My heart aches
(I just want to be safe)
My heart irregularly beats
(I just want to be loved)
It's lust disguising in between the lines.
No emotions of the mind
Only connection sparks when the bodies twines.
Set myself apart from the pain that is being inflicted
But I am imprisoned by the man who chokes my lungs
Gasping for air but i can not control the force
No matter how hard I try , gravity pulls me back
To the man who suffocates my mind
Controlling the common sense I use to own
My truth is hidden behind the lies, He once spoke.....

You're always in my head.
Like a catchy song .
Reappearing over and over again.
Miles never separate you from me .
From my mind .
I can never be at ease.

Insomnia lurks within my mind.Pain hovers over my heart. Will my soul ever be happy again.

My
         WEAKNESS
                             Has
                                       DIED....

It
        Has
                         REINCARNATED
                                                   
                                              Into
  
  
                                                    **STRENGTH

My mind became so weary.
Soul began to day dream ,
Dream of someone special.
Whom it was you .
Your bone structure was made for me.
Your lips fit perfectly fits mine.
Quite a love daze.

Everything I wish for ,
11:11 wish you are to me.
So completely true.
You are completely
buzzing all over my heart.
Quite a love daze.

There is no one like you,
I don't know what it is about you.
Buzzing all over my veins .
Making my heart quiver, and chest shiver
Day and Night
Thought of you and only you
Quite a love daze

True romance can be achieved as long as you are by my side.

Mom, how you not accept that your daughter was hurt.
A lively rainbow soul was stripped, shattered, misuse by a man you once trusted.
Mom , I was afraid of the bathtub, not because of drowning into the drains.
It was because of the man you once trusted.
I was afraid of sleeping in my bed, not because of the scary movies.
It was because of the nightmares my body had to endure by the man you once trusted.  
Mom, the bruises and scars were not from the playground.  
They were from the man you trusted.
I am incapable of loving someone especially myself.
You stood and watched my life stripped by the man you once trusted

I lost myself as I climb the edge of mountain.
A beautiful Inspiration point, try reaching for the silhouette where you once stood waiting for me. I cried till I reached the edge of this cliff , your heart was hidden behind the clouds . I do whatever it takes to hold your hand back into the sun. I don't mind dancing around shadows till we find our breakthrough.

Do you dream of world full of possibilities with no restrictions?"
He choked on asking me ... Was it such a hard question ? Every one dreams of a life with no rules and is on the adventure looking for the pursuit of happiness. His face heavily looked down into his notebook . I can tell he was drenched into every question he was going to ask me . He was curious about me ? My power and the kingdom I reigned. How can I reign a kingdom with no king . We can have it all ? Is it true? This theory may be tested , but my hypothesis is that you can only choose one thing to live with . It depends on deal you make with the devil. But I was walking devil in a dress with power awfully hard to conquer. And this man who is a multimillionaire , once a penniless reporter ,has captured my heart within minutes .

You had my deviant heart.
The moment you turn your head to
Observe me
To taunt me like a predator lurking on its prey.
Oh my like serial killer prying on its next victim.
My soul swayed
My breath races
My body tensed.
You graciously invited yourself in
When you knew you weren't invited
You fought obstacles and never fled with the dead skeletons that swarm out of each door of my heart you would open .
You knew you always had the key.
How come you were so close
and I yet was so far
I was afraid .
Couldn't accept the fight
the blood and the tears you made
To be next to me
To reign next to me
Next to me
I think
I look at sunsets every now and then
Pondering what I will do when I have you by my side
wishing I told you
I loved you sooner than I did....

This experience is like a flower.
It grows
Its beautiful .
But the duration
of this beautiful flower
is limited
Just as in our situation
where it prepares us
for what's next
in our individual futures

Come climb up
Discover within the branches of my  tree.
As you inspect
The branches I have torn from my tree are only those who have scorn my soul.
Each creases share my story, as the creases get deeper you will know my naked heart.
Each leaves share my chameleon personality
As you climb higher
You learn what is weak and what is strong
What I can offer with each branch.
I am a muse to protecting you.
Share my tree to inspire the rest of the world.

I wonder what is like to fall in love.
To feel beautiful every day.
To be wanted.
But I know what is like to love myself.
Thats the love i will ever need.

Time....
What are you made of ?
Why do you tick every second?
What am I waiting for ?
Life has been nothing but a whirlwind.
Days longers, lives are getting shorter.
Time....
Do we really have control of you ?
Is it essential to follow you?
Do I have the time to question your powers?
I wonder when will you share your time with me....

The stars aligned together under the blue moon where the dogs whistle their somber tune.
Restless nights linger every now and then.
My melancholy mind follows the dark tunnels where a broken record replays my memories. My heart echos for the beat it needs.
My soul lusts for the passion, the light had brought me.
I have no sense of direction to experience what I want.
Just the memories you imprinted in my mind.

I have everything.
   But yet I feel so
                              **Alone

My heart is escaping on a thin line,
I never meant to hurt nobody,
I didn't mean to start a war,
I just let myself go in this profound thing we call....

                                **Passion