.
Hiding from the monster she made in her mind,
her reflection's nothing more than a beast in disguise.
There's no praying for the hopeless,
No wishing for the broken.
She's all alone in the dark asking her inner demon,
How to carry on, how to keep on going,
Cause he's the only one who stops and stays to listen.
Ms. Sorrow, Ms. Broken, Ms. All-Your-Words-Unspoken,
please keep fighting on.
In the end it'll all be gone.

But something doesn't quite make it across,
Through translation the words are lost.
They say, *Darling your sinking, Babe you're going down,
Honey you're drowning and it's something you can't doubt.
Just give up now, just stop the fight,
You're gonna lose, but that's alright.
I was thinking about making this into some kind of song, but I decided to put what I had so far on here...
Nikki Aug 2013
Silent yet loud,
She expresses her emotions differently,
But they area all too busy to decipher the codes she leave behind.
Her desire is to be found and saved,
But they grow tired of searching for her as she hides away in her tower.
She wants to speak out,
But she doesn't know how to say the right words to make them stop.
There is something in her that wants to give up and run,
But there is someone in the crowd that would care...
...Right?
Nikki Aug 2013
The words I'm disappointed in you
Do you realize how hard they hit?
Don't you understand that I can't afford to hear those words spoken to me?
Because they just continue to break me,
Like another thin crack in glass:
Seeming small but enough to crumble,
What has already been shattering.
But don't let this fool you.
There are many other cracks too,
However no one knows if it is your thin words to make me finally break.
Nikki Aug 2013
I'm getting ahead of myself I know.
I'm sorry, but that's how it happens.
My mind is a bunch of mumbled up thoughts,
But is that really my fault?
Well to you everything is my fault.
I forgot.
I forgot that you don't care.
I forgot that you have things to do. Better things.
I forgot that I'm not good enough for you.
I forgot that this is dragging you down too.
I forgot that this is too much for you to handle.
I forgot that you don't understand.
I forgot that you don't care what happens.
I forgot that to you, I'm over exaggerating.
Well I really have to admit something.
I didn't forget.
I couldn't.
Everything you said burned into my skin,
Burned into my thoughts.
It went so deep, your thoughts became mine.
Soon i began to realize.
I realized that I am over exaggerating.
I realized that I'm not good enough.
I realized that I am a burden.
I realized that no one cares.
And most importantly,
I realized that I'm done.
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