"Tickets tickets tickets"
Enticing the buyers to
Observe you
To speculate your insecurities on the stage
To bring you smirks , since your mind seems to forget what is happiness...
There you gaze into bright lights of never ending tunnel.
All eyes gazing on you , all ears appeal to you .
Mouth raging to ignite their movements.
Hands clasp together, ready to make beats for your amusement...
You do what is best .
Natural calling .
But tonight , there she was ....
Her lips entice you to come in,
To taste her grievances of a broken heart.
To sew the broken patches of her soul.
To hear the safeness of your vocal mind.
You want her . You adore her.. But you can't please her
Gulp gulp your throat....
Don't mind her , let her go .....
The show must go on ....
She will leave those doors into the never ending light you gazed at on stage...

I lie here in darkness.
Hearing the broken cords of my heart
Each vein de attached from what use to be held by you.
The Cursive lines of my lips no longer speak your name
Or taste you...
Trying so hard to not think of the way you brought me into life .
Only for you to buried me again.
I shiver without your touch.
I go blind without your gaze
I miss you dearly.
You were a certain romance, my silhouette dances of remembrance.
I lie in darkness...

Time....
What are you made of ?
Why do you tick every second?
What am I waiting for ?
Life has been nothing but a whirlwind.
Days longers, lives are getting shorter.
Time....
Do we really have control of you ?
Is it essential to follow you?
Do I have the time to question your powers?
I wonder when will you share your time with me....

The Year Of Black
Black Poison Lingers...
through every vein of my body.
Black Thoughts....
Clotting my soul into death.
Black Habits....
Unable to escape this coffin
Sufficiently I am able to breathe
Black Roses Black Petals ...
Surrounding my hearty ice chest.
Waiting , Longing To Be Desired.
To be unconditionally loved.
For who I am , For what I hate to be.
Someone uncover the black veil that haunts my body.....

My heart aches
(I just want to be safe)
My heart irregularly beats
(I just want to be loved)
It's lust disguising in between the lines.
No emotions of the mind
Only connection sparks when the bodies twines.
Set myself apart from the pain that is being inflicted
But I am imprisoned by the man who chokes my lungs
Gasping for air but i can not control the force
No matter how hard I try , gravity pulls me back
To the man who suffocates my mind
Controlling the common sense I use to own
My truth is hidden behind the lies, He once spoke.....

"You're strong.
You're going to get out of this dark cloud
With some tears
Or
No Tears at all.
But when you recover
You will be okay Corea."

All I ever wanted was to be happy.
It was stripped by the demon under my soul.
All I ever wanted to be beautiful,
It was stripped by the words that my mind control.
All I ever wanted to do is scream happiness
But my tears overruled.
All I ever wanted was to be accepted.
But....
I could not let go of the lies my lips spoke
I didn't let my heart demand success
I always victimized myself.
I say change , but what is change when I am blindly impaired to what is hope?
I am more than the world sees me.
I am Nicole Joann Corea
I wanted to be strong through the dark tunnels.
Light will illuminate, I will sing through the somber moments.
Ignite my dormant motivation.
Let there be no more I can't or excuses
I have come far, I survived.
I am beautiful
I am smart
I am capable
I love me
I discover, I am and always be
Nicole Joann Corea